I started up my hydration process 5 days ago.  I have to drink 158oz of water daily.  The first couple of days it was rough.  It took me about 12 hours to finish 4 32oz bottles of water.  Today, I can drink those before 3 pm ~smiles~.

I have been using ice water that your body must convert to a warm state.  This burns about 100 calories per 32oz bottle of ice water.  I have been losing at least a pound a day lately.  I have been building muscle which raises the metabolism, aerobics which raises metabolism for 72 hours and then the iced water, so I am losing around 1000 calories a day with very little effort ~smiles~.

I didn’t realize how important water was to our systems and how the lack of proper hydration is directly responsible for certain gastro-intestinal and colon cancers!  I knew it must be important because our bodies are like 85% water, so it would only make sense.  But when I started reading about how important water is for the absorption and transportation of vital vitamins and essential basics for life, I right away started the process.

I was lazy this morning.  I have been sick and this morning I had a horrendous sinus pressure headache, so I just did one set of my exercises and then did my aerobics, even though I need to work my leg muscles I don’t worry about them too much as they use to carry my 365lb fat ass around, so they are very strong ~smiles~.

I have been studying the art of anointing oils as prescribed in Exodus and man is it controversial.  The sad thing is the church has no leg to stand on in this argument! ~smiles~  The truth will be known.

In Exodus the making of anointing oils calls for 250 shekels of  Calamus, many argue that in the Torah it uses the word Keinenbosm, which is Kaneh-Bosom, this would be Marijuana.  In fact the University of Israel in 1980 conceded that it was probably Marijuana in its strongest hallucinogenic form that was in this anointing oil.

Here is the kicker, if you want to believe the Bible is pure and that it is Calamus as said in Exodus, then you are in for a real shocker because Calamus is a very intoxicating hallucinogenic!!!  This anointing oil was only allowed to be used by the Priesthood until Saul became a king, whereby he was anointed.  If you remember the story correctly Saul was anointed and sent into the wilderness.  The next time they saw Saul he was in the wilderness naked laying in the fetal position shaking!  Hmmm bad trip, or perhaps God showed him something about himself he didn’t want to see ~smiles~.

The Methodist and Presbyterian churches have already adopted Marijuana, not as sacraments, but they no longer run people off who do it within their church ~smiles~.  That is refreshing to see true Christian values in a church ~smiles~.

Having taken many different types of hallucinogenics (always to expand the mind) I can tell you that you definitely receive a religious/spiritual and divine experience.  I know most people I hung around with did it for purely recreational purposes to see hallucinations and laugh.  At the very least once you take a true hallucinogenic you life is never the same from that day forward!

I have spent many hours researching this, and thanks to others perseverance and time it made mine a tad bit easier in this subject, if you have any doubt I suggest you look the words up and the holy scripture ~smiles~.

I am often amazed when I go to churches.  The majority of the time I wonder if they ever even read their own Bible ~laughs~  I mean very few churches practice true Baptism (by anointment) or even meditate today!  Jesus and Buddha meditate constantly and it is often written about in their Holy Scriptures!  Yet two of the most important things for being in sync with God have been thrown out of the modern day church.

I can see why people would want to be in the Christian Church.  I mean you can go screw up all week, blame it on the human factor, then you can come in and ask for forgiveness and have it all just go away, man that must be nice!  And basically all they do at most churches today is just sing, praise, pray and give lip service.  It’s more of a meat market/ social fellowship today ~smiles~.

Don’t get me wrong I am a Christian as much as that label makes me want to puke!  Because of they’re disreputable and hypocritical past!

It just seems like most Christians only help their own kind, but Jesus said if you help your own kind what rewards have ye?  Even the publicans do that!  My wife’s church has been studying this book called “walk across the room.”  It is funny when a church is so bloated with fundamentalism that it can’t follow the simple dictates of Matthew 5-7.  I guess people would get bored and stop going to church if the only thing they read was Jesus’s words (the words of God), but I can’t see how, especially if fellowship is so important.

My wife says I just have an innate ability to understand the Bible where others cannot.  That just sounds like the Devil trying to pump me full of myself so I will become blind and deaf ~smiles~.  The devil’s favorite sin is “vanity”!

It took a long time for anyone at my wife’s church to even look at me ~chuckles~.  It is like they live in fear when Jesus said fear not for your life, shelter, clothes, food, etc.  because if you live the principles then you have nothing to fear.  FEAR = lack of faith!  To truly accept God/faith (regardless of your faith) is to expulse fear through the knowledge and faith that everything will be as promised!

The church seems to be slowly heading into the right direction.  I am not sure how much time we all have here.  I would say the majority of us have less than 5 years to get our shit together ~smiles~.

I also hear evangelical uttering of turning Muslims, Jews, etc. to Christ.  If you are a good enough example and people can see your faith working in your life then it is their responsibility to ask you how you do it!  I know it says to preach the gospel to every creature, but what it means is:  It is like a plate of cookies that you pass around to everyone, those who want the cookies take them, if someone doesn’t want what you are offering them move on!!!  You can’t ram it down their throats ~smiles~.

I always tell people I don’t care if you’re a Wiccan, Buddhist, Wizard, atheist, etc.  If you are a good person and the fruit of tree is not corrupt then I am glad to have you as a neighbor.  I will never try and convert you, as I only wish to be your friend! ~smiles~.  I figure if someone wants to be what I am they know where to find me and how to ask ~smiles~.

What was Jesus Christ’s name before he was Jesus?  Christ means "messiah" in Hebrew and translated into English it means "anointed one", so his last name could not have been Christ.  Does anyone remember? Or know? ~smiles~, or did they name him based on the testament of the wise men and their prophecies?  Awesome, something new to look up and study!!!

I hope you are all doing well in your endeavors.  I’d like us all to send out a special prayer to “G” as she is struggling more than she lets on ~smiles~.  Light a candle, pray to Christ, the Goddess, do whatever it is you do to send good energies ~smiles~ her way…

Hmmm, it’s starting to sound like we will be launching an attack against Iran at any time!  This will of course launch WW III, surely the war to end all wars ~sighs~.  They are doing this on the premise that Iran is making WMD’s.  Is it just me or does this sound like the same old tired song and dance we heard about Iraq, and I still have never seen a WMD even though the leaders of the administration swore on it!  Maybe Iran is making a nuclear weapon?  I just can’t trust my government anymore ~sighs~.

Does anyone ever remember what started all this shit?  Oh yeah!  It was Osama Bin Laden!  How come we can find a child molester in a 3^rd world country with millions of people that are thousands of miles away, but we can’t find this David Koresh Wacko Laden?  Hmmm, I think it’s all part of the big plan! ~snickers~  Oh well on to something happier and more beneficial than hate and war!

I got my scale today.  Man is it nice!  It sends little electric impulses into your body and figures out hydration, BMI, fat %, etc.  I had to program it for my wife and I.  I am 148, so I have broken the 350lb barrier, also I finally moved up on my Bicep curls ~cheers~.

I had to go out searching for information on the Internet on how often to weigh yourself and man is there a plethora of information out there on that!  The majority of them say to weigh weekly so they don’t depress themselves without understanding muscle weight, hydration, etc.

I found one article that said women should only do it once a month and within a few days of their period.  Women have a much harder time losing weight because they lack the testosterone to build really massive muscles and their other hormones and biological functions cause a huge spectrum of weight loss and gain, so it tends to discourage women more.

I finally found and article from a magazine that made since to me and it was backed by an 1,800-person study.  He said it was a matter of personal choice, however a study at some Midwest university (stoned I just forgot ~chuckles~) said that the daily group lost more weight over all in a 2 year study, and they lost it faster.  The most important thing for a daily weigh is for the person to weigh himself or herself when they wake up at the same time every day.  Some people even weigh in twice to ensure their hydration level is high enough ~smiles~.  That seems a little obsessive even too me ~snickers~.

My hydration level was 41% and it needs to be 55%, which will add a few pounds of water.  I have been power walking 30 minutes a day and I’ll keep and eye on the scale if it doesn’t move in a week or so I may bump my aerobics up to 60 minutes.  If you think about it, that is a lot of time in one day, especially considering my work out is 30-60 daily, depending on what day and what muscle group I am working out.  I realize people most people don’t have two hours a day to devote to working out ~smiles~.  That is a lot of time, hence the reason I get up at 5am.  However, it is not necessary to workout that long.  You only have to do one set of each exercise; just make sure you fatigue your muscle really good!  You can cut your workout down to 20-30 minutes.  I am working to build mass muscle though, so I tend to do several sets of fatigue to ensure the muscle breakdown.

So I will be weighing in daily, that way I can ensure that my hydration level is right ~smiles~ or at least have an idea what it needs to be ~smiles~.

Keep on keeping on all!

I got my court date for my disability and boy have I been stressed out, so I will recap with a little history most of you know and then I will bring you into the present:

I was diagnosed terminal a couple years back with DVT and IDS.  Last year the doctors told me to lay on my ass with my legs elevated above my heart.  I even had a major vein in my left leg taken out to hopefully slow down the clotting.  I was on a tackle box full of pills, and I am sure the interactions caused a lot of my physical problems.

You guys have watched me go up and down from sickness and depression to where I am today.  Today, I am feeling much better physically since I have been working out and doing aerobics.  I am still morbidly obese, which for my height is 310lbs.  They have me down at 365lbs even though I have lost 15lbs last month and plan on losing much more.

My lawyer said my case was weak physically because I never go to the doctor.  I went off on him telling him we haven’t even had money to keep food in the house or pay all our bills on time.  We have been fucking struggling for three years!  I do my own lancing and procedures they want to charge $40 a pop for that I can do myself!!!!  FUCK THEM!!!

I still have MRSA, which is deadly, and they have been pummeling the news with it lately since people have been dying of it and many more cases appearing nation wide.  They say that in ten years that MRSA will be responsible for more deaths than AIDS.  You can get it from touching an article that someone else touched if you have a scratch or something on your hand it is more contagious than AIDS because it lives outside for a long duration compared to HIV that dies immediately in the air.

I have Degenerative Disk Disease from my weight crushing my lower disks and creating a much faster degenerative problem.  This causes pain and is one of the reasons I never get any REM sleep EVER!  Well I had a dream the other night but that is extremely rare.  I felt so good that day I dreamed too!

I have Fibromyalgia, which is getting somewhat better with MSN/Chondroiton, weightlifting and aerobics.  It still hurts very badly when I sit for too long though or when I try and sleep, hence another reason I never get any REM sleep.

These problems alone can keeps me from keeping a job.  No one wants to hire a person that is sick or can’t get out of bed once a week or so!  Could you imagine the interview? ~laughs~.

I have been so stressed since I got my court date.  I was hoping to get out on my medical alone.  You see once I get pegged for my “Berserker Rage” or Explosive Disorder then they will take away my second amendment right, which I was hoping to keep intact, but I guess it is better to lose my gun rights than kill my next boss or person who talks to me with disrespect.

Explosive Disorder is like a drunken blackout (Berserker Rage) you are completely disassociated from your actions and have no way to control them.  It is horrible.  Think of it as being a werewolf and waking up naked for your first time far away from home with sheep fur in your mouth and no recollection of what the hell happened!!!  Or think of coming out of a stupor with a bloody dagger in your hand and dead bodies laying all around, and again not remembering a thing?  I believe many violent chaotic psychopaths suffer from this same disorder, only it happens much more often and they live in it daily!  Luckily, I just go there to visit from time to time ~snickers~

My psychologist said he would help me.  He is awesome and doesn’t want to see me kill anyone!  I talked to him about my fears of working out because I have been large most of my prey runs out of my way, even my friends ~grins~ until now, but I am losing weight and working out hard.  I want to be healthy and see my grandkids and do things in life, but it is countered by the fact that now when I want to catch someone it won’t be that hard!  Then what? ~sighs~.  At least it will be documented so I will never have to go to prison.  I’ll just have to spend some time in the mental health ward, which God only knows that makes people worse!

I feel better now that I know someone believes me!  The psychological implications from having a disorder and being perceived by some family as a faker really hurts, even though I can see how they view it that way.  It just seems like it is anti spiritual to do that to a living being!  I seem apparently lazy because I don’t have a paying job, but believe me when I say the job of a domestic housewife is way harder than I ever though before all this happened 3 years ago.  I have deadlines and shit to do even though I don’t have a boss?!  I got walls that need cleaning, laundry, floors to mop and sweep, bathrooms that need cleaning, beds need made, kids and wife need to get off to work and school.  I feel more worked now then when I actually worked!!! ~laughs~  But people don’t want to see that.  They still view the domestic partner as basically a worthless entity, now how many of you house mousse does that piss off?!  I know it does me from time to time, at least my wife has some kind of social life with work associates.  I deal with little kids all day and stare at the same fucking walls all the time!!!

I am down to my last day of Marijuana and I don’t have any until a week from tomorrow ~sighs~.  This means I will be very high strung and family members will have to be walking on thin ice.  I hate myself when I am out of pot!!!  Even my psychologist tells me not to quit and to take it before I get psychotic.  That easier said then done, because if I smoke pot once my disorder or PTSD act up it only magnifies it making it worse, so I have to get it before the stress and anxiety comes on, but now I don’t have any so WATCH OUT!!!

I did find an ancient diagnosis from the Vikings.  They called the disorder “Berserkergang” or “Berserk Rage”  The people who had it considered it a gift directly from Odin, but they were also exiled from their own communities because they killed friend and foe alike indiscriminately so were not allowed in city centers and villages ~sighs~.  I would imagine that only made them more Berserk.  I know it would me!  The king’s armies would use them as shock troops because everyone who knew about them feared them.  They had the strength of a bear and could easily take down 10 men to their every 1.  It sounds exactly like what I have, only I have never attacked a family member, but in bar room brawls I have been known to attack friends and foe alike during the heat of the battle.  I black out, so I don’t really know what is happening.

I have been calling and talking to friends in southern California, luckily none of them have lost their houses yet, but some were or are very close ~cringes~.  I hate everything about Southern California except the hotties and the beaches!  The traffic sucks; you can’t even find English-speaking people there anymore!  Drugs have overrun the city and meth labs blow up every week! And it is too damn expensive for housing down there.  You buy a house down there for a million bucks, and you can get the same house here for 250K ~grins~.  The only thing nice about Southern Cal is the weather and plenty of fun things to do for free!  But I wanted to make sure all my friend were OK ~smiles~.

Anyway, pray for me!  I need it I am so stressed out I don’t want to end up in jail before my court date ~smiles~.

Love,

Adam

I am now an “Ordained Minister” under the Universal Life Church.  I am sure many of you have heard of it.  It has been around since 1959.  It doesn’t matter what religion you are to join the church.  It is a real church that practices true Christian values like “Be kind to your enemies and do good to those that hate you.”  We have Evangelicals, Catholics, Satanists, Druids, etc.  We are fostering the relationships that Jesus spoke about in Matthew 5-7.

I can now perform rituals of any religion, meaning if you are a Viking I can marry you under Norse Odihnist traditions, if you are a Christian Catholic I can do the ceremony in Latin, if you want to be married on the moon I can do that if you can get us there!  I can also do baptisms, Christenings, etc.

The reason this church works is because we use principles instead of conversion and self-righteousness.  We don’t bash gays, dark wizards, Viking shamans, etc.  We do as the principles of all benign religions tell us to use; Love, Understanding, Wisdom, Kindness, Justice, etc.  Many of us speak proclaim our God when we talk but everyone knows it is not meant to be spiteful or hateful, so we all view it in a rational sense.  This isn’t to say I don’t get some feathers in tiff!  After all God placed me here to teach others patience, and I am real good at it!  Anytime a person tries to convert or chastise they only push that person further from God.  I mean I was Satanic Priest for the Church of Satan for decades and look how far I have come!  In spite of pushy Christians!

By not converting and fostering a self-righteous conversation people are free to follow those that have lives that inspire them, instead of hollow preaching without merit.  When someone sees an exemplary life then he or she will come to you and ask how you do it, then you can say Christ, Mohammed, Buddha is my savior.

The vast majority of Ministers in the ULC are modern Christians, but there are several Quantum Gnostics like myself, as well as Muslims, Egyptians, Celtic Druids, etc.

I remember seeing the ULC in my comic books when I was a kid.  And I have seen them here and there, but I have been studying the links between Jesus, the Bible and Marijuana lately, which the THC Ministry is under the ULC.

It is now pretty well agreed upon that “Kaneh Bosom” was the name for Cannabis in Exodus chapter 30 where the recipe for anointing oil is established.  Jesus was the anointed one, which leads scholars like myself to believe that Jesus used hallucinogenics and Marijuana.  Some churches such as the Methodist are embracing pot and no longer harassing their practitioners that use it as a sacrament in their rituals.

I am now protected under the religious freedom act of our constitution.  THC Ministries (a ministry of Christ) has won several lawsuits on that constitutional amendment.

The word “sorcery” comes from the Greek word Pharmika, which today mean Pharmacy.  The sorcery spoken about in revelations is actually the evil of our government.  Socerery basically means a control through drugs.  It is believed that our government is responsible for this sorcery!  They won’t allow us to have drugs or know the truth while cramming their sanctioned drugs down our throat.  What if everyone smoked pot and became peaceful realizing materialism is bullshit and refused to kill each other.  OMG!  What would the military investment complex do then?!?!  Perhaps they would have to kill themselves? That would be cool.

It is ok to push deadly drugs down our throats like Prozac, Vioxx, Valium, Ritalin, etc.  But God forbid we smoke a natural plant.  The bottom line is MONEY/Mammon!  If something can’t make it through the house or government, even after the people have deemed it just, then that makes our government corrupt and we need to stand up and fix it or tear it down!

Hmmm do I want to take a sanctioned drug that stops my arthritis but makes me shit my pants with a side effect of “anal leakage”.  Jesus, shouldn’t the benefits be better than the possible side effects.

Can you not see our world spiraling down into the crapper?!

We push out tens of thousands of lawyers each year with fewer and fewer abilities to chase ambulances.  Our world and country has become over saturated with the “American Dream”.  It is fat, bloated and headed in the wrong direction!  We can’t possibly have jobs for the hundreds of thousands of people graduating every year and the proof is out there just start talking to graduates who are depressed and befuddled by all the lies they have been told since they were born.

Since I have been born 42 years ago all I have seen is our personal liberties getting flushed down the toilet one by one because of special interest groups and the elite rich.

I was watching Glenn Beck the other day, sometimes I like that guy and sometimes he really pisses me off!  Anyway, he said the top 1% pays 41% of America’s taxes.  Oh that so pisses me off when they put out a general number like that to support the rich.  They never talk about how most of those taxes are from sales tax.  Because they are so filthy rich and can buy more of course they are paying more taxes!  But in the over scheme of things they aren’t paying enough because the statistics say that if the 1% of the world gave 4% of their income we could all have everything we ever wanted materialistically and in the sense of security for ourselves and our families, but it’s not about helping each other.  It is about power and until the rich really get together and start doing something spectacular they are all still greedy bitches too me, well there are exceptions to the rule but you know what I am mean.

My workouts are going great.  I am now working out 5 days a week and using advance techniques for cramping and working out the muscle.  I am still having some plateau problems because I am losing so much weight so fast, but once I get down to my desired weight of 200 then I can blow away any plats in my way now!  This is my new routine.

Monday – Chest and Triceps

Tuesday – Legs

Wednesday – Abs

Thursday – Shoulders

Friday – Back and Biceps

I am doing 2-3 sets with 5-10 reps and I have brought my aerobics down to 5 days a week now instead of 7.  This gives my body two days to completely heal up.  I know I am working the muscles hard too!  They hurt in a good way for a day or two now and are like rubber when I am done!

Vegas Marji is pretty much in a bad way, so if we could all pray for her like we did Sandy, perhaps we can ease or erase her pain!  She hurts so bad she hasn’t even been able to type.  I hope those that know her will go by and tell them they love her.

I hope you are all doing fine!

Love,

Rev. Adam

I watch the news every morning, it gives me something to meditate on and to pray about, but I really hate the news and I’ll tell you why ~grins~.

Powerful wealthy elite people, who work in tandem with certain supernatural forces, either knowingly or unknowingly, own the news but they still serve the dark master!

Here is the plan by the powers of the dark side that use men who have no souls for their own pursuits.  Most these people unknowingly serve the dark lord, but the truly scary ones are the people who know what they are doing ~cringes~.

First thing is for the dark lord is instill fear into everyone, so the leaders (again knowingly or unknowingly) take the 3% of bad things going on in the Earth and blow it completely out of proportion!  When they are trying to ban guns you will see more and more school shootings.  They make it seem like every school is in danger and every student is a possible threat ~sighs~.  Even if you don’t think you feel it your subconscious mind is working over time to keep you and those you love safe based on false or exaggerated claims.

The demon of fear sends his minions out to those who perceive our world as a dying wreck just waiting for one more wave to sink us.  Then the Arch-Demon of greed fills that whole with the consumption of retail products.  Eventually everyone will be afraid to step out his or her doors if Marshal Law doesn’t occur first before the catastrophe of 2012.

Demons are beings that have lived for millions of years and they are Chaotic, which means they enter the soulless ones and wreak the instant havoc upon people, such as, serial killers, shooters, rapists and child molesters.  There job is to add to the fear and the medias job is to sensationalize it to make it seem that it is happening abundantly all over in every town!

Devils (rulers of the underworld, hell, Hades, dark realm) are Lawful Evil and they know they have all the time in the world, so they have been slowly enacting a plan for the last 1000 years.  In the last 50 years since WWII they have gained more control and more souls than they have in the last 950 years ~sighs~.  The devil spawned technology into existence to lull and enthrall humans, so they could blind them to the true realities of life.

Even the Christian churches (as well as almost all religions) have been a part of this plan.  All one has to do is read MATTHEW 5-7 (sermon on the mount) to see that the church is extremely hypocritical and wayward.  God is calling you back to his bosoms!  Heed the call, as time is diminishing for us all.  If you are not following the dictates of God and claim to be a Christian, all I can say to you is you have your rewards here on this Earth, and as Jesus says when you come to him he shall say “I do not know this person”.

Don’t get me wrong this doesn’t mean that Wiccans, Muslims, Buddhist, and Pagans are going to hell, because God understands all things, even why people can’t believe in him ~smiles~.  He understands the confusion and hypocrisy of our world.  We all go to Heaven (regardless of what you consider Heaven) by God/Goddesses grace. (God is omnipotent and is inherently both sexes, so Goddess is a proper term when used in the unisexual format ~grins~)

The important thing is that we have love incorporated into our rituals, religions, and ways.  That we follow our dictates and do as they tell us, because God let’s us judge ourselves and if we don’t do it right here on Earth, he will make damn sure it is taken care of in our afterlives, whether that be a Hell or a reincarnation into a crappier place.

I have always had a hard time understanding how some omni-potent being can claim the ultimate love, yet punish living entities with pain, suffering and hellfire in the afterlife.  How about you just have to come down and do it again, because Earth really is a Hell of sorts ~chuckles~.

The Bible says that the Holy Ghost/Spirit is a smelter and when we die he shall smelt the nasty properties from us so that we are pure silver ~smiles~.  Perhaps, the furnace of purification is a temporary Hell to restore the soul to a clean state ~smiles~.  Think about it.  One minute being burned alive and purified would seem like a lifetime.  Kind of like, when your waiting in line at a government office ~snickers~, only worse.  Jesus understands this and the spiritual plane, so he instructed us to keep us out of the fires longer.  We must be purified before we can attain Heaven.

The funny thing about faith and belief is it has no premise other than to rationalize the shitty existence we have to deal with on this earth.  All the pain and suffering we see on television and around us, if we didn’t have some esoteric way to rationalize all this crap going on we would break down into permanent depression or possibly become a host for one of those chaotic demons spreading more hate and fear across the globe.

You can believe that the color red is really blue, but is it?  You can have faith that blue is red, but is it?  Don’t get lost in the semantics and self righteous justification, just try and absorb what I am saying ~smiles~.

Jesus said all roads lead to the father (actually he was speaking about the Kabala, but I don’t expect anyone to know what that is.), meaning regardless of what religion you follow (provided it is benign and you follow it) the Holy Spirit is the same regardless of what name you give his prophets, messengers, saviors, etc.

In the Kabala (the original Jewish/Hebrew explanation of existence) number one is the Godhead or Holy Spirit.  The highest divine idea!  In most religions there is a Holy Spirit by whatever name it is given ~smiles~.

I guess I am sending out another warning to the world.  Why I bother is beyond me, but the Holy Spirit so impels me to write on so that God’s works can do what they are suppose to.  To whoever it is suppose to touch ~smiles~.  I am too small to know the whole plan.  My life is too short to understand the complete ramifications of things I have not seen, but it sure as hell didn’t stop John from writing Revelations, or any other number of prophets from writing what they were told too ~smiles~.

“Be kind to those who hate you, do good to your enemies”…

It has been 5 weeks and I went to the doctor yesterday, for which I will explain shortly, but I have lost 15 pounds already! ~cheers~

It has been 5 weeks and I have hit a plateau in my arm exercises, so I studied everything I could about weight lifting and all it’s intricacies.  I learned a lot in the last 48 hours, so I will explain what has been going on ~smiles~.

In my studies I found “testosterone” to be the most important thing to creating muscle.  Many things can upset the hormonal balance of testosterone.  I went to the doctor because low testosterone is something that starts happening after you hit 40 years of age.  I am 42, so I wanted to make sure that my biological hardware (body) is functioning properly.  I found out some other things that cause testosterone problems.

One of them being fat, which I have quite a bit of ~chuckles~ for now, but that is just temporary.  If you are overweight your body creates less testosterone than if you are fit, so that is a problem for now there.  Also, drinking alcohol causes testosterone to drop dramatically after about 36oz. Of beer.  I only drink one day on the weekend and not that much, so that isn’t a problem.  Aerobics cause your testosterone to drop significantly as well, and I have been doing them every single day!  So when I can get down to weight I can do aerobics 3X a week to keep testosterone levels up ~smiles~.

If these all cause a dramatic drop in my testosterone my doctor can prescribe me some steroid therapy, which should help increase muscle, then as I lose more weight I can wean myself off of it.  When I am down to my desired weight I shouldn’t need any at all, unless my age requires it.  My doctor said the way they usually know when someone has low testosterone is they come in for Erectile Dysfunction ~cringes~.  My wife can attest that I have no problem with that, as a matter of fact I am sure some days she wished I did have it ~snickers~.

I did find out from a university in China that sex plays a part in testosterone to.  It said that if you give yourself an erection before the workout that it would increase your testosterone, then about an hour or so after you are done working out you should ejaculate (sounds fun too me!) to further increase the testosterone levels.  I asked my wife to help me out with this, but she told me to take a hike ~sighs~, so I guess I have a viable reason for wankin’ it?!  ~cackles~.  I just thought that was very interesting!

So the bottom line is testosterone, but too much too fast and you can get shriveled balls, acne, and get really mean.  I don’t need to be any meaner than I already am! ~cringes~  I already randomly attack assholes ~chuckles~ in a berserker rage (Berserker Rage: A gift from Odin that makes you a super warrior, but it’s downside is you blackout and can’t remember any of it ~sighs~). Well, that is true, but nowadays it is a psychological disorder ~laughs~.  I am trying to stay out of the loony bin and prison ~smiles~.  However, I am sure I can handle the “pumped” addiction, even if it does FEEL SO GOOD!!!! ~chuckles~.

Bottom line is that if I can keep losing 10-15/month I’ll be down to weight in less than a year ~cheers~.  I am also working out so my calorie burning is also going up ~smiles~.

I bought a weight watchers scale on Ebay.  You can’t even find a regular scale anymore ~chuckles~.  They all seem to do BMI, Hydration, Fat % index ~gawks~.  It goes up to 400 lbs, so  I am covered.  You can put up to 4 people in the memory and it will keep track of them for 52 weigh ins ~smiles~.  That should be pretty cool!

Today it was bring your parent to kindergarten day, so I went with Mariah and took pictures for grandma ~smiles~.  Mom and dad are back in their Yuma house, so they can’t see the kids, so I gotta keep them updated ~smiles~.  When I downsize and edit them I’ll throw them up on my site too, so you guys can see them.  Her teacher is pretty little twig.  She just had her second kid and not even a pooch ~chuckles~.  Must be nice?  I don’t remember having good-looking teachers.  I remember having mean grey haired old ladies that would paddle my ass.  You can’t paddle kids anymore! ~chuckles~  No wonder they are killing each other ~sighs~.  It was fun though, and Mariah got to show of her “big bad biker daddy” ~chuckles~.  The way they teach kids today is much better than they did when I was growing up in elementary school.  It’s much more interactive and phonetical ~smiles~.

I am hoping to take some pictures of the trees as it is fall ~smiles~.  We got reds, blues, purples, yellows and bright oranges with a mixture of green and brown ~smiles~.  Although the inevitable doom of winter is coming head long, Autumn has to be the most beautiful season of them all ~smiles~.  How is that fall dies so beautifully and gracefully?  Spring must be the second most beautiful when the tulips pop up on the first sunny days of spring to greet what will soon be it’s abundant cousins of colors are shapes.  The world shall be green again ~smiles~.

Well we are closing in on Samhain and Hallows Eve.  The third favorite Satanic holiday, and the first for children who partake in the scaring away the evil for one more year and getting a buttload of candy! ~cheers~  What is that you ask?  Hmmm?  What are the first and second favorite Satanic holidays?  Oh sure, I’ll tell ya.  The first is you.  Satanist view worshipping another as the epitome of weakness, so they worship themselves and their will.  The second is Walpurgesnacht Day.  It is a story about a nun who was wronged in a very bad way.  Anyway, the stone where she died has secreted an oil called “Walpurgesnacht oil” since her death, and Satanist view that as a remainder of her strong will.  It was so strong it still secretes an oil no one can explain ~smiles~.

What is that?  What do you mean?  Oh well I don’t know if I have ever wrote about it in my blog, but at one time I was very high in the Satanic Church, but Anton died and that stupid whore Blanche took over and ruined it.  Not too mention they claim how powerful their magic is yet they couldn’t even roust up $250,000 dollars to save the house where Anton pulled the resources together and started the modern day Satanic Movement.  That was a long time ago, in my youth, when I was a young mystic learning the way of the universe ~sighs~.  Boy did I do some stupid things ~blushes~.  Oh well it all comes out in the wash at the end of the day ~grins~.  Thank the powers that be for wiping my slate clean, for without that I would not be the person I am today ~smiles~.

I hope this finds you all well!  I radiate love out towards you all ~smiles~…

I was wondering about the “Bowflex Owner’s Club” so I called them to find out how much it was and they said hold on a minute.  Well the girl was gone for a few minutes and when she came back she told me it is $59/year but since I had such problems with them at first they were just going to give the first year free ~smiles~.  So in my eyes Bowflex and truly redeemed itself after the initial mess up ~smiles~.  And the machine rocks, I can honestly say that after working out for over a month now.

I just got done walking two miles and I am still sweating ~chuckles~.  I know pretty picture huh?

I went and picked up my old next-door neighbor Anna at the bus stop yesterday.  She came with her son Tyrone (who we all miss) and a sexy little friend named Nikki.  It has been so long since I have partied next door because her mom and dad are very ill and I never know when they are asleep or awake, but they said they would give me the house key, so I can walk their fat doggy ~smiles~.

Julie went to a Christian women’s retreat last night and today, so that is why I was partying next door with all the girls.  My wife would never let me party with all them girlies by myself ~snickers~.  She knows I’m a big flirt! ~smiles~.

I have known this one girl for a while and her name is Larissa.  She is a 27-year-old virgin.  It is amazing.  She is absolutely beautiful too, I got to talking to her last night and we were getting really close (not physically of course ~chuckles~).  I think we got too close because I went home to smoke a bowl and when I came back she bolted without saying goodbye.  I guess she is not use to people loving on her without trying to get into her pants ~chuckles~.  She knows I am married and I could tell her gears were turning, so she probably just did what she considered to be safe, or I could be completely off base, but I would like to think I am old enough to know when the signals are clear ~chuckles~.

I came home about midnight took some hydros, ate and crashed out ~smiles~.

I got a new Saitek Cyborg Evo P27 because my piece of shit sidewinder died.  I really liked the heavy base and the extremely forceful feedback, but the trigger buttons are cheap as hell and burn out if you apply too much pressure on them.  The Cyborg has adjustable knobs to set the controller in several variations to fit your hand.  The trigger lever will break on this before the trigger goes out.  So to all you WWII Combat Flight Simulator 3 crazies, I’ll be seeing you in the sunny skies over Europe ~grins~.

My brother Jeff is back to driving truck.  He normally just works around the shop so that he can be here for his teenage son, but his body is too messed up to be doing labor, so he is driving trucks to California and back.  Sometimes he drives when he needs extra money too, and he lost a week, so he probably needs it ~smiles~.

Julie needs a root canal or something like that, it is going to cost us over $500.  I don’t know where that is going to come from, but can’t let her run around with that kind of pain.  Having lived in pain for years I sure as hell don’t want anyone else to feel what I feel ~smiles~.

Ok well I better go get something to eat…