I have a lot of good news for once! ~chuckles~

First on the agenda is: I am down to 295 pounds, I have transcended the 300-pound barrier!!! ~jumps for joy~ I now get some crest whitening strips for my reward.  I doubt I’ll get them though as we are following Dave Ramsey’s “Financial Peace” plan, so we are living like vagrants ~snickers~, but if the world doesn’t end it should pay off.

I have gripes because I am not getting the protein I need, but I guess I’ll just take it in stride.  It makes it very hard to gain muscle when you body must cannibalize itself for proteins, but at least I have them now ~chuckles~.

I am benching over 200 pound sets and curling 40 pounds per arm, so I am doing a lot better than last year ~snickers~.  My all time record was in high school I benched 325, but I have no desire to be that strong and doubt that I could physically achieve that, but who knows I am no longer 400 pounds and laying on my bed almost dead on 20+ medications! ~smiles~.

The next good news is I acquired a 3-year-old German Rottweiler named Quincy!  He is huge…he looks like he weighs about 130 pounds, but he only weighs 105 when I took him to the vet the other day.

He was raised by this gal named Amy…she seemed very sweet but she was working full-time and going to college full-time at night, so he was stuck at home all the time by himself which can make the breed very aggressive ~smiles~.  She raised him for 3 years…

He didn’t like children when I first got him last week and growled and leaped at Mariah…if you look at the new photos I put up you will see they get along great now! ~smiles~  I just had Mariah stuff yummy treats down his throat and gave him positive reinforcement and now he kisses her and let’s he get up in his face ~smiles~.  He is huge! ~smiles~

I have been working with him daily and training him…I need to buy some more treats because he really needs to work on his Heeling and his Come commands ~smiles~.  This has caused me to far and exceeds the amount of exercise I was already getting with my cardio, weight lifting and stretching! ~chuckles~  I lost 5 pounds in 3 days ~sighs~.  I like to lose 2 pounds a week so I don’t have a lot of extra skin left over when I get down to weight! ~smiles~

I got my companion prescription/note from my psychologist, so that I can have him in my apartment complex.  He stands at the bus stop with about 10 kids in the morning and doesn’t try and eat any of them anymore! ~smiles~.

He has really helped me with my depression and PTSD…I feel like I have another set of eyes and ears to back up my illusionary fears, so I don’t have to be on guard as much, and he keep me company when I am all alone…another great thing he does is when I start going ballistic he jumps on me to tell me I am getting crazy before I snap! ~smiles~  This could be very beneficial to many people I public ~chuckles~

It took about 3 days before Quincy would start marking territory.  This was a good sign that he realized this was now part of his domain and his home! ~smiles~  Now we play, wrestle, walk and love on each other ~smiles~.  He is a blessing and boon to my existence! ~smiles~  The entire family loves him and has found him therapeutic! ~smiles~

So for now everything is going great…we’ll see how long that lasts ~grins~…

I am down to 300 and been sticking there for the last week ~chuckles~.  There is delicate balance between weightlifting, cardio and losing weight, if I eat more and workout harder I tend to plateau on my weight loss as I gain more muscle, but if I lighten up the weightlifting and do more cardio then I lose weight, however I also lose strength ~sighs & chuckles~  So you can see my dilemma.

It’s starting to get really cold here around 30 degrees on my walks.  Julie bought me a cheapo Coleman poncho to wear when it rains and snows, but when it gets cold the material hardens up and scratches me.  It lasted about 3 walks (13 miles) and ended up tearing and going in the garbage ~chuckles~.

I had a $30 gift certificate to Cabelas from last Xmas I still haven’t spent ~chuckles~, so Julie and I went to Post Falls to Cabelas and I bought myself a Gortex rain/wind breaker.  It was $109, then there was 30% off that, and I had a $30 certificate, so I put it on layaway until Friday!

Gortex is a micro-fabric that allows vapors like sweat to leave your clothing while being too small to allow water droplets.  They also call this a breathable fabric, so all your heat and sweat don’t stay in, which is what I want because even when it is 30 degrees out there I am sweating like pig! ~chuckles~

I am very proud of Julie.  She has wanted to take control of our finances!  As many of you know we use to make really good money, but then I got terminal and tried to kill some bosses ~chuckles~.  Once you get use to living a certain way it is very hard for the ego to want to adapt to the downgrade ~smiles~.  So the last 3 years we have been sucking up credit and living from check to check to try and live as we were accustomed.  I had been tired of it for the last year or two, but Julie wasn’t ready ~smiles~.

She wouldn’t even let me have a pint of whiskey the other day because we couldn’t afford it, then I found out she bought a coffee and lunch.  Oh was I fucking pissed!!!  I don’t think she’ll be doing that anymore ~grins~.  No one wants to see me pissed off ~grins~.

So we are living like paupers and can’t even turn the heater on! ~chuckles~  It is going to take 6 months to a year, but it will be well worth it in the long run!

What actually started it is we didn’t have lunch money for my Mariah and then I went on a 10-minute spew apologizing to Mariah for her lack of food because mommy and daddy suck at money.  I think this made Julie cry because she ran into the bedroom and didn’t come out for a while ~sighs~.

It is hard for me to keep it together when I calmly tell someone they are pushing my buttons and crossing my boundaries, so eventually after months of not being listened too I generally go on a tirade that causes fear and apprehension around the household ~chuckles~.  And I tell them if they would just fucking listen to the 100,000 times I explain it over 2-3 months before I blow ~chuckles~.

Now that I have blown everything is back on track.  I don’t get any whiskey, but credit cards and bills are getting paid! ~smiles~  I don’t mind I can go without everything but my Marijuana, and I can go without it, just no one wants to be around me ~chuckles~.

Julie and I celebrated 16 years of marriage on the 7^th of November.  I don’t know how that woman puts up with me, but she does it with grace.  I think “G” and my wife come from the same exact mold ~chuckles~.  And that’s not a bad thing for the most part!!! ~smiles~  Julie’s ability to tolerate the amount of shit she does from society, work and family just astounds me! ~smiles~.  I am so blessed that Odin and Freya have seen fit to put a great Christian woman in my life! ~smiles~  I am sure that she will go to heaven for tolerating me alone.  I’m sure God will look down upon her, shake his head with a weary smile and ask her how she did it! ~chuckles~  I’m sure your much the same “G” ~smiles~.  I look forward to spending the rest of my life with her ~smiles~.

It’s Veteran’s Day, so I would like to thank all the warriors in this country and the world who fight for integrity, honor, and the freedoms of those to weak, cowardly, or unable to do it for themselves!!!  May you be blessed by the God’s with Berserker Rage, that you may come home safely to those who love you, and to all those awaiting in Valhalla, thank you for your commitment to freedom!!! ~cheers~

Oh it’s Veteran’s Day…that also means it’s my little princess’s birthday Mariah who is turning 7 today ~smiles~.  Malachi will be 16 on the 26^th.  He was born on Thanksgiving Day ~chuckles~.

We have a new president and I hope that all them hatemongering republicans out there will become part of the solution and quit being a part of the problem!!!  But we can only hope, I doubt it will happen…who would pay Rush Limbaugh or Jon Stewart to not cause dissention? ~chuckles~  Money is the most power demon in the world and even have great influence over the Christian Church, albeit you can’t get them to admit it ~chuckles~.

Well they shot down the gay marriage thing in California…why do Christians always support hate and the opposite of what Christ said to do?  Maybe we should just do away with religion all together.  It doesn’t seem to do anything but cause strife, hate, and war ~sighs~ on a larger scale.  Do you really think Jesus would have voted no on Prop 8?  No he would allow freewill and gladly conversed with them…you should really follow his example cause your all ruining the truth of the religion! ~smiles~

Maybe pot will get legalized now, we have a lame duck session coming up hopefully 2 things will pass…the HR for Marijuana and the middle class stimulus package! ~smiles~

Well I hope you all are fine!