Hi Everyone,

 

I got a new computer I had to put together, well I accidently put the RAM in wrong and fried my motherboard.  Nothing like losing out on $150 I don't have, but I did have to pay $300 more dollars for a new motherboard and two new sticks of RAM, so my $800 computer is now going to be an $1100 computer.  If I bought my computer from a company it would have costed me well over $2000, so I guess I am still ahead of the game, but it would have been nice to keep it under $1000.

 

I was so mad at myself everyone on the block could hear me screaming profanities for approximately an hour or so, now my new parts should be here Tuesday Wednesday, and then it will take a day or so to put it all together and operational.  I didn't want anyone to worry, as you all know my terminal situation.

 

G.  It is fine that you took the comment off, it's your site ~smiles~.  I try and refrain from making explicit references to political parties ~winks~...

I was originally going to post Malachi’s summer vacation pictures today, but yesterday we had a little incident, so I will be posting those pictures today instead.

 

At 3pm I was playing with my daughter Mariah when I heard gunshots.  I didn’t think much of it, since I hear gunshots all the time.  Probably figured it was a muffler backfiring or someone getting a Black Bear out of their garbage.

 

Well next thing you know there are three Sheriff Snipers in my backyard.  Most of you know I grow pot and I am brazen in speaking out on it, so it was a bit unsettling, although you couldn’t tell by looking at me.  I’m generally calm as a rock regardless of what happens.

 

Apparently, some guy behind us in a trailer park went loopy and started firing random shots, as of 9pm last night it was till going on ~shrugs~.

 

To be a complete asshole  I stood in my house smoking a bowl and watching them aim down on this guy, while I was taking pictures of the snipers ~chuckles~.  I got to thinking what if I knew the guy and he called me to get rid of the cops.  I could have picked them all off ~chuckles~. Luckily I am not a crazed psycho killer, but the thought was entertaining, if not just to teach them to keep their damn guard up.

 

Police are absolutely useless anyways,  they can’t do anything to prevent a crime.  They can only deal with a situation after it happens.  I know this because a friend of mines boyfriend was going to kill her.  He had just gotten out of prison.  She called the cops and told them what was up and they said sorry can’t help ya.

 

They never seem to miss out on donut shop time.  My dad use to be a cop when I was young.  I have shot meth with cops in San Diego.  You think detectives really stay up with coffee?  ~grins~.  Hell no some of our best customers at the ole methlab were police detectives who needed shit to catch other people like us ~snickers~.

 

This brought back memories of when Billy and I use to shoot at police cars and helocopters.  We don’t do that kind of crap anymore, but when we were young it was plane good fun.  Nothing better than making a cop shit his pants ~grins~.  We use to shoot at each other.  One time I almost got my head blown off by a 30-30 for looking up at the wrong time ~chuckles~.  Nothing like a bunch of teenagers with AK-47’s and 30-30’s shooting at each other ~grins~.

 

I wish I could tell you everything I have done, but that would probably get me 20yrs. And I would rather live outside than inside prison.  I am not the same person anyways, my soul has been saved.  Today I just try and stay away from trouble.

 

I remember when I started working at the meth lab.  Just to get on the inside they had a guy tied to a chair.  They would give you a gun and if you didn’t axe him, they would axe you, so I axed him, or would have, but the gun wasn’t loaded.  They just wanted to see if I had what it took to work there, and I did.

 

It seems almost like an entirely different life now.  Other than haunting memories and sever PTSD?  Nothing remains of that old person.  Could I become that person again? I sure could, but my wife and kids would have to be killed before I would ever go that way again.  I have shit to live for now, that’s why I am probably dying.  I love being a part of a cosmic joke and not knowing the punch lines ~chuckles~.

 

Anyways, the dope is safe.  They never came in my place, so they were all good with me ~smiles~.  Just stay outside and we won’t have a problem.  Because even though I am authorized to grow and smoke pot for my terminal illness the municipalities still arrest people.  You usually get it dismissed in court, so they can still claim you as a number for the 80 billion dollar a year drug war.  Meanwhile you vomit and live in pain until you can get your medicine growing again.

 

Let us see what has the drug war accomplished?  I can still go down to any corner downtown and get Crack, Meth, Pot, Coke, etc.  You take one down the ladder moves up!  It is a felonious amount of money used for Air America.

 

Did you know since Bush’s inception to the white house that the opium crops in afghanastan have tripled?  The largest crop ever this year.  Under Clinton almost all of it was gone, but you put Republicans back in office and Air America fires up the engines once again.

 

I think it is sad our government uses drugs to eliminate free thinkers by making them criminals and losing out on education.  Something rich people get no matter what they do!

 

Having worked for the government in this capacity I know exactly what goes on behind the scenes.  We place certain drug lords into places until they get to big for their britches then we replace them.  Noriega is a perfect example of this…you may think he is in jail, but he is in Europe with Lehder writing multimillion/billion underwrites for an insurance company now.  He never spent a day in jail.

 

Oh and the loser from Enron that had a heart attack?  He is in europe right now to, enjoying his swiss and cayman bank accounts ~grins~.

 

Oh well I guess I don’t expect anyone to believe me.  Blogging is more of a theraputic thing for me.  When my head gets all filled up with crimes of my past, or thoughts of the present I can write them down and move on with my day.  Knowing that before myself, God and other humans that I have done the things to alleviate the weight of my soul for one more day ~smiles~.

 

All these are pale deaths in which men miscall their lives, all this I cannot bear to witness any longer.  Cannot the kingdom of Salvation take me home?!…

 

Today the song will need no lyrics, for almost everyone in America has heard it before, enjoy…

I have received word from a political group I associate with that President Bush is contemplating a full-scale nuclear attack upon Iran.  Their reasoning behind this is that we are too stretched out on troops and it is the only feasible way that we can win the war on terrorism and show North Korea that we are not fucking around on our war with terrorism.

 

First off this has never been a war about terrorism, and I am not sure that Osama Bin Laden did the 9/11 destruction that caused all of this.  I am not a conspiracy nut, I am actually quite cynical, so I always research the best I can before putting out potentially damaging information.

 

This is not a war on democracy.  If it were we would be in Danfur, Rwanda, etc.  But since they have nothing to offer us and no money to pay us back.  We let them suffer genocide just like we did when Hitler was burning Jews.  Hell the Roman Catholic Church even joined with the axis of evil.  They always have, and yet still seem to flourish with their evil ways.

 

I know a lot of you hate Americans because of America.  Well that would be like me hating all of Islam because some extreme assholes have an insatiable urge for power and glory ~sighs~.  Islam is a beautiful religion of peace, which is very much like the American Bible.  Please don’t hate Americans.  Like most of you I am a little person who loves my family and just wants to live in peace.  Is there not anyway that every country could rise above it’s power hungry administrators?  It is imperative that we do this soon.  Our world doesn’t have much longer and we should fear peace more than war, for that brings with it the end of times.

 

I know that the Middle East is filled with people just like me.  People who love their families and just want peace.  They want their kids to stop dying for extremist who are more akin to Lucifer than Allah.  We have the same problem here too American consumer whores and media fed brainless cattle Christians who believe everything the government does is right ~sighs~, and those who question it (like me) are terrorists in our own way ~sighs~.  I just want the people of America to hold their government accountable.  How come they can’t agree on anything but incumbency and raises?!  Things that make me say hmmm.

 

I am very sad for our world today and almost in tears.  I see such a beautiful thing that God(s) gave us.  God gave us the mother to live upon, probably the only planet in the universe with intelligent life.  God(s) gave us love and unity, but man always finds a way to turn it into separation and war ~teary eyed~

 

Pride cometh before the fall, and we are a very prideful race.  Meanwhile all of us little common folk will be decimated because we have no way of keeping our government and our extremist docile and under control.  All for the glory of the rich and prideful!  For verily I say to you now, you have your rewards here on earth and shall not see the light of Heaven.

 

What of the children?  Can someone push a button to kill the minority while massacring the majority of peacefuls?  I get that same feeling I get when I remember the watching the Cuban Missile Crisis ~cringes~  It’s an icky fearful feeling because we have all denied our God(s) on the national level, and we let madmen politicals own our very souls and the outcome of creation.  It is time to stop worrying about money.  It is time to start helping each other, or this world will not make it past 2012.

 

I don’t want to tell anyone I told him or her so, but when we reach the great lounge in the sky (metaphorically speaking) all will be revealed.  Many Christians who thought they would make it to heaven will not, many Muslims who think they will make it to heaven and will not, and those who were seen as the last, the common, the inconsequential shall own the greatest part of God(s) kingdom, but it will not be like they all imagine it.  Because the fruit of their tree (the actions they commit) are not what the saviors had in mind for us, nor their Masters/God(s).  Jesus, Allah & Buddha all said to love your enemies, to implore and enact passificisms.  That is the good and ripe fruit of the tree, but by not keeping our government accountable we shall be judged for inaction and apathy! ~smiles wearily~.

 

Today’s song is a sad one.  I will not need to put down the words to this one because you will be able to make them all out ~chuckles~.  So please listen to Johnny Cash and it will speak of the sadness and pain I feel today ~smiles wearily~

Those who know me know I love to smoke pot!

 

Unfortunately, it does have some side affects.  One being the dry mouth.  Two being the munchies.  I have always had a hard time not eating while on pot.  The doctors are happy because I am not wasting away ~chuckles~, which I should be.  The reason I have not wasted away is because pot makes me hungry.  That is why they use it on chemo and Cancer patients.  It induces hunger.

 

Well since I have been getting sicker…because I have a progressive disease, I haven’t been doing much outdoorsy stuff like I love doing, instead I have been relegated to bed rest and light chores ~sighs~.

 

I have been doing research on dieting because I am up to 365lbs.  That has been my max weight for the last 10 years, but recently because the inability to exercise on a regular basis.  I have been feeling fat and bloated, so I started researching.

 

My wife has changed the way we eat.  We have basically made a lifestyle change for the whole family, but it is one thing to have the “will” to say no, and another to not be able to stop one’s self from eating.

 

I am on 150mg of Amitryptiline, which has a weird side affect.  I sleep walk and sleep eat.  How am I suppose to control my will when I am dreaming and eating?! ~snickers~.  After hours of research I came up with one conclusion that may help the Marijuana Munchies.

 

I started taking Hoodia.  I recommend Costco’s version.  It is the best deal I have seen and it is a whole food plant tablet.  It breaks down amazingly fast.  I have still been smoking pot for the pain, but I have not been eating uncontrollably ~cheers~.  It would seem that the miraculous testimonies of “Hoodia” may have some merit.  Nor have I been sleep eating, not that I would know ~chuckles~.

 

It is weird.  I just don’t have the desire to eat when stoned anymore ~cheers~.  This should help with weight too.  I am bound and determined to start walking again, but the weather has not allowed it.  I dare not go out into the rain lest I catch a cold and die ~sighs~.  I hate winters…I don’t have the heart to tell my wife the doctor says I could live another 5 – 10 years if I moved someplace warmer ~frowns~.  I have neither the money, nor the health to do that.

 

I had thought about going to Guam.  It is always nice and warm there.  I think the lowest it ever got was probably 70 degrees, and that was during Typhoons ~chuckles~.  I know that if I got back into the healing waters of the ocean it would restore my soul, thereby restoring my faith and health.  I know it sounds crazy to most, but I know what works intuitively ~chuckles~.  I know what must be done to heal me of this terminal disease, but I won’t take my family away from their kinfolk.  I doubt anyone would visit us in Guam ~smiles~.

 

Some days I would like to live another 10 or 20 years.  My wife is more beautiful today than when I first met her.  I love the shit out of my kids, although I am not always good at showing it ~sighs~.  I just don’t know what to do with myself sometimes.  I am always straight up with my kids about everything.  I would like to think I have instilled a level trust unto my children.  I don’t expect them to be perfect, but I would hope they would learn from my example, but perhaps they don’t think I am that bad? ~chuckles~.

 

Examples:

 

I remember when I was a kid.  Whenever we got in trouble my father would always ask us if we wanted to end up like our Uncle Vance.  Well we were too afraid to tell him what we thought, so we just spoke the correct answer (not the honest one).  But we would talk amongst ourselves and to ourselves that Uncle Vance was really cool.  Whether he was or not to everyone else he sure was to us!  We were kids and our version of cool wasn’t synonymous with the adult comprehension.

 

I remember once my cousin Kevin pissed me off, so I slammed his arm in the car door (I was born evil ~chuckles~.)  Everyone else criticized me and belittled me.  I was subject to public humiliation for doing what I saw every day on television!  Uncle Vance however, snuck me in a chocolate donut with icing and sprinkles, so of course he was cooler than my mom and dad.  ~chuckles~  Kids judge things in way different context than adults do ~smiles~.

 

And then there are those days when I am laying in bed in so much pain that suicide becomes common contemplation during the day, and all that I wish is that God would take me whole, instead of piece meal ~throws his arms up~.  But what can I do, but remain as the Bodhisattva!

 

I think I’ll throw up a “Twin Peaks” soundtrack on my sight…no words just cool jazzy stuff ~chuckles~.

 

Anyways, the point is “Hoodia” is working.  And if it can stand the test of time with Marijuana ingestion then I will be very pleased indeed! The reason I am so psyched about it is because I am not one to fall for fads, but several hours of investigation and consumer reports.  I just had to try it, so far so good.  If it makes me conscious about what and how I eat I don’t care if it is a placebo!!!  Don’t piss in my pool! ~smiles~.  If it works do it ~winks~.  I’ll keep everyone posted on the “Hoodia” experiment.  Let us see if it stands the test of time!

 

Well I hope you are all doing great! …

I drove Art out to Wurley, Idaho so he could get cigarettes.  Then we went to his house where we had a “Beer Bet”.  The bet was 9 beers in two hours.  I know it doesn’t sound like a lot.  We had a 12 pack of “Moosedrool” and some Huckleberry Honey Ale.  It was no problem ~grins~.

 

I came home and smoked a bowl.  The wife and kids left for church.  Art calls me and says that Trade A Game called and my Xbox was finished.  Well my wife had the credit card, so I borrowed $40 from my neighbor and got a ride from my other neihbor.

 

I don’t remember how many of you remember yesterdays or the day I turned in the Xbox, because I blogged about it and what the guy had told me about price and everything.  He had said that it would only cost $43 either way, so I go in last night and they try and tell me that it’s gonna be $59.  Those of you who know me probably know what happened next.

 

I went into berzerk mode and started requiring answers to why I was lied too about the price.  And I told him I was going to buy a DVD player and slap it in myself, and he was like oh no bring it in.  It won’t cost anymore even if I replace the drive.  There were two younger kids there and I was demanding to see the ole man that quoted my price.  Even on my ticket it said $43.  He came in then I went off on him.  Sometimes I forget how large I am, and how much of a mean biker I look like ~chuckles~.

 

The guy obviously could see this matter was going to escelate, so before I unleashed my mad biker berserker fury on him ~chuckles~.  He said, and I quote, “This isn’t worth it, to hell with it, give it too him for $39 ~grins~.

 

Several years ago I can remember three times that I had my wife take our Subaru into Appleway and they would tell her it wasn’t covered.  Then on the weekend when everyone was looking for cars I would start yelling and screaming about how they lied to me and ripped me off.  They would be like, “Mr. Summerhill whatever it is will fix it”  Because them bastards did lie to me.  Those guys will do anything to sell you a car ~sighs~.  They will flat out lie about coverage and everything.  Next time I buy anything from them I would bring my lawyer with me ~chuckles~.

 

My “Clan Brother” David just called.   He is gonna loan me some money to get my 3.2GHz out of the closet and up and running ~cheers~.  My wife will be happy she wants to play Everquest again ~chuckles~.  It was fun for the first 3 years, but sheesh it takes you 20 minutes to load the game, 2 hours to find a group ~chuckles~  by the time your ready to do something you got to log off ~sighs~.

 

I hope you are all well…

After 5 years the Xbox finally took a dump ~sighs~.  I took it all apart and cleaned it with the vacuum and I dissected the DVD drive and cleaned the laser canon, lens and mirror.  I also got the sensor.  Of course that just made it worse ~snickers~.

 

I found a Thompson DVD on EBay for $26.11 and $11.44 shipping.  I figure I would just order that and slam it in the box.  I called the owner of Trade A Game and he said he could look over and maintenance my whole system and repair the box for $42.  I decided to go with the experience.  He said if it wasn’t the DVD drive then I would lose money on buying the drive too.  He said he completely refurbishes the machine.

 

I thought it was funny that he didn’t understand computer language, so I told him I know a lot about computers, as a matter of fact, when you open an Xbox it looks just like a computer.  It has an IDE cable, power cords & supply, DVD player, a hard drive, and a motherboard with chipsets.  I am sure he knows more than me if he has been doing it for 15 years ~smiles~, so I’ll let him deal with it ~smiles~.

 

What sucks is I got a new controller for the game and then two days later it goes kaput!  It started a couple months ago, but has been getting progressively worse.  I have been giving that Xbox a pounding for the last few months ~grins~.  Perhaps if I played it this hard all the time it would have died a couple years ago, but Malachi always plays Halo2 and stuff ~shrugs~.

 

I forgot my dad’s birthday, what a dumbass I am.  I was not doing well and so into myself I forgot about my dad ~smacks himself~.  Sometimes I surprise myself with my inability to do the things that people consider the actions of love ~sighs~.  I told him I was involved in my own little world and apologized.  I wouldn’t ever want my dad to think I don’t love him because sometimes I am self-centered, self-absorbed and forgetful ~sighs~.  Oh well, I know my dad knows I love him ~smiles~.  Even if I’m a dumbass sometimes ~chuckles~.

 

Yesterday was actually the first day I was feeling well in the last week.  I feel pretty good today too.

 

My friend and x-boss just called and wants me to help put up his new Pizza Pipeline store sign.  This should be fun ~grins~.  I am suppose to get on the roof and hoist the sign up ~snickers~.  I have been hurting so much it’s been hard to get out of bed ~sighs~.  I should probably take it easy today and not strain myself or I will be bed ridden for another couple days ~sighs~.

 

I hope this finds you well…

I saw another mouse the other day, so I set up another mousetrap.  I woke up this morning to a gruesome sight.  One dead mouse, but the trap had crushed his skull so there was a nice little pool of mouse blood on the floor ~sighs~.  This is my third mouse to date.  I have not noticed mice here before, but I think it is a precursor for the tragic winter we will have in the Pacific Northwest.

 

Mt. St. Helens is getting ready to blow her top again, so everyone in the PACNORWEST prepare to have darkened skies for several days and ash raining down upon us like some “Silent Hill” movie ~cringes~.  At least if Helen blows it should relieve some pressure under Mt. Rainier, which is showing some activity.  There is a glacier on Mt. Rainier.  Can you say bye bye Tacoma and Seattle?  The pyroclastic blast will be amazing, as hot lava and mud roar down the mountain engulfing the whole of Tacoma and part of Seattle.

 

Cascadia is overdue as well.  Cascadia is a major tectonic plate that goes from the Sonora Desert in Baja California, Mexico to the middle of British Columbia.  That is over a 2000-mile stretch.  It happens about every 300 years and we are overdue.  This monster will last for 10 minutes destroying all but the most sturdy earthquake proof buildings.  Instantly a 100-300 ft tsunami will take out the entire Pacific Coastline.  Cities like San Diego, Los Angeles, Palo Alto, Pismo Beach, Portland and Westport will be annihilated from the face of existence.

 

Well Korea told us to fuck off, but I doubt we have the balls to do anything about it, even though surprisingly China doesn’t want them having nuclear capability either.  I find that odd since they are both communist countries ~shrugs~.  I think there is something more going on than meets the eye.  Iran is still telling us to screw off too, but since Unocal wants to run a pipeline through Iran to Europe you can damn well bet we will be fighting Iran soon enough too.

 

Biblically it sounds like Armageddon.  I can see now why the 10 original nations will join together, because they are tired of us imposing our will upon them.  They have their own religion and it is a peaceful one, but unfortunately all we hear about are the evil Islamic beast extremist.  Like these people don’t want to love their children, their spouses, etc?  Sometimes I just wish all the Gods would die, so that we could move on as a race and love each other without the self-righteous indignations of religions.  I doubt this is what Jesus, Mohammed, David, Gandhi, Buddha, etc. all had in mind when they wrote their divine doctrines.

 

I have been very sick and in pain the last few days.  It sucks, but what can I do.  I refuse to take painkillers on a regular basis!  I thought I was going to be all right, so I went to my buddy’s house to drink a few beers, listening to some tunes, and watch a movie.  The next day I was a mess ~sighs~.  I came home and went to sleep.

 

Julie, Malachi, Mariah, and I went to Azteca yesterday for Brinner, dupper, dinner/supper? ~chuckles~.  I don’t like Azteca now that they have become popular.  Their food and their hospitality no longer seem authentic.  We had a white waitress ~sighs~.  I know there are white Spanish folk.  My grandpa was full-blooded Hispanic, so I know, but this chick was some White Jewish Princess who didn’t like her job.  She hurried us and was not polite at all.  The food was substandard, and was not well prepared.  Yesterday was the first time I can remember in the last decade of stiffing a waitress, well we didn’t really stiff her, but we only gave her the tax as a tip.  Usually we give double the tax, which are 16% and then some extra if they were sincere and were tentative to our needs.  Malachi and I had Steak Fajitas, Julie had Arroz Compollo, and Mariah has a cheese Quesadilla with French fries ~shrugs~  Kids are weird ~chuckles~.

 

I got a new Xbox game.  It is Baldur’s Gate II.  I already played the first one years ago.  We bought a new controller because Malachi and I can both play this one, which is really cool ~smiles~.  There are not enough bonding things between us, so I enjoy it when I find a game that we can both play together.  It brings us a bit closer together ~smiles~.  It uses the Dungeons & Dragons engine/mathematics, so I understand the game very well.

 

The choices are 1) Human Barbarian 2)Dark Elf Female Monk (I thought that was very odd), 3) Human Female Cleric (the one I use with Malachi) 4) Moon Elf Necromancer, and 5) A Dwarven Rogue/Thief.  None of these would be my choice. My preference is a Dark Elf – Fighter/Mage/Thief, but I love to play wizards the most.  I have always played Dark Elves if given the chance, so I will probably play the Dark Elf Monk next.  I am playing the Necromancer and am currently on the plane of water.  I am trying to stop the evil guys from building this Onyx Tower that can transport armies at light speed.

 

Ok I think I have rambled on enough.  I better get the house clean.  I have a crapload of work since I have been sick.  It was nice last night I was playing video games with my boy and I came out to get some Apple Cake the wife made and the house was all picked up ~smiles~.  That will sure make it easier on me ~smiles~.

 

Well I hope this finds you all well!…

I am dying right now (not literally, although I wish).  I don’t want to go into the gory details.  Let’s just say I have lost over 10 pounds in the last 24 hours ~sighs~.  I might have to go to the hospital and get put on liquids.  It is a routine procedure I go through during the fall and winter months.

 

Usually there is an enormous amount of pain with this condition.  However, that hasn’t been this case with this attack.  Marijuana doesn’t even touch this kind of pain, and painkillers do litter more than make me vomit.  I guess it is a good thing I have some MJ to keep me from completely heaving my intestines all over the place ~snickers~.  So those of you throwing blessings and prayers my way Thanks!  I don’t care if your God is Ganesh, Allah, Christ/God, YHWH, etc.  As long as it is done with love and compassion ~smiles~.

 

I was watching CNN yesterday and they were having a special on the Apocolypse.  And this one professor said that the Aztec Calendar has the end at 2012.  Now if you have read many of my earlier blogs you would know that I speak of 2012 as the end of Earth.  These guys did not, they were more scientific, and I partially agree we can’t possibly know what it means until we are looking at it in hindsight.  I however have gone with what God has instructed, which is the decline of the middle class leading to civil war and holy war, ending with the destruction of mankind in 2012 when the nuclear holocaust happens.

 

My true hope is that I am wrong and have been listening to the wrong things ~smiles~.  And I will be truly happy if China and Korea don’t start nuclear war with us.  I mean is it possible that some people are so power hungry that they would actually push the button?!  Ask yourself, are there people that callous and void of the Spirit? Of course there are!

 

At any rate, I thought it was kind of trippy.  I am sure I have heard that date in the past as well.  It just struck a cord ~smiles~.  Made my mind go bzzzst bzzzst, not that it takes much ~grins~.

 

I am alive.  I had to smoke a bowl at 8:45AM this morning.  That is way too early for me ~chuckles~, but I won’t throw up all over the place again, hopefully?  My IDS is attacking me in an IBS sort of way.  What happens is my hairs in my intestines stop moving and the food kind of backs up and rots until the body blows it out anyway it can.  The gases cannot be stopped and cause excruciating pain as it tries to blow my stomach up!  Anyways enough grossness about how IDS is kicking my ass literally today! ~smiles~

 

I am too sick and too lazy to write anymore today.  I will try to keep some liquids down, and I will let you know how I am doing in the near future ~hugs~…

Nidhi wrote a great article/blog about fear and terrorism.  I think I would like to extrapolate on that issue.

 

I am one of those people that love America but hate our government, both democrats and republicans and that is why I vote Libertarian.  I took a political test in Political Science that stated I was a Centrist Libertarian in my views, which means I take all the good stuff from both republicans and democrats.  The common sense stuff.

 

We are told not to live in fear of terrorism, but every airport is clogged up with National Guard and federal security agents.  All we see on TV is terrorists’ countries gaining ground politically.  Didn’t we learn anything from Russia’s 10-year war with Afghanistan?  Fear mongering is what our country does best.

 

“Reefer Madness” is a prime example of the lies our government has told us over the years about Marijuana!  We use to watch that at school and then go smoke a joint out back of the school ~chuckles~.  If you’re ever up for a good documentary on Marijuana I would suggest you put “Grass” in your Netflix/Blockbuster Queue.  It is a very good documentary.  Woody Harrelson is the narrator.  It was put together very well.

 

Here is my rant:  If we are claiming democracy as the reason for being in Iraq, how come we don’t help with Rwanda?  Millions have died there in Genocide and no one cries for their democracy?  Why is that?  It is because they have nothing to offer us.  The Middle East has a very important commodity for us called Oil.  Everything we have in society runs on it ~grins~.  So it is in our best interest to insure that we have a puppet/stable government in the Middle East so that Unocal can run their pipeline through their lands.

 

It is our fault that “incumbency” is what it is.  We no longer keep our government accountable, and we certainly fail as a Christian Nation defying Christ’s words whenever it is convenient for us.  Jesus said, “Be kind to your enemies and do good to those that hate you.”  With no exceptions.  We cannot justify war as a Christian Nation.  It is a contradiction and a hypocrisy of everything Christianity stands for, yet we are still at war.  And we haven’t even caught the assholes that did it, nor will we ever!  Unless it is part of the GOP’s plan to ensure another Republican victory.

 

The fact that the Bush family and the Bin Laden families have been joined at the hip through business dealing with both families for decades.

 

What I want to know is who allowed 7% American stocks to be controlled by Saudi Arabia and the Bin Ladens?  Who has been selling off our land piece by piece?  And why would anyone allow the “War Machine” to become a place of investment.  The Carlyle Group which Bin Laden’s and Bush’s have been on.  They make the “Bradley” fighting vehicle, but worse than that the fact is that is you make war machines an investment then the only way to accrue money from it is to make tons of them.  The only way to do that is have wars ~sighs~.  Even Roosevelt (who was a republican) said we should fear the industrialization of an investment military!  Duh!  If you build a War they will come! ~sighs~.

 

Perhaps because I have been involved in some heinous crimes committed by our government that I see only the negative, but I know one thing for sure.  That if one is to believe fully in the word of Jesus then as a nation we need to abide by his law.  If we are not a Christian nation well then we can just keep killing people because we have nothing to say otherwise ~chuckles~.

 

My son wanted to be a Marine Sniper.   I showed him some passages and told him that there are no ifs, ands or buts…the word of Jesus is whole and unforgiving.  The words he spoke were to free mans soul from hate and anger.  To become passive in nature, not warlike.

 

I know no one can see what is going on here, soon all of America’s neighbors will leave us because of the terrorist threats to them, since they live so close to the Middle East.  In a couple years we will be the one getting embargos placed upon us.  And we will be fighting every nation in the world, and once that happens China will step in and do their part to ensure that our capitalist America falls to the ground and burns.

 

If you think this is not possible then all you need to do is look at Rome.  In their arrogance they destroyed themselves by thinking they were the most prized civilization.  But as all great nations do.  It fell apart in the end, and so will America.  But perhaps it is for the best.  Like I said before I love this country and some of the people in it, but I cannot condone nor follow the path of our government if it defies God’s laws…

 

Today’s song goes along with my rant, if you can’t stand the music read the words…

 

Judas Priest

Stained Class

 

Wild-eyed and tight fisted, I'm fused to the bone
I stand contemplating, reacting alone
Impaled with betrayal
The tourniquet turns
Society's creation
Pole-axed out and burnt

Long ago when man was king, his heart was clean now he's stained class
Time has slashed each untouched thing, so now he's just a stained class king

Transfixed at deliverance, is this all there is
Faithless continuum, into the abyss
Fierce is my conviction, absolute my belief
I spit at you apathy, and seducer deceit

Long ago when man was king, his heart was clean now he's stained class
Time has slashed each untouched thing, so now he's just a stained class king

Lethal, deadly, hung, drawn and quartered
He slaughtered and faltered and altered the world
But by doing so smashed all his hopes and utopian dreams
Whipping, stripping, peeling the flesh off, relentless and senseless
His lust snapped like vipers whose fangs sank in deep
To infest and decay from the core

Impaled with betrayal, the tourniquet turns
Society's creation, pole-axed out and burnt

Long ago when man was king, his heart was clean now he's stained class
Time has slashed each untouched thing, so now he's just a stained class king

Stained class king

I have been very sick lately.  I have missed out on a lot of things this last week ~frowns~.  That’s life I guess.

 

I went to Alien’s and G’s site but after that my computer started going berserk and crashing, so I need to find out what the hell is going wrong with it.

 

Wish me luck I should be back on in a day or two, just didn’t want anyone worrying about me ~smiles~.  Luckily I am a computer science major ~chuckles~ at least I don't have to pay outrageous prices for someone else to fix it ~smiles~.

 

Love,

Adam