My buddy Art came and picked my daughter and I up.  Art needed to run some errands and I was just going for the company ~smiles~.  One the places we had to stop was the Social Security Office.  I know some of your gears are already turning ~chuckles~.

 

Art, I and about one hundred other people were in the Social Security Office and our kids were playing and having fun.  Then about 30 minutes later this Federal Security Guard comes up to me and tells me I need to keep my kid with me and keep the noise down it’s a federal building, so I snicker at him and roll my eyes.  I was thinking to myself, “Where the hell have you been the last half an hour?”  He was sitting behind his desk the whole time.  Mariah gets away from me so I tell her to come to me and then this fuck starts in again.

 

I know those of you who know me well understand that I have an inability to act normal in any abusive authorative, or abuse of authority situation.  I tend to get cranky and say the most blunt things ~snickers~

 

So when I roll my eyes at him, he gets this mean I’m the Law type look on his face and says, “Don’t you roll your eyes at me.  You’ll show respect in a federal building!”

 

I couldn’t help myself.  I laughed in his face and told him, “Whatever you wanna be fucking rent a cop”

 

He is beside himself now, not understanding why I do not bow to his almighty federal mandated security powers ~snickers~  Which invokes a, “Let me have you I.D. !”  Like he's a fucking Texas Ranger or something ~cackles~.

 

I told him, “I ain’t giving you shit dumbass”.

 

It was at this point that my daughter and I started walking out.  He gets in my way and bumps bellies with me.  This is when I tell him that if he touches me one more time I will press assault charges.  This scared him apparently as he got right the fuck out of my way ~snickers~.

 

He then follows me outside.  I am leaving to catch a bus because I hate our fucking government and didn’t want it to turn into a blood fest where I lost my kid and spent a few days in the federal pen.  He has the fucking nerve to tell me, “I am going to have you arrested”.

 

This causes more ensuing laughter.  I am either going to laugh until my head explodes, or I’m gonna kill this bitch.  So in refutation I said, “For what?!?!, for talking?!.  You dumbass didn’t you know that Benjamin Franklin and Thomas Jefferson made this thing it’s called a constitution.  You might try reading it sometime you fucking moron since you work in a federal building.

 

My daughter and I walk down the bus stop.  Soon this CIS (National Security Officers) Officer pulls over in his interrogation off-road vehicle and I’m thinking Oh shit ~chuckles~  Now I’m gonna have to kill this fucking cop and be on the lamb for the rest of my life.  It turns out he was actually really really cool.  I gave him my I.D. and told him how the guy singled me out.  He told me the guy is an asshole and thanks to me he had to go back the SSI office and calm down two assholes.  I had no ideal who the other asshole was until I got back to my buddies house.  He said the FBI came in right after the CIS Officer left, so not only is the National Security been alerted to this but a FBI officer was dispatched as well.

 

Do any of you have a fucking hint of a clue how much money that fiasco just cost the taxpayers because America is so pussified it can’t even handle a little argument in an SSI building in Spokane, Washington of all places.

 

I am sure if I was Osama the Spokane branch of the SSI is his number one target for terrorism.  What a joke ~snickers~.  I have watched our country go down the toilet for years, and it is that kind of self-righteous abuse of government powers that has us living in a nation where everyday freedoms seemingly disappear.  Hell I remember when you could smoke in the grocery market and drive a whole shit load of kids to the lake while drinking and driving.  What happened?

 

Are Americans just getting fucking stupider and stupider?  I mean that is what our government is suggesting.  We keep getting stupider and stupider, so like the disobedient children we are the government sees fit to make laws that affect only the poor.  While the rich and governmental branches have immunity?

 

I say we grab our pitchforks, guns, knives, and cars and just flush this fucking government out.  I mean these guys are making over $100,000 a year and get to vote in their own fucking raises?!?!?!  The rap sheet of the two congressional houses looks more like a fucking prison sheet than pillars of the community.

 

I personally don’t think you should be allowed to be President if you have any military investments or make over 50k a year.  These fuckers aren’t working for us.  They are working against us and by the time the rest of you figure it out.  It will far too late ~chuckles~.

 

Anyways love ya all thanks for letting me rant…

 

Love,

Adam

I have been playing a lot of Battlefront 2.  It's good for me because it takes my mind off being sick and in pain.  I can play on that thing for hours on end trying to master certain skills and stuff like that.  I especially like the space battles.  Malachi says I am the best pilot in the Galaxy.  I don't know if that is true or not, but I rarely ever get beat.

 

You start with nothing and you work on your stats and skills.  Conquest is fun.  You strategically run one or more fleets conquering planets and getting into the occasional space war.  I love it, for now ~chuckles~.  I am always looking for something newer and better.  I really love war games where you have to think.  And I never cheat until I have one the game on every level unlike my boy who loves to cheat from the start.  Heh, whatever is fun I guess.

 

I am out of bud for the next 3-4 weeks but have plenty of crappy shake.  The sad thing is my shake is as good or better than most the commercial bud floating around ~snickers~  But it still taste nasty and doesn't last long.  Oh well a little abstinance will bring down my tolerance.  I just wish I had some pain killers for the next few weeks :0P

 

I did extra cleaning today, the house was a disaster after yesterday.

 

I have to take Mariah to the doctor tomorrow for a follow up on her ear infection she had.  Malachi has been sick the last few days too.  They both had the flu.  I have been sick for a couple months now ~sighs~  And it's not going to get any better ~chuckles~.

 

Well that's all folks...

My wife's Uncle died and they had the funeral today.  I didn't really know him so I don't really feel anything about it.  Julie and her family don't seem to terribly upset.  I don't really like most of her family as I got a bad rap and was made the scapegoat.  No matter what I do they will always look down on me ~chuckles~  Oh well their problem, they can explain their coarseness to God.

 

My next door neighbor had a birthday today.  Too many damn people there so I didn't want to do that.  I just stayed at home and played Xbox, drank beer, and smoked some pot.  Pretty much the same thing I do everyday.  Clean house, watch the kids, and wait to die ~snickers~.  It's the waiting part that is killing me ~chuckles~.

 

I had to change out water in my garden today, then I went to Art's house.  We watched "Doom" and smoked some pot.  I am all out for about two more weeks, actually more like a month, but I got a hefty supply of water-leaf, red hair shake and trichomes.  So I should make it through the drought.

 

Julie's mom and dad came over for dinner tonight.  Julie made this yummy chicken taco soup.  I know it sounds like shit but it is really yummy.  I was actually quite surprised at how good it tasted, so I had two bowls.  For desert Julie made Chocolate Cake with hard Ganosh Frosting and a whipped creamed center, yummy!

 

I don't know why Art's wife is nice to everyone but him.  I know it pisses him off.  She is either fucking psycho crazy or hates his guts.  I swear she has dual personalities.  I think she is schizo?!  Oh well poor son of a bitch just wants to have his family working together in harmony but all she wants to do is gamble as much money away as possible, buy shit all the time, and when she can't?  She makes Art's life hell.

 

Oh well so far, so good, so what...

My wife says her settings suck but mine work perfect.  I believe part of computers is magic.  I have the magic touch with computers, being an IT guys doesn't hurt either.  I get on her settings and peruse the web with no problem.  However the minute she gets on the computer starts acting up ~chuckles~.  Malachi has the same problem.  They get mad at the computer and then the computer messes up ~chuckles.

 

Well I got plenty of bud to smoke today ~smiles~.  Julie got some movies last night.  "Wallace and Gromet; Curse of the Wearrabbit"  and "Doom".  I watch so many movies now they just all run together in a jaded mess ~grins~.  I get my Dukes of Hazard and Wedding Crashers all mixed up.  Speaking of Dukes of Hazard, Jessica Simpson is HOT!!!  I don't normally say that about ditzy singers/actors but when I saw the way she moved her hips and how naughty she looked, I wanted some!  Of course I would probably hurt the poor little thing ~sighs~.

 

Did some laundry already today.  I got some dishes to do.

 

I did find out we are getting a hefty IRS check.  That is good because we owe the check cashing place and Julie's mom some money.  I would like to get my American Express card paid off but will probably turn it into a debt relief clinic so I just have a monthly payment.  We don't usually get any money so when we do our demons go hog wild.  It is the only time of the year we stock our freezer and cupboards with food we can't normally afford to buy.  And I only have two pairs of shorts left and very few shirt.  Julie and Malachi both need some clothes for school and work.

 

Julie is more than likely going to get a bonus in March from SAFECO.  It is usually 10% of her yearly salary, so that would be nice if she gets that.  And then someday my Disaility will go through and we'll get a fat back-pay check for that, not too mention we can start living like normal people again ~chuckles~.

 

Anyways gonna get off of here, love ya all seeya soon...

I watched two movies today.  Dot.net and The Lords of Dogtown.

 

Lords of Dogtown was a story about poeple like Tony Alva who originated the swimming pool and half pipe styles of the mid 70's.  It reminded me so much of my childhood.  Just a punk surfer, skater, stoner tired of the world's bullshit.

 

We use to go surfing in the morning then skateboarding all afternoon at either La Mesa or Oasis skateboard parks.  La Mesa was closed do to insurance suites, so we cleaned it up and used it anyways.  This one elevator pool use to have stagnant water, broken rocks and glass in it, so if you wiped out you ate it hard and it was nasty.

 

I got my first Dogtown board in 1976 when the first wooden boards and eurathane wheels came out.  I lived in Guam.  My friends and I would take our allowance and go to the Marine Barracks on the Navy Base and they had a vending machine that sold beer in the can for $0.25.  Then we would take our boards and go down to the ditch, the half-pipe or the 20' ramp.  We would smoke Rota Weed, drink beer, listen to hard rock and skateboard.

 

Today was pretty uneventful which means it was nice.  Art was suppose to take his Subaru in to get it aligned but he needed a new wheel and tire, so we had to go to discount tires to get him some new stuff.  Then we went to his house smoked a bunch of pot, watched movies then he drove me home and I cleaned up the house a bit.

 

I have been playing hours of Star Wars Battlefront 2.  It is fun killing things when I am stressed out.  After two or three hours of killing stuff I can move on with my life ~chuckles~...

Malachi is playing hookey today from school because he told us at the last minute he had a book report do today and a PowerPoint presentation.  So I figured is he doesn't go to school then he doesn't have to turn it in ~snickers~.  This right after Malachi did the same thing the day before yesterday but he needed to make a bridge out of toothpicks in less than twenty-four hours.  I have been all over him like flies on shit.  It looks like his Xbox may be going bye bye since he can't seem to do his homework with the Xbox at home.

 

I swear when kids turn 13 (including myself) they become fucking retards.  It is almost like their hormones cut off their brain oxygen keeping them from forming common sense thoughts.  I mean I am sure I was a dumbass in my teen years, but I sure didn't know it at the time.

 

I had no kids yesterday, it was nice ~grins~.  I went to my buddy Art's house and we smoked pot for a few hours and watched "Dukes of Hazards" again, only this time it was unrated.  And Jessica Simpson if I ever get my hands on you, it will be like a bear fucking a rabbit cause you are SO HOT!!!  Damn that girl can move her hips, and she is just a little bitty thing too.

 

Today is going to be a mellow day.  Malachi and Mariah are both here and I haven't even started housework and it is already 11:15AM.  Oh well I'll spend a couple hours on the home and then try and alleviate some of this sickness with some Marijuana...

 

 

I finally got a hold of my buddy.  His wife and him went to breakfast bought some new furniture, and I guess she gave him $400 of the money back.  I sure hope it works out for his sake, but I hate seeing the poor guy get his hopes up just so they can be smashed down.  I used to do the "told you so" but that isn't working ~chuckles~ so I have to change strategies.

 

It is a precarious situation from day to day.  It goes in montly cycles.  I watch him get his hopes up just to watch her snag him again and do it all over.  The poor guy loves her.  He could get another girl if he wanted to, but he wants to make his family work.  I don't think it will unless some behaviors radically change, but I have made it out of addiction with the help of my wife.  My wife and I use to hate each other but that isn't the case now, so anything is possible.  However, that doesn't make it common.

 

The good news is for the time being we don't have to be without our medication.  I was seriously thinking suicide if I have to live sick 24hrs a day.  I sure as hell don't want the greed medicine like Vioxx that kills poeple.  I don't want to be hooked on narcotics.  I just want to smoke a miraculous herb that is both spiritual and medicinal in nature.  Why must you hate me so?  Go and vote, register to make a difference, make our government accountable.  Stop the 100 billion a year juggernaut which is the pork barrel called the "Drug War" and compounded by cattle minded conservatives who have no minds of their own...

My partner and I are legally authorized to grow and smoke Marijuana for our terminal and chronic illnesses and pains.

 

Well my partner and his wife haven't been doing too well.  She said she is calling the cops on us and shutting us down.  It's not like we sell it ~chuckles~.  Why would someone be so vindictive to take away the medication that works without serious side effects or addictive narcotics.  I haven't been able to get a hold of my partner today ~sighs~  I hope he is just at a friends house.  His wife has serious problems gambling and stole $600.00 from the family which could have went for food, clothes, etc.  But instead she just gambles it away.  She will steal, lie and act like a bitch just so she has an excuse to spend money.  So now they are probably going to lose the house too.  That really sucks after all the work we have put into this last month or two.

 

I got my buddy to get his own bank account and told him to keep all his house and child money in the bank so she can't touch it.  Well he fell asleep night before last and his wife got his key from his pocket, stole $600.00 from the safe, grabbed two of the three kids and then disappeared.  She took two of the kids and basically said the other one wasn't worth taking and that she can stay with her dad.  What a fucking psycho bitch.  I told my partner if I was him I would just make her disappear and no one would ever see or care about her anymore.  Her dad is a rapist, child molesting truck driver that is doing time in prison.  She has no mom to speak of but has a sister that lives out here in the valley by me.

 

She is nice to everyone but her husband which must be very frustrating for my buddy.  I understand addiction.  I was in it for many years, so I know it can be whipped.  She doesn't want to kill the demon.  It is so far up her ass using it's evil puppet strings to win over the soul and control her every movement.

 

The problem is my partner can't live without her income and she can't live without his income.  So they are kind of in financial bondage which can make splitting very rough.  I told my partner she probably already has another boyfriend and is just waiting to dump him.  What a loving wife huh?  He is going to die any day and is in a wheelchair and his wife of twelve years just wants to leave him.  The poor son of a bitch can't see it either.  It isn't like it's the first time she cheated on him.

 

I was up partying to 2AM with my neighbors, which I rarely ever do because some people gotta run their mouths and brag about things that happend when they were sixteen. ~chuckles~  I use to do the same thing when I was twenty years old, so I understand the drunk braggart.  Today it's just annoying. ~grins~.

 

I am out of pot so I will probably lose some weight now.  I would have wasted away by now had I not had beer and Marijuana.  Marijuana gives me the munchies and the alcohol keeps me fat with empty calories ~snickers~  I hate the sickness and it sucks that we have such Draconian Laws about Marijuana.  I hate pain, but I hate sickness more...

Well the Daytona was today but I unfortuneately missed it.  I went to my friends house and his wife ripped him off $600.00 and took off this morning.

 

My friend Art is bound to a wheelchair.  Him and I are in the same medical state (we could die any day).  His wife is very mean to him and she is a chronic compulsive gamber.  She hates him and herself which makes her neurotic.  She is on medication but resists taking it.  She snuck into his safe last night and took $600.00.  He has to have a seperate bank account just to insure his house and bills get paid.  His wife Melinda has terrible spending habits.  She has to go shopping everyday.  She is very nice to everyone but her husband Art.  I know they have done a lot to hurt each other, but I do not see how this can be beneficial for their children.  They either need to pull together like my wife and I did, or get a divorce. ~sighs~  Kids of course complicate everything.

 

My wife and I use to hate each other with a passion.  When we first met she was fun loving and crazy, but once we got married and had kids she turned into her father.  He is different.  He is one hell of a provider and works harder than I would ever want too ~chuckles~.  My wife is a lot like him.  Her father was raised by an alcoholic which made growing up a rough thing, some baggage just never leaves us I guess ~smiles~.

 

Anyways, I thought being the "Wizard" that I am, I could help council them.  That is impossible to do when the woman is psycho and obviously wants to hate Art ~sighs~.  I will summon the Arch-Angel of Justice and ask Justice be done for my brother Art.  The implications of this kind of summoning is sometimes the "Conjurer" gets a certain amount of judgement cast upon themselves.  I have been known to summon the Arch Angel of Judgement and ask that myself be sacrificed. (This shows the seriousness of the conjuring).  But sometimes you also get the proverbial wodden dick in the ass too.

 

I know that before I was 30 I had been practicing only the dark side of the Occult.  I could pop a lightbulb with the darkness I had surrounding me.  I could actually create poltergeist and alter technology without physically touching it.  I guess you could sum that up as Satanic, Evil, Negative, or more elegantly; The dark side of the force ~grins~.  I had mastered the curse, and those who angered me would have an army of demons and devils upon them influencing their daily live's.

 

It wasn't till I had my son Malachi, that I decided to leave the shadow plane that I had resided on, while on this plane at the same time I could see the inner workings of what science call quantum mechanics and physics.  I has spent over half my life trying to harm others with my vengence and my rage.  Today I am very light and in Star Wars I would be considered a Master Jedi ~grins~.  Today instead of ripping, controlling and having to pay with my health I prefer to let the Holy Ghost/Spirit do my work.  I do get so angry that I sometimes try and take matters in my own hands.  And when I do that it always turns out bad ~chuckles~.

 

Regardless of what the doctors say, I know I am dieing from my many years of living on the shadow plane (to modern humans Methamphetamines) and abetting the dark forces of the universe.  I learned this from the Elders of the Coville Indian Tribe and did many sweats and purification rituals.  Today I annully eat psychadelic mushrooms to cleans and heal my soul.  Imagine if you will a metaphor from a moive; Frodo always had pain after the dark lords stabbed him with the dark blade.  It became a heavy burden and a deep pain, so he sailed off into the sunset to a heavenly place ~smiles~.

 

Another metaphor of how I became "White" is where Gandolf gave his life to fight a ferocious demon so that an idealism could move forward.  When I fought my demons and won the universe opened up too me, and I saw the "I AM"  I stood before the "Holy Ghost" and was given unto me "Freewill" that I may no longer be plagued by those things I once worshipped, and to actually heal the wounds that I have caused to myself, the atrocities I have committed against humanity, and the stress I have put loved ones through time.

 

Life is pain, suffering and the occasional laugh ~smiles~  It is for me anyways, but if this is my attonement for the rotten things I have done?  I am getting a damn good deal!!! ~smiles~  I have been living with the sickness and the pain for a decade now, well actually the sickness has been the last couple years.  I have not lost weight because I smoke Marijuana and it helps me eat, some times too much ~grins~  That and the beer makes it look like I am healthy but I can feel myself wasting away on the inside and it is only a matter of time before I lose a crapload of weight.  I think the medical term is "wasting" away syndrome.

 

When the doctors told me to get my "Affairs in Order" because with my disease any day can be my last ~chuckles~  Well no shit, that is what it is going to be every single day until you die ~cackles~ It's not over till the fat lady sings, and I don't see no fat ladies round here!...

Dave came and picked me up yesterday and took me to Art's.  We smoked a lot of pot and did a bunch of his new shower tile.  I was the cutter and he was placing them.  His house is really starting to come together.  It has been two years he has been trying to get this done and now it's almost all done in two months ~chuckles~.  We just have a little of the shower to go and then we can finish up drywalling the greensheet.

 

I wateched the women's crosses last night.  The American girl owned them by three seconds and then she wiped out near the end of the race and only took the Silver.  I thought she was showboating but she claims she was trying to stabalize, who knows?  I felt bad for her though because she owned it.  The other person that won must of felt a hollow victory, but glad to win.

 

I found a way to seriously get rednecks pissed off.  I just tell them to take their boyfriend with them and go back to Brokeback Mountain ~snickers~  Fucking  cowboys.  I mean c'mon it's the stupidest sport in the world, and I speak of "Rodeo"  I mean that is almost as stupid as boxing ~chuckles~.  It wouldn't be so bad but here in Spokane and back when I lived in Lakeside, California it was part of a major "Rodeo" circuit, so what I see is a bunch of dumbasses that go out and get hurt and then live off their girlfriends until they are well enough to hurt themselves again ~snickers~.

 

Another thing I don't like about cowboys, and I am sure their women are never sastisfied because they always tell me they don't eat pussy.  Well even big-dick'd Ron Jeremy says that he has gotten thousands of women off with his tongue and not nearly as much with his large beef.  Could you imagine being an unsatisfied woman who never cums or has an orgasm.  I guess that is why redneck music is so riddled with strife when it comes to love.  It's because them lame ass pussy cowboys don't eat no pussy so of course they are going to be singing about their ole lady leaving them, and cheating on this person and that.  It's because they don't eat pussy!

 

I think maybe I'll go seek out a cowboy today and piss him off till he hits me, so I can legally beat his ass ~grins~.

 

Well for all of you that made it though my crude anti-cowboy profanity we'll move on to Saturday the 18th.

 

Julie is doing housework today, she must be bored ~smiles~.  I don't expect her to do anything as she is the money maker in the family today.  The last six months have been very rough on me, not that I miss work because I never really liked it anyways, but because I am waiting on Disability and in the meantime our family is going down the financial shitter no matter what we do ~sighs~.  And if I work at all, bye bye disability.  I just don't understand why they wait until you are at rock bottom and then help you and allow you to go back to work on top of it?  Why can't you just work part-time and get your money?  Why why why?

 

When I had my computer business and was making $15-$20/hr delivering pizza and $50/hr on my business.  Julie was pulling in good money too, but we were still living above our means.  It is hard not too, at least I don't have to buy my Marijuana anymore.  ~sings to the tune of "sounds of music"  The hills are alive with sounds of Marijuana!

 

Speaking of Marijuana I just read a report that started in 2003.  It is a two million dollar project in Europe where they have found that Marijuana can inhibit certain cancers by not allowing the messages to be sent to the brain, nerves, etc.  It corrupts the corrupted cancer cell.  They have found that it can slow the growth and perhaps reverse malignant cancers.  I am astonished but wise to why it is not legal.

 

Think about it; If pot even does a quarter of what they the tests have shown then you can bet Pharmecutical Companies will spend billions of dollars to bribe (oh sorry cayman accounts and contribution funds) our politicians to not allow Marijuana to be legalized because the Pharmecutical companies would take such a pounding when billions of dolllars of there medications would no longer be needed ~grins~.  But is it fair to single out a group of people just because they counter your culture?  Is it fair to arrest over 700,000 people a year by runing their ability to get an education?  Heroin, Cocaine, Crack, Methamphetamines are all killing people daily.  I have never had anyone ask to suck my dick for pot, nor have I asked to suck dick for pot.  I have never robbed, stolen to get pot (well maybe when I was 14).  I have seen people suck dick for Meth, Cocaine, etc.  We use to call them "Bag Whores".  I myself in San Diego when I was on Methamphetamines beat up sailors, gays, Marines to take their money for Meth.  So then why is it over 50% of the cirminals arrested and have their lives ruined are for simple Marijuana possession and only 10% of people arrested do the hard drugs?  Money money money, who do you worship?

 

HEA (Higher Education Act) States that one being caught with illegal drugs can no longer receive support grants or loans from the government.  They are saying if you are poor and do drugs you are not worthy of an education.  Now if your rich it doesn't fucking matter because your parents pay for you tutions.  So wouldn't a fair punishment be:  Those convicted of drugs can't receive an education, because the rich elite are trying to make a new race of niggers, and they don't care what color your skin is.  Someone has to wash their cars, clean their houses, nanny their kids, cut their lawns, make their food, etc.  Oh my god if there was no one their to do it rich people would die because they have been so hand fed their whole lives ~chuckles~.

 

I am not saying all rich people are bad because I know some that aren't.  I am saying the majority of them are fucked up and don't do enough to help!  Jesus said (not that I am Christian per se) "It will be easier for a camel to fit through the eye of a needle than it will for a rich man to see the gates of Heaven."  And I would say most rich people consider themselves good Christians.  I however being on the outside knowing the words of the prophets in my heart I can see the fruit of their trees, and if I can see it.  Then the "Creator" surely can too.

 

Oh well anyday could be my last, especially now that I am suffering from three illnesses at the present time ~sighs~  I just keep going and going and going.  My buddy Art is in the same boat, so we are always betting each other who will die first ~chuckles~.  But what I have been reading about the studies done in the last couple of years on Marijuana it sounds like I may be protecting myself by smoking it ~smiles~.

 

Oh well I'm done ranting....

I got the housework done and went to my buddy's house today, first time this week.  I try and let him and his wife have alone time.  I am a "Wizard" even though some of my friends scoff at me, I don't mind.  I understand why ~smiles~.  At any rate, we watched Saw 2.  It had a cool twist that actually made it a sequel worth watching ~chuckles~.  We also watched "Net 2.0"  It was like Bourne Identity genre.  It was still pretty cool.  I love watching chicks beat the shit out people ~cackles~.  Nothing sexier than a female with a gun.

 

While I was at my friends house I got this sinus headache from hell.  I tried blowing out all my pipes but the pressure was irritating and I just wanted it to stop ~chuckles~.  Then BAM my back goes out!  I told them when I was being fitted for a corpus flesh I wanted stainless steel parts!!!  And all I got was bone!  All I can say is thank god for Marijuana, because I have had the flu and a cold on top of this other crap ~shakes his head~  But all in all if this is my attonement for the crimes I have committed against humanity then so be it.  I am getting the better deal ~smiles~.  Whatever it takes to secure my seat in the Spirit World ~beams~.

 

What really sucks is having a sinus headache and no sudafed or anything to force it out.  I have been thinking about trying that Mucinex and see how that works ~shrugs~  I guess it couldn't hurt?  Famous last words ~chuckles~.

 

I was in a lot of pain today but feeling better than I have this last week or so.  Pain is something I have a great threshold for, but sickness is my downfall.  I need to strengthen myself to sickness and the only way I know to do that is to get sicker more often ~chuckles~.

 

Anyways love you guys cya tomorrow ...

I am starting to feel a little better.  I have been sick for days now ~sighs~.  The weather keeps going from 54 degrees to 20 degrees and we got a few inches of snow.  I was in shock because I was kind of hoping we would be done with that.  It doesn't look like it is going to stay long.

 

As usual after doing the bills we have less money than we need ~sighs~.  Why does disability wait until you are desolate and depraved before they will help.  Stupid thing is; Once you get SSD then you can go to work.  What a bunch of dumbasses ~chuckles~.  I sure am glad they are in charge of my money. NOT!

 

Been staying nice and stoned, so at least I am not nausious and vomitting.  The pain is alleviated somewhat, except for my pounding headache from all the coughing I have been doing.  Oh well at least I can type today ~smiles~.

 

I read the "Marijuana Companion Book" It was pretty good.  I really enjoyed the history of Marijuana, most of the growing and smoking stuff I already knew ~snickers~.  I liked the movie "Grass" narrated by Woody Harelson.  Grass is about America and it's history the book was more about world history and the use of Marijuana, Hash, etc.

 

Damn it's Wednesday already?!  Time has no meaning when you never have to be anywhere on time ~chuckles~.  It just gets all caught up in a blur ~smiles~.  Just the way I like it...

Julie and I went to Black Angus last night for Valentine's Day.  We had a coupon for a feast for two at $38.00.  First they brought us yummy hot bread, then we got a sampler appetizer plate which had Fried Zuccini, Potato Skins, Boneless Buffalo Wings, Shrimp Cocktail.  Then we got our salads and after that we got our Filet Mingon.  For desert they gave us a huge pile of chocolate with ice cream on top and a bowl of hot fudge to drip all over it.

 

Julie and I had to practically roll ourselves out the door ~chuckles~.

 

I think Dick Cheney shot that poor bastard on purpose.  I am sure the whole plan was premeditated, now we need to find out why.  I mean if the second most powerful political figure in the country doesn't even know how to hunt fucking quail without shooting someone, what the fuck is he doing in office?  I am not saying that every president should know how to shoot a gun, but he aught to at least do it without shooting someone.  He needs a fucking gun safety course or something.

 

It saddens me that the world is no longer fixable.  The people in America only give a shit about themselves 99.9% of the time.  This is creating a new level of arrogance and Mamon (demonic) worshipping.  It is sad when a country of ME-IST only care about themselves and one upping their neighbor, rather than all joining hands and making sure everyone is fed and safe! ~sighs~

 

I hate having hour-glass eyes, but I asked for them.  I wanted the truth, now I know the truth and no one will believe me ~chuckles~...

I am still sicker than a dog.  Julie missed work yesterday, her whole weekend sucked because she was sick.  I am sick, but I still did three loads of laundry, swept and mopped the floor, did the dishes, vacuumed.  I even scrubbed out the laundry area, which had been getting gross for some time.

 

Julie bought me this really cool 360 degree scrubber brush is a nice long handle.  I am too old and fat to be getting on my knees, although Art has some hard capped knee pads that I think I will try.

 

Someone got little resin globs on my kitchen floor.  I need to get on my hands and knees to get them off.  Anyone who has messed with resin/tar knows how nasty, smelly and hard to clean it is.  I should get Malachi to do it.

 

Malachi had his debut at the Spokane Colosium.  I didn't go see it.  I asked Malachi if it would bother him that I didn't go because he doesn't even like the Trombone and tried to quit, but his mother and I made him stick out his commitment.  Being a slacker of commitment in the past I keep an eye out for that behavior, so that I can nip it is the bud.

 

Julie and I are going to Black Angus tonight for Valentine's Dinner ~smiles~  It's our one splurge per month ~sighs~.  I can't wait till I get some money.  I hope I feel better so I can go do dinner tonight, if not, I will just get stoned and have a couple mixed drinks.  I'll be too high to care about how crappy I feel, albeit tomorrow it may be a different story ~chuckles~.

 

Gene and Justin got the rest of the bathroom done this last weekend, I think.  They were working on it when I was over there ealier yesterday and it didn't look like they had much to do.  It will probably be David and I laying down the bathroom shower tile.  Gene wants to buy my White's Boots if they fit, but I can't find the damn things ~chuckles~.  It would be nice to get a $125 for them, they sell for $350 and I haven't worn them that much.  C'mon easy money!

 

I must be feelling a bit better today because I am actually capable of typing today...

I feel like dogshit today.  My lungs are all bubbling and goo is coming out of them.  It's hard to breath and coughing all night is making my ribs hurt ~sighs~.  At least I can get stoned and go back to sleep ~grins~.  So don't expect much today...

Julie didn't go to church today, she was sick, so I tended to the garden.  I had to change out some water and apply nutrients.

 

I went and visited David for a couple minutes.  You should have seen his hair ~laughs~  It look like he had a few to drink the night before ~grins~.

 

Then I went to Art's house for a couple minutes, then I had to pick up Malachi from church.  It was running late because they were doing baptisms ~rolls eyes~  It's not like any of that stuff really works ~grins~.  And then we came home.

 

Julie and I were reading.  She is reading some lame romance novel, and I am reading about the history of Marijuana.  I got the George Cervantes "Ultimate Grow DVD"  It is sweet, and I would recommend it especially for beginners.  It was funny because George was saying stay away from Hydroponic unless you are an expert ~chuckles~.  I use to be a dirt farmer but never again!!!  Dirt is so damn messy, perhaps it is better for industrial strength growing but I only grow a little bit for me and my buddy.  We are both authorized by Washington State.

 

I am being lazy today ~grins~ Other than those little thoughts I have nothing new to speak of...

I dropped Julie, Malachi and Mariah off at Julie's mom's house ~chuckles~.  I told Art I would drive him to Worly, Idaho to get smokes.  We probably smoked a good eighth on the two hour trip, but apparently the savings are worth it, unless you get caught.  I think it is $100/pack for ever pack they find ~cringes~.  I sure am glad I don't smoke.  In Worly there is a drive thru cigarrette window at one of the many smoke shops the town has.

 

I am kind of stuck on Battlefront2  It is the third space battle where you have to destroy all the transport ships, then the frigates, then you have to take down a bunch of fighters, then another bomber to wipe out the turrets on the battlecruiser, and then you have to destory the engines, like six of them ~sighs~.  And it is a timed test so that makes it much more crucial to do things right on the first try.

 

I have heard that they are making another "SplinterCell"  I love that series of games.  I just like the being sneaky and using all the cool gadgets ~smiles~.  It sure has come a long way too, I remember when you had to actually set up the mic, now it is hooked into Sam Fisher's EEV ~smiles~.  It is also nice to have thermal and Infrared right off the bat.  Chaos Theory wasn't too hard, and I played on Expert (TopShelf).  Boy was that fun ~grins~

 

Malachi is staying with Grandma and Grandpa Carson so he can spend time with his cousin Jarred.  Mariah was heart-broken of course, because Malachi could stay and she couldn't, boy was she tired ~chuckles~.  She is sleeping now, so is Julie.  I never hardly see her and then when she does have days off she sleeps ~sighs~.  What's a boy to do?  Maybe if we have any money Julie can go rent "Kingdom of Heaven" and watch it.

 

Julie made some grubbin brownies ~drools~ I think I'll go eat one, two, or three with Ice Cream mmmmm and I'll wash it down with some Becks 24oz'ers ~cackles~...

It's Friday and it has been a pretty boring day.

 

Malachi wants me to load some stupid game on the computer for him ~snickers~  I am torturing him by telling him now and being evasive ~grins~.

 

Mariah is feeling better but she has been spitting out her medicine.  She is throwing a little princess fit right now ~laughs~.

 

No rants today, no mystical insight, no-thing going on...

Today I watched a movie called "Free Amsterdam" XXX.  It was all about how to get a house in Amsterdam, and how to live completely free!  I thought that must be a nice place.  People were smoking Marijuana right next to cops ~grins~, if only our government was mature enough to pull their hands out of the "Drug War" pork barrel.  I don't see that happening.  What I see is civil unrest, unfair treatment for the poor, and lack laws for the rich.

 

Our economy is a pile of shit, and that is what everyone tries to maintain while getting a little for themselves in the process, skimming the cream off so to speak.  We keep pumping millions of kids out of college every year and promising young doctors, lawyers, etc. the "Promise of America"  But what I see is corrupt government and the Unholy Spirit of Money controlling even those whose doctrines forbid riches such as Christians, Muslims, and Buddhist.  But who the fuck cares what Jesus said?  Lets make a whole lot of hoopla bullshit and take everyone's money contradicting the original doctrines of Christ, Mohammed, David and Buddha.  Are people really that stupid? YES!!! They are!!!  But it is a good Wizard's job to influence each life they chance upon.

 

Being very close to God, what I can tell anyone who will listen is:  God is ashamed at the project of humanity, God is ashamed that we have had every chance to be kind to each other and work it out, but instead will kill and force people into populist philosophies. God abhors self righteouss and arrogant faith.  And the inequality inherent in the monetary system.

 

Anyways I am living large and free in America...

I watched the movie "Wating..." again ~laughs his ass off~  that movie is so true.  I use to work as a head chef.  I started out as a dishwasher and worked my way up the ladder until I was the head cook.  I was so much like Dane Cook in that moive ~hardy laughter~.  We had the Ninja Turtle Pizza Parties and boy was I getting pussy to up the Yin-Yang ~snickers~.

 

I cleaned my buddy's house, because everyone in his house is a bunch of pigs, except his wife.  The kids live like pigs and messed up the whole house in like two hours ~grins~.  Oh well I was so stoned all damn day that it didn't really matter too me.  I am just happy when I am not barfing all morning and not in excruciating pain, both mentally and physically.

 

My wife hates it when I don't have pot.  I can only live with pain for so long before I starting getting snide like an asshole.  My wife knows this and asks for a warning before I bite her head off for no reason ~sighs~.  It's not me, I am a great wizard, but even the greatest can only take so much pain and sickness, yet I strive to do even better.

 

I can't believe that Republican Assholes want to take my medicine away from me.  The cops will do it because they get new toys when they sell all your shit ~sighs~.  Well I guess if that is worth eternal everylasting life in Hell, I guess more power to them.  I am a fucking American and even if I wasn't sick and dying I would still want to have the freedom of choice that America use to posses.

 

I think I will go smoke another bowl just in spite! ~grins~

 

Love,

Adam