I got up this morning and went to see one of my friends while the wife and kids went to church ~smiles~.  We usually just hang out and bullshit, smoke a couple bowls, kind of like two old men in the Ole’ Greasy Spoon ~smiles~ just jabberin’ about nothing and completely comfortable with it ~smiles~.

 

Gene and Krindy popped in as well.  Gene was mowing Art’s yard.  He had to use a push mower on a huge corner lot ~cringes~.  Gene is a really good guy, and Krindy is really sweet.  My wife and I should have them over for steaks sometime ~smiles~.  Anyways, so it was nice visiting with them, even though Gene spent most the time mowing the yard.  Gene has known Art half his life, and now that Art is in a wheelchair he is one of the few poeple who pitch in to help a brother out ~smiles~.

 

Julie and I had Matthew over for Ribeye Steak with all the trimmins’.  Pasta Salad, Corn on the Cobb, and Texas Toast.  Matt bought some St. Pauli Girls ~drools~.  I offered him a bowl, but he doesn’t smoke ~chuckles~.  The dinner tasted awesome, the steaks were a good medium rare – medium ~smiles~.  The only problem I had is there was some gristle in it, and I have never gotten gristle in their Ribeyes.  I get all my meat at Sonnenbergs, you can’t beat the prices on meat.  Boneless, Skinless Chicken Breast $1.99/lb ~smiles~.  I have only had one “bad” steak from there in all the years of buying steak there ~chuckles~, so I am not going to pitch them out, but when you have a guest over you want everything to be perfect ~grins~.

 

It has been a good day other than the great pain in my left leg from being a drunk dumbass the other night ~chuckles~.  As much as I drank and as rocky and full have tent ropes as it was I did pretty well.  It is the blood clot type pain I have been getting though and that always bothers me, especially because I haven’t been taking all my meds regularly and have been going crazy ~chuckles~.

 

We watched “King Kong”.  I have watched it three or four times now.  I really like Jack Black in all his endeavors.  Tenacious D, Comedy, Films.  He cracks me up ~chuckles~.  He really did a good acting job in the King Kong Film too.  Most people talk crap about Jack Black.  I remember people made fun of “Mel Gibson” when I use to ritualistically watch the "Mad Max" series wishing the world I lived in was like that ~chuckles~.  Now some with “The Passion of the Christ” revere him as a Saint.

 

I do not seek enlightenment, nor do I linger where there is none ~smiles~…

 

We got a late start yesterday because Michael had to take the damn bus everywhere ~chuckles~.  Someone should have offered him a ride.  I take the bus too, I let the wife drive the car I don’t need it.

 

Anyways, Jody grabbed up Mike, Jeff and then me.  I had my Mp3 Player juiced up with Bob Marley, Grateful Dead, Alice and Chains, Black Sabbath, Pantera and Jethro Tull.  A good mix it was.

 

We got the tents up and inflated mattresses and all that crap while downing some Heinekens.  They had Chocolate Dunkel, Alaskan Amber Ale and some other Bulldog or something like that.

 

There were a ton of pot growers there and probably a hundred different strains of bud, so we weren’t hurting in the bud department.  I was loading a bowl or smoking one practically the whole time I was there.  Everyone loved the BubbleBerry (I believe it is a cross between Blueberry and Bubble Gum).  I had no problem smoking the hashplant either ~chuckles~.  There was some very yummy fruity buds that tasted like Strawberry Cough or Tooty Fruity ~smiles~.  There was several varieties of skunk/Indica ~smiles~.

 

I was drinking till about 3AM.  I finally went to bed, but then got up to barf everywhere ~chuckles~ on more than one occasion.  The fact that I woke up at all and was alive was a tad bit shocking to me ~chuckles~.  I started off with the Heineken, moved to Chocolate Dunkel and then to Alaskan Amber.  I also had several shots of R&R, Crown Royal, homemade hooch; I think it was the 200 proof that kicked my ass.  It was so smooth too you couldn’t even tell it had so much alcohol in it.  It smelled kind of like Tequila.

 

I was bummed because my brother Mike got some LSD and I didn’t.  I really wanted some to.  Oh well I guess it wasn’t meant to be ~sighs~.  I’ll get some mushrooms next week or something and fry with my buddy David ~grins~.

 

I did fall down and mess my leg up pretty good.  Between the ropes, pits, rocks and little trees I found a way to fall down ~grins~.  It is a good thing I didn’t take my blood thinners.  I probably would have bled to death in my sleep ~snickers~.

 

I am in need of some deep mellow recovery today, perhaps some Gatorade and a fat Zip’s Boss Burger.  I just put the order into my wife ~winks~.

 

All in All I had a great time and got to spend time with my aging bros’ ~grins~

 

I put a bunch of pictures of the people that were there.  It was actually a company and b-day party.

 

There were some very nice people there, and then there were some freaks, yuppies ~grins~.  The hippy movement is different this time around than last time, but I was pretty young the first go around with the hippies.  I remember picking some up when we traveling around the USA in a Volkswagen Pop-Top.  I remember being a kid and you would be camping on the beach and you could hang out at anyone’s fire ~smiles~ someone always had a guitar, drums, washboard, etc.  There was a lot of drumming in the drum circle last night.  My brother was going to get his Harmonica and I was going to tear it up with some blues.  One guy had an accordion and he played it quite well ~smiles~.

 

It just seems that life was sweeter and the people a hell of a lot nicer during the first hippy era.  This hippy era with the younger generation are more protective and cynical.  I believe that in any countercultural lifestyle that love is all you need ~smiles~.  The younger hippies seem to look at each other with an eye of weariness.

 

At least when you are tagged a “Hippy” it should mean you are at least trying to break out of the bullshit social norm that special interest markets cater to ~grins~.

 

But with all things there were some really cool people that were young too.  And it was fairly peaceful with only a couple minor incidences. I love when people talk too me with an unfettered mind, so often people feel what they have to say is so important they never really hear a damn thing your saying, so when a cute little hippy girl or guy smiles at me and listens to what I have to say, it give me hope.  I just wish I could make everyone happy, mellow and overflowing with love ~smiles~…

Tonight I am going to a “Drunkfest Campout” ~chuckles~.  There are usually mushrooms there too and that is what I want ~smiles~.  They are serving Chocolate Dunkel which is one of my favorite dark beers ~drools~.

 

The campout is on private property and you must have an invitation.  I guess this keeps diametrically opposed groups away ~chuckles~.  No drunken dumbasses starting fights.  I am sure this will be fun ~grins~.

 

Mike just called me and said Jody is on his way to pick up Mike, so I am next.  Christopher was suppose to drive us, but he is being a dick, probably cause he owes us all money ~grins~.  I explained “dude on the couch yesterday in a blog” His elevator doesn’t always run properly ~chuckles~.  Mike is suppose to be helping me with what kind of music do we want to bring.  When tripping I like The Grateful Dead, Pink Floyd, Primus, Marley family and whatever cool stuff gets thrown into the mix ~smiles~.

 

I have all my shit together, and I just plugged the camera battery in to charge up ~smiles~.  I like to get the “morning after” shots ~snickers~ when we all look like shit!  Not too mention the hangover should be quite severe ~smiles~.

 

Jody is going to drive his minivan, so we should have plenty of room for tents, bags, food and stuff.  My brother Jeff is going, them guys are masters at womanizing ~chuckles~.  I just want to get drunk, stoned, shroomed and trip out in the country to loud music and bonfires ~smiles~.  Something very soothing, fun, pagan about partying in the woods, ocean, etc.

 

Provided that I come back alive, I will be back tomorrow (Saturday) night some time.  I will need some hair of the dog that bit me ~grins~.

 

I hope you guys have a killer weekend…

I am suppose to go to a “Barter Fair Warm Up” party, but the guy who was suppose to drive is getting flaky ~chuckles~.  Oh well it will either happen or it won’t.  I’ll just keep moving ahead like it is going on until I hear a confirmation one way or the other.

 

I thought since some people liked the “Gnostic” thing so much I would put down the addy for those who like to read ~smiles~

 

http://www.webcom.com/gnosis/naghamm/nhl.html

 

I told my bro Mike I wasn’t going if it was raining.  I hate breaking or putting up camp when it is wet, miserable and cold ~chuckles~.  It is still very cold out at night.  The days have been quite nice lately.

 

If we don’t go tomorrow perhaps we’ll go to my other bro David’s house and listen to tunes and get ripped.  That sounds like fun.

 

The “Bubbleberry” is very yummy this time of year ~blows out a puff of smoke~.

 

Oh yeah, that son of a bitch driving to the party owes me $200 still from when he ran over my Dodge Neon with his Toyota ~chuckles~.  Oh well I’ll probably never see that money anyways.  I could of swore our friendship was worth more than $200, but I have been wrong before ~chuckles~.

 

For the longest time this guys name was “Dude on the Couch” just like in “Half – Baked” ~grins~.  He lived on peoples couches and watched their kids or pad and just got sloshed and slept all the time ~chuckles~.  He hooked up with this rich girl, now I guess he is doing her mom and she is divorcing her husband ~sighs~.  I am so glad I am married and don’t even have an interest in them games anymore ~chuckles~.  Anyways, he wasn’t even allowed a name until a few years ago.  He thought because he was accepted into the “Clan” he could do no wrong, kind of like Joe Pecci in “Goodfellas” ~chuckles~.  Now, his name is Christopher and he has a sugar momma ~grins~.  But he can be quite flaky sometimes, but he knows if he screws up seriously the throw down will happen ~chuckles~.

 

Some people just have to make their life a Jerry Springer Episode ~cackles~.  I like peace and serenity too much ~chuckles~…

Today as I was reading “National Geographic”  I came across an excellent article about “Gnosticism” which is what I am ~smiles~.

 

Gnosis coming from the Greek work meaning “To Know”

 

Jesus tried to teach everyone that you could have direct communication with God without the middleman.  This is what Jesus was trying to tell everyone but as usual the Demons won and murdered the Gnostics then proclaiming the Holy Roman Catholic Church as the end all be all of Christianity.

 

So many people misconceive the message that Christ tried to imprint upon humanity.

 

It is nice to see “Gnostics” getting their due credit, especially now that the Book of Judas has been found and translated.  It states that Jesus asked Judas to turn him and more than that it showed that Judas was his favored disciple of the men. ~smiles~.

 

It is funny that the Neo-Fluffy Christians claim to be of god, yet the fruit of their tree shows the truth, so sad that blindness and self-righteous arrogance go hand in hand ~smiles~.

 

Anyways, I thought it was a boon to Christianity, and those that see it as threat are the sad ones indeed, for God gave us Unity, and we turned it into separation, God gave us love, and we turned it into hate ~sighs~.  But if you are at all interested in “Gnostism” They did a very good article ~smiles~.  It is in the May National Geographic.  For more reading just type in Nag-Hammadi Library (Google) and it will take you to the only Gnostic Church…there you can browse and read the other gospels and make up your own mind ~smiles~.

 

I haven’t been doing much lately.  I cleaned the house all day yesterday and downloaded a couple Soundgarden albums ~smiles~.  Just smoking dope for pain as usual.  I have been walking the last couple days with the neighbor’s dog Shiloh.  She love me now and jumps on me when she sees me ~chuckles~.  She gets awfully excited.

 

We watched “Chicken Little” tonight.  It was pretty cute movie ~chuckles~.  We have “King Kong”.  I have seen it before but the rest of the family hasn’t.  The first hour is really slow, but it picks up after that.

 

I am going to go smoke a bowl and watch the “Daily Show”.  I love Jon Stewart!…

The wife and kids went to church this morning, and I went to Art’s.  We watched “Leland of The United States of America” or something like that ~chuckles~.  It was pretty good.  Before it was over though I had to leave ~sighs~.  Oh well I’ll get it on Netflix so I can watch it uninterrupted at night while everyone else is asleep ~grins~.

 

I came home and we had “Dick’s” for lunch, it’s a little old school hamburger stand in our town.  They make yummy burgers like McDonalds use to make thirty years ago ~drools~.  The only two other places to get a good burger are Zip’s and The Onion.

 

The Onion has a burger that is not on the menu.  However, you can order it special.  It is called the “Saloon Burger”.  It is 3/4lbs of beef in one huge patty with an equally huge bun.  That and a pitcher of beer, you won’t be hungry again for a day or so ~cackles~.

 

Zip’s is a regional fast food joint ~smiles~.  They also have a special menu item, which is called “The Boss”.  It is the “Zipper” but with Ham and Bacon!  Zips serves up fresh hot greasy food like it was meant to be ~chuckles~.  You wouldn’t want to eat their everyday, but it makes for a nice splurge!

 

I had to wait a couple hours from lunch because walking on a full stomach does jack shit for ya, so I waited two hours and then grabbed Shiloh (The neighbor’s dog) and started walking.  If it is not raining I take her walking for about a 50min walk.  It causes me great pain, but I am not going to lie down and take it in the ass.  I am a fighter! ~smiles~.  I will either cure myself, or kill myself.  I would prefer the cure, but it doesn’t look like I am getting that thus far ~smiles~.

 

I put all of “The White Stripes” and all of “System of A Down” into my Mp3 player and started walking with the dog.  The walk is pretty nice you start on level ground for about 15min., then you start a very slow incline for a couple blocks.  I have to take a left on the main road that goes up a much steeper hill (not like Seattle of San Fran), enough to make me pant and use my staff.  It levels out for a block or so, and then it goes up again, after that I got a very long straight away that I pant through from the hill ~chuckles~.  Then it is all easy from there, so it makes a nice aerobic workout ~smiles~.

 

Today I was coming around turn one, about halfway to turn two when a rabid dog broke its chain and came angrily towards Shiloh and me.  He bit Shiloh and I bonked him on the head ~chuckles~, not enough to hurt or maim him.  Just enough to say, “Hey Buddy, I’m bigger than you!”  Once he got bonked his whole tune changed and then he let me pet him.  The poor lady probably thought I was going to beat the crap out of it ~chuckles~.  This is why you always carry your staff ~winks~.  Sometimes you need to bonk people too, and sometimes you need to whip out the concealed weapon (legal permit) and blow a hole in someone.  It is better to own a gun and never need it, than to need it and not have one.  I guess that analogy could go with anything one desired ~smiles~.

 

Friday should be fun.  I am going to a “Barter Fair Warm Up Party” where I’ll will camp out overnight.  I will get smashed beyond smashed.  I guess they are having a three kegger with a $5 entry fee and I know for a fact that “Chocolate Dunkel” will be one of the tap kegs on hand ~cheers~.  Someone knows his or her damn beer!

 

I of course we’ll have a fat bag of bud.  The kind that I grow right here in my home ~grins~.  In what I lovingly refer to as my “Secret Garden”.  And I am legally smoking it.  If the feds want to kick in my door and end my life so be it ~grins~.  I do not sell and I do not give it away, except to other authorized medicinal users ~smiles~.  We got to take care of our own ~smiles~.

 

I am hoping there will be some “shrooms” or “Peyote” that I can barter with.  I haven’t done a good soul cleansing in a long time, a few years to be precise.  My soul is filthy and needs a hot soak in the frigid pool of introspection!

 

Gene stopped by tonight.  He is a really cool guy.  He makes good money too.  The weather is getting nice and it would be nice to have the families together for a BBQ ~cheers~.  I met Gene through my other friend Art.  Gene is like me in the respect he tries to help Art get the Chaos out of his life ~smiles~.  David is gone the only thing left is his wife, and the fact that he can die at any time ~sighs~.  He loves his wife, so he will stick with her no matter what ~chuckles~.  I like Gene’s attitude about shit.  He’s learned his schooling the hard way and even done a decent chunk of time ~cringes~.  He is a changed person like I am and doesn’t do the demons that use to kick our asses.  He is just a hard working family guy nowadays.  I guess we all get old ~chuckles~.  He is a couple years younger than I am, but not much ~smiles~…

 

 

First off, I called my mom and dad this morning just to say hi and let them know I love them.  My dad had read a blog entry I had written which stated a time when we “Hated” each other.  My dad told me he never hated me ~smiles~, he just disliked my attitude and the fact that most my teenage years were spent stealing or hurting them in some way ~sighs~.  Anyways, just wanted to let my dad know I love the shit out of him ~smiles~

 

Yes, I was once broken and not afraid to admit it.  Regardless of the reasons I was broken, I am no longer broken today, well hmmm, other than mentally enable to handle the abuse of authority, nor am I, or have I ever been, happy with the word “because” ~chuckles~.  Those of you who regularly read my blogs know that I am not a saint to the brainwashed society that we live in, and I will always want to know why ~smiles~.  Sometimes the question why turns into a authoritative situation that causes me to react less than spiritually, and now I know what that is; It is the same reason Jesus went off on the money changers.

 

It is not for the normal human to understand the vast expanse of the metaphysical realm as a “Wizard” does.  It is sad our caste system no longer works because of too much melting [Yin], or not enough [Yang].  We no longer have the classification [Yin], or too many classifications [Yang].  The duality and understanding of the Universe is a lifelong process.  There are many ways to get there;

 

Jesus Christ & Christianity:  Christians apparently have a hard time applying the rules of Jesus Christ in their lives.  They lack accountability do to the fallibility of their ability to be forgiven on a constant basis ~sighs~.  A true Christian would only read the “Red” print knowing that man is inherently fallible, even when guided by God.  Man’s Ego is so large that the ability to see evolution as a part of God’s plan is unthinkable.  Christians come off as self-righteous and converting demons who want one to blind themselves to the same masochistic mind screwing they give themselves ~smiles~.  But if they can actually hear the “Red” writing and follow it word for word, then the greatest rewards in Heaven shall be theirs.

 

Jews & Judaism:  These guys are a lot more realistic than their brethren Christianity, but that doesn’t matter because they are also more earthly and they understand the earth materialism concept better than any religion that ever existed.  Unfortunately they have also been the target of heinous crimes and wars.  But they claim they will know YHWH when they see him in the form of man.  Jews can find their heaven by following their laws.

 

Muslims & Allah:  The core teachings in the Koran by the Prophet Mohammed are teachings very similar to Christianity and Buddhism.  Unfortunately, their extremists are as bad, if not worse than the Protestant – Catholic Wars going on over in East Europe, and West Europe, especially in Ireland.  They kill kids every day just like they do in Ireland.  Those who believe and follow the laws of Allah shall enter the same Heaven as the Jews and the Christians.

 

Buddhism and Buddha:  The “The Sleeping Giant”  This religion does more Christian works than Christianity ever thought of doing ~smiles~.  And God tells me that when Jesus fled the wrath of Herod he followed the East – West Trade Routes and grew up in what is now India.  He learned the way.  It is amazing how close Buddhism and Christianity are in pure spiritual doctrine.  Buddhist know that life is pain and suffering, but they get out of themselves through meditation which causes their spiritual cups to overfloweth and do good for those around them.

 

God is “SCREAMING” for all of us to unite under the same banner.  To bring forth Justice and Freedom, to bring equality and quality of life to everyone on the planet, to forgo/forsake power, greed and the corruption of demons that inherently occupy such endeavors.

 

Why have we allowed Politics, Money and Power to encompass our lives?  Why do humans crave recognition and fame?  These are the questions of demons to torture the souls of the lost.  My soul is whole,  am I perfect?…Hell no, nor do I try to be, this is a spiritual thing ~chuckles~.  The Great Creator, the once perfect God(s) (Don’t want to leave our Pagan brothers and sisters out) perfects me in my understanding.  I have come to learn recently that I hear “God(s)” unspoken words.

 

All the “Good – God” wants is for all the evil to go away.  Take away the pain, suffering, sorrow, and anguish.  But this cannot happen because of the Quantum Mechanics of our Universe which is of God binds the two together so that our Universe doesn’t “Explode – Implode [Yin-Yang]”.

 

The “Evil – God” Yearns for power, glory, fame and all those things of conceit.  It thinks only of itself and cares not who it hurts or destroys to create its ends.  It constantly bashes itself against the “Good” trying to create chaos, confusion, anger, depression and loss of hope.  It has no real power except in the mind.  It cannot manipulate the physical universe in visual ways, but uses sublime molecular agitation/manipulation.

 

The “Creator” is everything, good and evil, chaos and law.  It is the Primus, the sphere that holds the “Universes and Planes” together, constantly balancing the scales when one side gets to strong.  Giant dinosaurs ruled the earth for billions of years, and then one day they got so large that disease and environmental catastrophes annihilated them for the most part.  This is the force that all religion once tapped into.  This is the pure force, it is clean!  It works as the catalyst to keep everything in order in the Quantum Aspect.

 

Why then cannot the Populist Religions abide by the dictates of their own Doctrines?  Why is it they convert, punish and look down upon those that are not as they?

Why is it that we let Political and Materialistic Forces to rule our lives?

Why don’t we just tell them all to stop!  Stop killing, stop hating ~smiles~.

 

I don’t expect anyone to see or believe me.  That is God’s job ~smiles~.  But wouldn’t it be great if we just told the evil powers that be all around the world that we will no longer fight amongst each other for your gains.  We will make a unified world, we will stop hating, stop caring about mundane religious lands and material crap.  We will come together and redistribute the wealth, so to speak.  Perhaps, even create a new system all together.  We could make everything start back at zero; we can hold our delegates and ambassadors accountable for their actions.

 

C’MON!  We can create a new world!

 

Yeah, that is exactly what I said when God pitched it to me ~chuckles~.  It sounded too much like work ~winks~…

George W. Bush is wondering why his popularity is declining? ~grins~.  Let’s see, our kids are dying for his own greed.  Now, that point would be much harder to prove, however he has been caught twice in recent days.

 

The first one I saw was Bush and his guys sitting in a video room talking to experts that were telling him the levies would not hold up, and the first thing out of George’s mouth was?  “We had no idea the levies would break?”  LIAR!!!   And the second crucial slap in the face was the document with plans to invade Iraq before 9/11.  Kind of reminds me of why the Japanese attacked America ~sighs~.  We wanted their gold!  Black Eagle Fund.   OOOooooOOOoO not the naughty Black Eagle Fund!

 

George Bush and other rich elite and political powers purposely created 9/11, and the truth will come out.  The Templar’s shall rise again! ~smiles~.  The Justice of God shall once again re-seed the land with truth and compassion as he squashes those who would oppose us ~winks~.  Look at the works of a man and look into his fruit, a corrupt tree cannot produce good fruit, open you eyes to the Spirit World that resides among this one.

 

It saddens God(s) that these fools who rule our lives and force us to murder each other and, yet we do not see the irony in it.  Well for all you Disney Fed Dumbasses out there I would like you to envision “A Bug’s Life” at the end of the movie.  WE ARE THE ANTS, we outnumber the rich elite 10,000 to 1.  We are their commanders and we dictate where the market will take us.  And with all the Wal-Marts it seems the elite rich and political have the Americans right where they want them. Consumer whores is what America is; Enthralled in an illusion of what is, and what is not truly important.  They have used the media to create a tangled web, they have divided America and Conquered us.

 

We will continue to murder each other.  Our kids will continue to die in wars created by investment groups, political parties and illuminati type emperors of the world who will continue to dominate us in a game beyond most men’s comprehensions.  Everything you see and know is an illusion.

 

How can the Christian Right go for Bush.  Remember in the early days of George Jr.?  The Christians touted him as some kind of savior that will wring in the new era of Christian Dominance to the United States.  It is sick that a large part of our laws are based on Christian Morales.  People aught to be allowed to walk naked if they want too, but because all the big fat ugly D.C. yeast infected witches couldn’t stand the repulsiveness of their own flesh, and imposed laws of envy and jealousy upon their peers.  So I ask you Christians now in the mid-term of the last term for Bush Jr.  How do you feel about your captain and chief now you Robots of Satan!  Jesus said, “Do good to those who hate you and be kind to your enemies”  that is pretty plane and simple, but what was the first thing the church did when 9/11 happened?  MURDER THE SAND NIGGERS!!!  That is what I heard, don’t know about you?  How easy you remember the God of Abraham when it is convenient for a political platform ~grins~ and turn away from the Christ that gave you freewill which only blinds yourself ~smiles~.

 

Now the government is trying to counter-attack our grassroots’ strategies to return America to her former glory, to get decent common men back into the seats of power and rid us of the century old dynasties that have guided and forced our lives  and diminish our values.  These legacies are too far removed from the common man to ever understand a fucking thing about us ~smiles~.

 

On top of that our government is trying to crack down on bloggers like you and I because our nation wants our voices to be silenced.  There are bills on the floor right now that want to shut down the blogging movement that has been accumulating.  Freethinkers are no longer tolerated.  It sure seems like someone whether on this plane or the ethereal knows what he or she is doing.

 

Everyone throw down your guns, your hate, your religion and come together under a single banner.  Man has broken religion, truth, and integrity.  Our knowledge makes us less afraid of things we should be afraid of, and we fear the loss of things that do not matter.  Let us speak the “word” in silence across the cosmic consciousness and bring peace to all the children of the world, because kids shouldn’t have to live in pain and fear!…

I woke up early this morning and took Malachi to school so that my wife could sleep in a little bit longer.  His school is on the other side of town ~chuckles~.  Then I took my wife to work.  I pulled up to Art’s around 9:30AM.  He was already to go so we hopped in the car and headed to Wurly to get some smokes at the Indian Reservation.

 

Art came over to my house to take a shower in my handicap accessible shower.  His is almost done but we have a hold up with the plumbing ~sighs~  All the poor guys wants to do is keep his sweaty balls clean ~grins~.  It would be nice for him to get his shower down though so he didn’t have to make a trip twice a week to shower.

 

We watched the movie called “Lost”.  It was actually pretty entertaining and must of cost about $5 to film.  I can’t remember the guys name, but his is a big Mexican Indian looking guy, really mean and tough looking.  I can’t think of his name.  He was Jester in the movie Lost.  I have seen him in a lot of stuff lately, he must be moving up ~smiles~.

 

I also watched BASEketball with my son Malachi.  That was a funny movie ~grins~.

 

Well the bud is dry so the pain and nausea is gone ~cheers~  and it is 4/20 for all your potheads out there as my friend so elegantly put it on her site ~smiles~  so there is good reason to party.  Not to mention Cinco de Mayo is not too far off.

 

I am stoned again which is always a good thing.  It keep me apathetic (or more to the point “Docile”)  I just don’t want to kill anyone when I am high ~grins~.  I really don’t understand our government and their big deal with pot, only thing I can think of is they are making so much money by its illegality and pork barrel drug war spending that they refuse to fuck up their retirements ~chuckles~.  The whole fucking government needs an enema, now before I get into war stories I think I’ll go smoke a joint, kiss the wife and mellow out for the night ~smiles~…

I watched the movie “Hostel”, if you haven’t seen it then don’t waste your time.  I can’t believe they even called it the best horror film in a decade.  I believe that the “Saw” series and “House of a Thousand Corpses” were way better.  For the first hour of the movie, which equaled 17 chapters, was completely boring and very slow.  The last hour of the movie rocked but was still confusing ~chuckles~.  Anyways, I am a hardcore horror fan, so if you like horror and know what horror is suppose to represent don’t watch “Hostel” it sucks!

 

I have been sick and in pain all day, of course many of you know why.  I miscounted my garden and have a couple more days before some of the plants are dry.  I finally ate tonight at 10:30 at night.  I feel a little better but not much.  I am so sick and tired of wanting for vomit all the time.  I hate being sick!!!  I don’t mind the pain so much.  It sucks ass and makes me vomit or passed out sometimes, but I can handle that.  Being sick everyday sucks ass though, I really don’t know how much more I can deal with ~sighs~.  I have another doctor’s appointment on the 27^th.  I have to have my blood tested constantly.  I look like a goddamn drug addict again ~snickers~  only this time they are taking stuff instead of me putting stuff in ~grins~.  I really hate the nurses who don’t listen to me and gouge me with a goddamned needle back and forth, in and out, if they just listened to me they would be done in five seconds ~chuckles~.

 

Mariah is spending the night up North in Lisa’s new apartment.  I feel like there is a hole in my soul when my baby girl isn’t around, especially since Lisa’s phone isn’t working till tomorrow or Friday ~chuckles~.  It is the first time she has seen Corry since they moved ~smiles~.  I miss Lisa and Corry too.  I liked talking to Lisa.  She is very loving person for the most part and easy to talk too.  She doesn’t give me crap or think I am trying to get into her pants ~chuckles~.  I guess she is going to stay away from guys now, which would be very prudent for her.  Her track record hasn’t been too good lately.  She is a very attractive woman, but she has a six kids ~cringes~.  I think she is desperate and doesn’t really know it.  She just doesn’t want to grow old and lonely and her chances of getting a decent man are very low because of the amount of kids.  She makes really pretty babies too.

 

I am going to Wurly tomorrow.  I am driving Art so he can get some cigarettes at the Indian Reservation ~smiles~.

 

I was going to make some Double Chocolate Cookies for my wife today.  I did just what the direction said to do, but when I put them on the cookie sheet they spread out five inches and was only a millimeter high ~snickers~.  I took all the stuff and put into a casserole dish and made brownies out of it ~smiles~.  So now I have Lemon Squares and Brownies. They were yummy to, well there still there but I am talking about the ones I ate ~winks~.

 

I wanted to go walking today but I was so sick I just slept until Julie got home around 7PM.  I probably shouldn’t walk if I don’t have pot to smoke.  I will just be crying and whining to my wife ~chuckles~.  I hope it dries faster.  I love walking the dog next door.  Now when she hears my voice, she flies out to jump on me ~smiles~  She loves me and our walks…

I am out of Marijuana for a couple days. ~sighs~  I will probably lose 10-15 pounds from throwing up and pain, so it’s not all bad I guess ~chuckles~.  My family doesn’t like being around me when I am in pain.  It brings them down.

 

I am about two weeks behind since I killed all my clones ~sighs~.  I took several clones of a new flowering plant that hadn’t bud’d yet.  The clones are looking very nice and healthy.  We had to use pyrithiums on the plants.  We always try and go organic, but the spider mites don’t seem to be dieing fast enough with the Organic stuff.

 

I was going to make some double chocolate cookies with white chocolate chips but something went way wrong ~snickers~, so now I am making it brownies ~snickers~.  I should have put more flour in it because I know something that soggy would have spread out 4 inches and 1mm high ~cackles~, so I scraped them all up and put them in a Pyrex dish to make them brownies.

 

I made some Lemon Squares last night.  They were yummy but didn’t taste like my mom’s.  One reason I suspect is because I accidentally use baking soda instead of powder ~grins~.  I am not having a good couple of days ~chuckles~.

 

I ended up going to Art’s yesterday and my old boss from the pizza pipeline was there.  Mike bought us some beer and told me he is going to own his own Pizza Pipeline store ~smiles~.  That is cool!  I now have a full time pizza hook up ~chuckles~.  Mike is a good manager too, so I am sure the store will work fine once it gets some clientele.  He is the only boss in the last ten years I haven’t tried to beat the crap out of ~chuckles~.  I have a hard time dealing with the “Abuse of Power”.

 

Lisa and Corry came over today.  Mariah and Corry really miss each other, so it is nice she brought her over to play.  I asked her mom if she could spend the night or the weekend here, hell I would adopt her if her mom would let us ~smiles~.  They have been watching cartoons, playing Xbox and all the stuff little girl best friends do ~chuckles~…

OK the battle of Vonage went on till 10 fucking PM at night.

 

I was o flustered and pissed at the retarded ness of Vonage’s call center.  I have worked in a few call centers as a phone technician for Virgin Mobile and Sprint.  My wife presently works for SAFECO in a call center that does have proper call center etiquette with professional caring folks.  Is that to say SAFECO doesn’t have loser reps?  No, it just means that there are a lot less.

 

Some companies use call centers because it is seemingly cheaper than making your own call center, but in reality the lack of proper hiring techniques, bad management and low pay you get with production call centers will only cause you to lose points in the stock market.  If people do not feel valid as human beings? Your products will falter on Wall Street.

 

My wife and I both got sever CSR’s.  One promised her a $30 dollar credit then wrote in the computer space a derogatory and character defamation.  We know this because we called back and were told that the CSR’s don’t have the ability to give out credit ~sighs~, so this guy lied to my wife.

 

The unfortunate thing for Vonage is every conversation is recorded to my computer, so I have the guy telling my wife that he was going to give us a month of credit, and then the other recording telling my wife that no one is allowed to do that.

 

Here is what happened; I was forced to pay my cell company $50 which I didn’t really have and because Vonage lied to me.

 

I am transferring the recorded data too my lawyer’s office so that he can listen to it and get back to me about how bad they screwed themselves ~smiles~.  They broke contract just like Netflix, and they are going to get what they deserve.

 

I have a case right now pending with “Cricket” for overcharging their customers.  In the next year or so those owning crickets will be getting back a chunk of change, or get free service for a few months depending on the amount of money they have stolen.  It looks like I may have another suit against Vonage and Cricket for procrastination and false advertising.

 

I wouldn’t be investing in Vonage anytime soon and I have revoked my 10-15 referrals I was going to send them and sent the recording to my lawyer.  He ensured me that they will suffer for defamation of character at the very least for making my wife and I look like thieves ~sighs~

 

Thank you for not clogging my blog.  I have 43 replies of people having the same problem as I.  My lawyer said we need about 150 more to start the suit, so you guys keep up the good work and keep emailing me with you stories of being abused by Vonage’s Number Transfer Scam…

 

 

I bought “Vonage” on my birthday March 16^th 2006.  I have a recorded conversation of the customer service agent who sold me the plan.  I would suggest that any capable of it record all conversations and state federal and local laws to the person, so to make it legally binding evidence.  Anyways, in this conversation I was told my transfer would be taken care of within 10 – 14 days.

 

I called on the 14^th business day and was told again on a recorded conversation that it could take up to 20 business days, so I waited patiently again.  I called on the 12^th of April and was given a ticket number and told that “Cricket Wireless” hasn’t sent back the authorization and that I should give it 48hrs longer, so I call back today 48hrs later.

 

Today I get this lame CSR (Customer Service Rep) who has no compassion for my irritation or my plight, so I ask to speak with a supervisor even if they are going to tell me the same thing.  This rep was not going to help me at all, all she could say is I am sorry “fuck you” (per se).  If people don’t like their job they should quit.

 

I waited on the phone for over 5 minutes.  Understandable, I have worked as a Tech 3 wireless phone technician, so I know it doesn’t take a month to switch over numbers.  At any rate, she was nicer and was trying.  She finally told me since I have to pay another 50 bucks to “Cricket” they would credit me, so they send me back to customer service where I waited for over 15 minutes until I was just so pissed off I hung up ~sighs~.

 

Cricket has taken over a month as well, and being a phone technician and an Information Technology Consultant I know it doesn’t take a month, basically what is going on here is either “Cricket” (most likely “Cricket”) or Vonage is playing the blame game while soaking me out of another $50.  I shouldn’t have to pay that because I was promised a phone number in a certain amount of time, and I patiently waited for over 25 business days.  And then to be treated like I did just left me with a bad taste in my mouth, so this bring to point two things:

 

Don’t get Vonage!  And if you do, don’t get a number transfer because it is a big scam ~smiles~.

 

The second part of this is I already contacted my lawyer who said that if I get enough plaintiffs with similar situations than they will lead up the case against “Cricket Wireless” and “Vonage”.  Please send to my email account, please don’t clutter up the blog ~smiles~.

 

Contact: Adam Summerhill // OccultPizza@comcast.net

 

We will no longer accept the foul treatment bestowed by big uncaring business.  We will take their money since it is the only thing they understand! 

Other than that not much going on right now ~smiles~…

I woke up this morning and smoked a bowl.  The wife and kids went to church, as they do every Sunday Morning.  I work in my garden or go over to Art’s house to harass him ~grins~.

 

I just found out today that Gene hurt himself working ~grabs his walking stick and waves it around~ Here’s to a fast recovery so you can get back to making mucho deniero ~smiles~.  Gene is a form-setter and makes good money, especially for Spokane.  It is fortunate that he made a deal with someone who owed him money, so the premiums and mortgages are paid for the next five months, so that should help out with some of the financial burden ~sighs~.

 

I went walking today.  It has been raining lately and I have been unable to walk.  It is a cold bitter rain too, not a nice warm sticky tropical rain ~chuckles~.  It hailed on us today.  My boy Malachi and a friend Dominic came to, but I couldn’t hear them because I was busy jamming on the Mp3 Player ~smiles~.

 

I got home and the wife (Julie) was busy cookin’ up some Chicken Parmesan.  I started off with a nice salad with Crumbled Bleu Cheese, real bacon, and sunflower seeds, and then I topped it with “Litehouse” Big Bleu!  We also had linguine with a red mushroom sauce and cheese garlic bread ~smiles~.  Damn it was good!

 

I have been listening to a lot of “The White Stripes” lately.  I really like them guys ~smiles~.  They are extremely creative and kind of retro beatknickish ~blinks~.

 

So I am fat, happy and got plenty of tunes to listen to.  I am loading some up on the Mp3 Player ~smiles~…

I woke up at 10:00AM Saturday morning.  I forgot to do computer maintenance on Friday night, so I started it Saturday morning ~smiles~.

 

We went to Wal-Mart to get some stuff for the house, and some groceries.  I got Malachi a new Xbox controller, and I got a 2.0 USB upgrade PCI card ~smiles~.

 

My Mp3 took forever to load at the 12MB/sec, now I have that card and I can transfer 480MB/sec.  A rather large difference I would say.  My Mp3 Player only has 512MB of memory.  I loaded ten albums onto it ~grins~.  That is enough music to get to Seattle and back from Spokane ~chuckles~.  I was using the FM modulator to play it over a boom box.  The quality of the modulator is up to the quality of the stereo.  It sounds like crap in the Geo Metro stock piece of crap, but on a nice stereo the Belkin Modulator sounds really good.

 

You want to have fun with a store.  Tune your FM modulator to a station and the song or set of songs you want on your Mp3 player.  Then crank up the volume on the stereos in the stereo department.  I like to use music with a lot of noise and profanity, then watch the fireworks as the employees scramble around like a bunch of keystone cops ~cackles~ trying to shut down all the stereo systems ~snickers~.

 

This brings me to thoughts of “Profanity”;

 

Profanity of ancient days is different then what is considered to be profanity by today's standards.  But who creates the guidelines for what is, and what isn’t profane?  I would think that the intent would be more important than the phonetic use of words deemed profane by upper-class citizenry.  A social order had to be established somewhere in time, even as far back as “Modern” and “Neanderthal” humans.  My personal opinion is that anyone who lets the material words affect them is an idiot ~smiles~.  Intent should hurt, not words.  But this was speaking about using profanity to explain or demote the Holy Spirit(s).

 

I am ripped up.  I will probably see this tomorrow and wonder how the hell I wrote it after all the drugs I put into my body ~snickers~…

Today can be summed up as SUCKS!!!

 

I came home from my friends house doing the usual smoking and watching movies ~chuckles~.  When I came home I wanted to check out the garden, so I did.  Everything in the “Veg Room” is dead or dying.

 

We had a problem with Spider Mites last year when we traded some clones off.  I learned a valuable lesson about clone trading, buying, etc. ~chuckles~.  Clones never come critter free.  Anyways we read that Neem oil can be used in the root system.  It gave us an address for neemfoundation.com.  We went to the site and couldn’t find any dilution table, so we got experimental.  That will never happen again ~grins~.

 

I tried rerouting the air conditioner so that I could keep it under 70 degrees.  That would solve all my bug problems, unfortunately the air conditioner makes more heat than it expels ~chuckles~ cold air.  I don’t have a basement or I could pump air from the coolness of the basement.

 

At least I have a few flowering so the setback will only hurt me from keeping my three ounces on sight.  I need to get that buffer up, but it is always something.   It amazes me that these fucking plants lived as far back as the dinosaurs ~chuckles~.  Someday I will have a big pile of bud and not have to worry about running out, throwing up, and being in pain ~sighs~.  But for now it’s always something.

 

I think Julie is coming home and we are going to get Papa Murphy’s and watch Zurthura.

 

I haven’t been able to walk much lately, either cause I am in pain, I am lazy or it is raining ~chuckles~.  The forces of the universe conspire to kill me!  Let’s keep Adam from exercising!  Might as well shove some Hoho’s down too.

 

I have spent the last few days compiling and converting files from CDF and WMA to Mp3.  Man I have half the library done and already put a good 6.6Gigs of music on my desktop ~chuckles~.

 

Well think I’ll go smoke a bowl so I’ll be hungry for pizza, cya all soon…

I spent the day at home today with my baby girl.  She had 102-degree temperature this morning, so the wife took her to urgent care.  She seems just fine but keeps having these terrible fever spikes.  The dumbasses (er I mean doctors) said it was viral and would have to work its way out using her own immunity system.  I know the “Bird Flu” is coming!  To date it has a 50% mortality rate, ummm that is worse than the “Black Death”, if my math is correct? ~chuckles~. Mariah seems to be fine as though she never had a fever ~shrugs~, so I will just keep a vigilant eye on her like a mother eagle ~grins~.

 

I thought perhaps on boring days when I don’t do much of anything but get stoned and clean house, I would perhaps write a story from my past ~chuckles~.  Believe me when I say I am not the same person I am today that I was back “In the Day.”

 

Demonic Remembrance

 

It was late at night when I first saw the Green Demon.  I was probably six or seven years of age, seven being the age of judgment.  This horrific demon would render me paralyzed while jabbing me in the ribs with a painful ticklish sensation.  I could not scream and I could not move.  I tried telling my mother and father when I awoke but they just laughed at me and said it was probably the dog.  Even at six I would have known the difference between a terrifying demon and a dog ticking me in a most painful way.

 

So I guess you could say my “Arcane Metaphysical Knowledge” started on that day.  I remember the sheer terror.  The ability of a demon or malevolent ghost to paralyze one with fear is disconcerting to say the least. I am sure by now some of you are feeling the hairs on the back of your neck rise as you faintly remember the “Night Horrors” as well ~smiles~.

 

This wasn’t something that happened once or twice.  This was a great battle going on between the evil forces which use fear to manipulate, and the good forces which could not be heard ~sighs~.  I remember several times when the Gambados would come visit me in the night and hold my sheets down so tight I couldn’t move and I felt them pull trying to pull my soul from my corporeal body.

 

One time in Guam I saw this snake on me my belly standing up like a Cobra.  Several years later my mom bought me that snake at a garage sale ~twilight zone music~.

 

The first time I realized what true power was, is when my father pissed me off (we hated each other for a long time) and called the power of evil to destroy my father.  It almost worked!  His car blew  up and caught on fire.  He was ok, but I learned that I can see and manipulate the molecular rearrangement of the Universal Fabric around me.  It is a damn shame that I used all my power for evil up until the time I was thirty.

 

I have fought various spirits and have a fairly good winning record ~grins~.  The only problem with losing is you suffer from temporary insanity, but for some it’s permanent.  I fought a couple henchmen of the “Satan” (for lack of a better word).  I climbed my way from scared child to a wizard that is feared in several of the ethereal planes ~winks~, but I have never been able to beat the upper echelon of demon and devil spirits.  I have gotten awfully close, then again, I have gotten awfully close to permanent sanitariums ~chuckles~ per se.

 

There was a time at the height of my evil where I could instantly drain batteries and pop light bulbs with the force of the universe.  I could raise volumes on stereos (really handy when your lazy ~chuckles~) and cause radio waves to alter.  The whole bragging point – spew here is to punctuate a point; If one can alter the physical manifestation of our plane ever so slightly, then one is almost a God (per se) in the Netherworlds Planes.

 

The one single most problem with fighting deity type creatures is the larger ones have been around for billions of years and have forgotten more than most learn ~smiles~.  I remember the insanity that ensued while trying to capture Tyrius the Demon of Wind and Malicious Accidents ( I gave him that title ~cackles~).  People always came by the house and wondered why even in the dead of summer and 90 degrees there was always a decent wind blowing over my house ~smiles~.  I used Tyrius to vanquish many enemies, but I lost my mind for quite some time on that one ~cringes~.  It took five years to recover from that one.  I have not heard from Tyrius in quite some time.  I am sure he is buried in a dump, hopefully never capable of bothering anyone ever again.  Believe me, I will know when that one gets free!

 

In my teen years is when I really started learning and feeding on knowledge of the arcane.  I was once at a friend’s house listening to music and looking into a conical leaded crystal checking out the killer colors when suddenly something spoke in my mind.  It was talking through my friends and objects around me, but it was inside of me and talking to me ~cringes~.  I tried like hell to keep my cool.  I first asked the entity a series of questions of which it directed my eyes to phrases in books or posters over and over.  This was causing me to be a bit loopy ~grins~.

 

I finally unleashed its name RAMA.  It said it was here on behalf of my rituals and the all-dark power to give me the material wishes that I desired.

 

I asked RAMA, “Who is this?”  RAMA replied, “I am everything and nothing.”

 

Being the cynical wizard that I was, I needed a lot more proof than that to lose my mind ~chuckles~.

 

I asked again, who is this?!

 

My eyes were directed down to a MAD Magazine I was reading and it forced my eyes to a bubble of print, and inside that print it said “Who do you think?”

 

I said in arrogance to RAMA, “ Prove yourself to me!”  RAMA darkish snickers, “ I know what you want to be.”

 

And then my friend Arley says, “Hey did you check out my new W.A.S.P. Poster?”  And instantly it clicked, but I am a very rational wizard and have seen so many lose it to nothing ~chuckles~.  I wasn’t going to be in that category.

 

So RAMA shows me the color purple twice through this same sort of multi-person anomaly.

 

It was around this time after receiving proof beyond proof that I was starting to lose my mind.  This spirit kept showing me how I could be rich in a Jacuzzi with naked women, all the drugs I could ever want, fame and fortune.  In the back of my mind I knew if the beast exist than a equally powerful being of good must also exist.  This was long before I understood the aspect of neutrality or Yin – Yang ~chuckles~.

 

I was just about to bolt for the door and run down the street when I heard the voice of RAMA telling me, “Where can you go that I cannot find you!”  with a horrid insidious laughter.  I stopped in my tracks knowing the beast was right.  Pink Floyd “Meddle” turned into the “Gates of Babylon” by Rainbow.  I called out to the true God(s) and all of a sudden everything vanished and I was sitting in the room with my friends again in my own body, which I was not in for a few hours ~chuckles~.

 

I met RAMA several times after that.  Once it came to me as a six-legged goat with three eye.  I later found out that Rama is the name of Vishnu Gods ~chuckles~.  I don’t know if they had anything in common, and it eventually left after teaching me what it wanted.

 

Believe it or not ~smiles~…

 

 

I got up and did some housework this morning.  Then I went to a friend’s house and watched movies and got some work done around the house.  Tomorrow I got floors to mop ~chuckles~.

 

I will stay home tomorrow and work in the garden.  I noticed some “Spider Mites”.  I hate them little web spinning leaf-sucking vampires!  I have some organic pesticide and Neem Oil ~smiles~  A liberal ritual of that and them bug will be eliminated.  I am planning on putting an air conditioner in the room, if I keep it around 68 degrees then I have no pest problems, but get it over 70 degrees and them little suckers start coming to life.  We had put another ballast in the room and it put off about 15 degrees of heat ~sighs~  which of course spawned a free for all of fruit loving insects.  They are under control for now ~grins~.

 

Mariah got to see grandma twice this week ~smiles~, but mostly it is because her cousins are there this week with grandma, so Mariah can play with Cloey and Isabelle.  And grandma gives her a good dose of attention that she craves.  She is usually mellow after a day at grandmas ~chuckles~.

 

I need to bake some more bread, perhaps I will do that tomorrow ~smiles~.  I think I’ll make some egg bread for French Toast!  I love breakfast and dinner ~grins~.  I might make some snickerdoodles or sugar cookies.  It is the weekend!  Time to binge! ~smiles~.

 

The sun followed me around again today.  It makes me feel kind of omni – potent ~smiles~ like a God or something.  That is twice in one week that I was the “Eye of the Storm”.  Someday I’m going to get me a new set of robes and a new wizard hat ~smiles~.

 

Next month we have the “Barter Fair” practice run.  This guy has a million acres in the middle of nowhere (literally) where a crapload of us descend upon the property with acid, mushrooms, and marijuana.  It is funny because I have rarely ever seen a fight at a “Rainbow Gathering” or  “Barter Fair” ~smiles~, and if there was then alcohol was involved.

 

I love to eat mushrooms once or twice a year.  It gives the mental fortitude to carry on with a terminal illness and shitty health ~chuckles~.  The list of chronic ailments can go on for days ~grins~.  Last year I didn’t eat any shrooms and made it by this year, but I drained myself completely which allows sickness to enter ~sighs~.  I hope it is soon because I could really use a bit of a retreat, just a weekend or so ~smiles~.

 

I have been corresponding with some nice people lately.  I have made a few friends through “Spaces” ~smiles~.  That is cool.  I have some internet friends that I have had over ten years.  I have been involved in the internet for a long time ~smiles~.  I have been reading other’s poetry and journals.  It helps me to see humanity on a different level ~smiles~…

I spent a couple hours on the house this morning.  I even did some extra stuff like wall scrubbings, toilet cleanings, etc. ~chuckles~  Mariah and I then caught the bus to a friends house.

 

Since I have lost the ability to work we have lost our nice car.  We still have a Geo Metro ~grins~  A three cylinder wonder machine ~chuckles~.  I let my wife take it to work and got a bus pass.  Well today I got on the wrong bus and thought; “Oh well”  I figured the bus would just make a loop, but it didn’t ~chuckles~.  It went to the extreme opposite direction I needed to go, eventually we got home ~smiles~.

 

My wife thinks I am unhappy with my life, and it is not true.  I think she is just having a rough time.  She doesn’t want to accept the fact that she might be alone sooner than later ~sighs~.  I am doing what I can to hang in there, but some days are rough.  I love cleaning house and all that entails, I love baking, and I love my family.  I just get so fucking tired of staring at the same walls every damn day ~chuckles~.  I love my wife very much.  She is just being insecure.  We have been together for over fifteen years, so I have learned everything usually passes ~smiles~.

 

After coming home from my buddies, I took a look in my “Secret Garden.”  Everything seems to be chugging’ along just like it is suppose to.  I am going to install the new rail Friday.  It is going to help a lot, not that I need much help ~smiles~.

 

The flowers are almost perfectly dried and cured.  The center kolas are a bit thick and will need a day or so before they are really ready.  I am not running out yet.  It is hard to get a sustainable amount with the recommendations they give you ~chuckles~.  Oh well, live and learn I always say.

 

I went on a munchies binge tonight.  It was bad too, I ate three Arby’s Melts, some onion pedals, then had two bowls of Rice Chex and some kit kats ~groans~  The demon took over, and the pot sure didn’t help ~laughs~.  Oh well, I have found the key is persistence, some days I win, some I lose, but if I keep plugging away I usually win overall ~smiles~…

I call this "Shackled Remains":

 

The decaying ghost of Christ presenting itself to me from the father,

From space they came to enter the one world,

Time a crushing emblem of the insanity we seek!

Plastic toys of twin towers?

Unfold your truth to the wizards of despair,

Dark and hammered, drunk and iron fisted,

Allegiance to a different world,

One no mortal can attain!

 

Despise my truths oh, withered hand of doom,

Place your necklace of stone around my neck no more,

Passage of the underwater world,

Paradise of begotten lockers,

A plenty chain to wear!

 

Brackish waters bestow thine secret curse,

Understood what not to understand,

Growth appeased the weaklings,

And still no Promised Land!

 

Begrudge all you see and insanity will be your bride,

No love has you in darkness’s dungeon lair,

Within one’s own mind no placed port be.

 

Brass hole through which I stare not,

Paralysis gripping my nervous twitch,

Father time, a bastard I once knew,

Immortal now I seek to send,

The message of love through darkened stares…

 

 

From the Netherworld,

Adam Summerhill

OccultPizza