I woke up at 11:30AM, which is very rare.  I usually wake up around 8:30 regardless of when I go to bed ~smiles~.  I didn’t get to bed till 3AM.  Art had to call at 1 and tell me all about his date with this nice girl.

 

Two of her husbands that she loved very much have died on her.  She really likes art but is afraid to love someone and have them die yet again ~sighs~.  She’ll get over it I am sure.  If not he has other options.  I told him to come over and we’d get him hooked up on Eharmony ~grins~.

 

I am married but I took the test just to see how compatible I was.  I found out that only 8% of the women in the world could put up with my ass ~chuckles~.  I am glad I found one of the 8%’ers without even trying ~chuckles~.

 

We initiated Carlos to the Clan.  We shocked him with the stun gun.  I also stabbed him with the barb of a Tazer ~snickers~.  Art willing shocked himself in the neck several times ~chuckles~.  People think we are freaky but actually we live in such pain daily that a stun gun or tazer really doesn’t feel that bad ~chuckles~.  Art almost got me in the balls a couple times ~cringes~.  I would jump out of the way and do my blimey limey impression of Steve Erwin the Crocodile Hunter ~grins~.  Everyone was cracking up.

 

Art actually fired the tazer and when he was collecting the barbs Gene hit the trigger ~laughs~ and Art went limp and was paralyzed for a few seconds ~grins~.  That is why he was trying to get me my balls electrocuted ~cackles~.

 

This old guy was watching from the second floor across the way at us.  I waved to him and then Art purposely ate shit in his wheelchair ~cackles~.  The guy got scared after we waved at him ~snickers~.  Art gave me some shake and bud he had found, who knows where ~chuckles~.  Never look a gift horse in the mouth.

 

Carlos had a blast.  It is the first time he has ever partied with my friends.  He always hears about the craziness but never saw it first hand.  He would have went to the party with us last weekend but there was some miscommunication between him and his spouse Anna ~smiles~.  It happens.

 

Tonight’s musical choices are:

 

Sublime – Gold

Johnny Cash – American Vol IV: The Man Comes Around

Primus – Sailing the Seas of Cheese…

Hmmm, where do I start?

 

Art came over yesterday so I could help him with his divorce papers.  As I went through them I discovered that some steps were completed and some weren’t, so I took a cool white out pen and went to work doing the parenting plan, mortgage & bills, etc.  The stipulations involved in dissolution of marriage.

 

We started drinking around 11AM while doing the papers.  We got them finished after the first twelve pack ~grins~.  Then we kicked back played and downloaded some music until my wife came back with my boy from a church event.  Then we went to my “Clan Brother” David’s house.

 

When we got there they were all sitting around like a bunch of old bikers playing “Texas Hold Em’” and drinking, smoking cigarettes & pot.  Art and I showed up as my “Blood Brother” Jeff was winning his hand.

 

Anyways, most of you know that we moved Art out because of his evil wife who has been beating him for years and just generally treating him like shit.  Well there is another girl who seemingly has liked Art and always wanted a relationship with him.  I told him she was nothing but a nasty skank who was using him to get to her exboyfriend.  He didn’t want to believe me so later we called her and she said she was too tired to do anything tonight and didn’t want to go to a party or have anyone come over.

 

Well it’s about midnight now and we are having a good time so Art calls her to say hey and that we were having fun.  Well this guy answers the phone and tells Art that he is going to come over and beat Art out of his wheelchair?! ~chuckles~  Wow!  What a big man, I bet he loves to hit women too ~shakes his head at the dumbass~.

 

The moron threatens Art so we give him the address and tell him to come over because we would really like to see him get through any of us to Art.  Well Art was irate because the bitch was lying to him, she could have just as easily said she was being a slut and not lied about it ~chuckles~.  So for shits and giggles we call him back and he says he is going to come fucking kill us.  We are laughing at him prodding him to come.  We were giving him the address ~laughs~.  We were mocking him.  It’s like that one Bugs Bunny and Yosemite Sam where bugs keeps drawing the line and Yosemite keeps crossing it.  We did that many time last night, each time giving him the address ~chuckles~.  Then he says he is going to come do a drive by ~grins~ and take us all out.  Apparently, he didn’t know what he would have been getting himself into since a few of us sitting around the poker table are always “Cock, Locked & Loaded.”  They eventually unplugged their phone, but the thing is the guy continually threatened us but wouldn’t do anything about it ~grins~.  How can you call yourself a man by beating on a guy you don’t even know in a wheelchair because some vindictive bitch is playing you? ~grins~  And then how can you be a man and threaten people and not follow up?

 

Art called him this morning at about 9:30AM and he said he was coming over, so we told him we would wait at 1621 E Crown ~snickers~.  We waited over an hour and he never showed up.  All I can say is what a coward ~grins~.

 

Angel knows Art and I.  I am sure she and her brother talked the dumbass out of making the worst mistake in his life, so he really should be thanking that bitch for saving his life ~smiles~.

 

OK now back to the night fun.  I don’t know where you were Star, but you put this together and never even showed up!  Oh well we had fun.

 

It started getting really chilly around 3AM and we were out of wood, so everyone took one of David’s dressers and broke them down and burned them ~snickers~.  His mom asked me this morning, “What happened to the dresser?”  My reply was “Them goddamned tweakers will steal anything.”  However once he reads my blog there will be ass kicking going down ~snickers~.  Thank god I was lying down when they did it, but I am not innocent. I gave them the ideal by taking the first drawer and throwing it in the fire ~chuckles~.  I figured what the hell.  We could buy him a new one at a yard sale ~smiles~.  It had no sedimental value, but I am sure it kept everyone warm ~chuckles~.

 

I went to my wife’s parents for Memorial day today.  I didn’t know if I was going to go or not because of the bud situation.  I love her parents, but they are hardcore media driven conservative Christians and if I am in pain and angry I can get into trouble.  Usually we don’t even really talk, so I brought my Mp3 player so I could at least listen to music while I was going to be bored to death, but I didn’t have it on hardly at all.  Her dad talked to me, her brother Matthew and I get along so he talks to me.  It seems that My family and Matthew is the only one who can make it to famly events anymore ~sighs~.

 

We are so vastly different that we get on each other’s nerves without even trying ~chuckles~.  They see me as a clown.  Oh well their loss ~smiles~.

 

So it was a very fun night.  I missed my mom and dad, especially since they are in town and we didn’t even see them ~sighs~.

 

The good news is I have a big bag of top-notch shake and we have a makeshift grow operation, so in a couple months we should be back into the “Chron.”

 

I have been walking really hard almost everyday.  My wife’s brother (Matthew) and his friend Stephen are going backpacking.  I am doing really well considering all my problems.  I started out walking uphill and the original route took me almost an hour.  I have it down to 42 minutes and I don’t even break a sweat up the two hills anymore ~grins~.  The hike is a two-day 18-mile trek uphill.  Nine miles a day doesn’t seem like a lot but when it takes forever to make anytime on a switchback it gets time consuming so you have to keep a schedule.  After the Sullivan Loop they are going down for a weeklong backpack in “Seven Devils Canyon”.

 

The bad news…the one day that I went without pot my immune system started shutting down.  There must be some correlation but I don’t know.  My body goes through some terrible stress and I am not going to even get into my sickness because it’s fucking disgusting!

 

Other than that my life is back on track and the rough seas are turning into calm reprise…

Well most of you know our Marijuana Garden had to come down, apparently it is back up at his partner’s house ~sighs~.  He still has some bud too, but I won’t see any of it.  What really hurts is for the last year or so we have been inseperable and now I haven’t seen in him in three fucking days ~sighs~.  I know he would never forget me on purpose.  I am just glad he is happy and out from that witches control.  That is what happens when "Wizards & Witches" spellfight on the astral plane.  I told him "Allright, I have got all the chaos out of your life, you are meeting new women who will treat you right.  DON'T FUCK IT UP!!! ~smiles~  Not everyone has a wizard on their side.

 

I feel a bit used because now he is living with someone and has no need for me ~sighs~  It’s sad but it will eventually move me in the direction I need to go provided my terminal illness doesn’t kill me ~cringes~ first.  I harbor no ill will too him.  I love him like a brother and hope he is happy whatever he is doing ~smiles~.

 

I know this is going to sound pathetic to some people and all I can say is fuck you because you don’t pay my rent!

 

I use pot for many reasons and I would use it even if I didn’t have legal authorization.  I use it for pain instead of those fucking addictive drugs.  I don’t do anything else either, I don’t smoke, I don’t do any other drugs.  I use pot for my spirituality too.  A lot of people think that is wrong but they do not live in my shoes nor do they know my heart so they really have no bearing in my universe.

 

One of the main reasons I smoke pot is for its mellowing, apathy, or enlightenment.  When I am not in pain and have Marijuana I am the most friendly, outgoing, and caring person bar none in the world.  That is the “Yin” side of Adam.  It is weird because when I am sober for any length of time I try my hardest to defeat the demons of pain, sorrow, depression, anger, hatred, bigotry, but I am unable to manifest my will when I am sober.  After a few days of excruciating pain. I start becoming very hateful, I guess the human mind and body can only take so much pain before it gets suicidal, I sure hope it doesn’t come to that ~groans~

 

It’s bad enough I don’t work anymore while waiting for them assholes at disability to figure out that the doctors aren’t lying and that I am dying.  Those fucking dumbshits are still fighting my father and he had a stroke and is only a couple steps away from vegetation ~frowns~.  So I will probably have to get lawyer.  I told them on my reconsideration that if I was forced to be intergrated into society that I would probably kill my next boss(since I tried to kill the last two ~grins~) and that I am writing blogs and letters to document it so when I go to SSI and start blowing peoples fucking heads off, the news and everyone around the nation can’t say “Why did he do that?” they will fucking know why!!!

 

I can already tell by the tone of my writing that I will soon be going in a downward spiral.  Gaskin wrote a book called Cannabis Spirituality and in it he said if you quit Marijuana and you are an asshole you should probably quit ~chuckles~.  But I doubt Mr. Gaskin knows my heart, because when I am high I can’t focus on the pain, and those of you who have chronic pain understand that focusing on it makes it worse.  Not too mention he lives on a farm where they grow pot, so I doubt he ever runs out of it.  Hell a whole religion is based on pot (Rastafarianism).  And in a country that touts freedom of religion we are persecuted!

 

I was looking up studies done on Marijuana and found out that geneticly some people lack natural cannabinoids that exist in our body.  The study says that people who don’t produce their own Cannabinoids can find relief and normalcy in their lives once on the Marijauna.  I know this to be fact because between the pain and lack of cannabinoids I turn into my “Yang” side which has to deal with the heinous crimes of my past even though I have made my peace with God it still hits me like a tidal wave.  My mind spins a million miles per hour and will not stop.  I can't sleep even on the mega amounts of sleeping pills they have me on ~sighs~.

 

I have worked 25 fucking years of my life paying for ever refugees and immigrant to come into this country and take my money from me without contributing shit.  I tell ya the Russians around here are the worst ~sighs~.  I hate to pick on a whole race but damn I watch them get free housing, free medical, transportation and education.  I have to FUCKING FIGHT beuracracy to get anything for my hard earned time.  What makes it worse is if I go out and do anything over the table my disability get’s shit-canned.  But after you get it you can go work for up to $800 dollars a month?!?!?!  That is fucking retarded.  Why do they wait till you are desolate before they give you a work pass ~shakes his head~?  I’ll tell you fucking why!!!

 

We the fucking American people don’t fucking vote.  Ummm more people vote every week for American Idol (I don’t watch TV) than have in the last few elections ~sighs~.  I believe that says something about the patheticness of our country as a whole and our inability to hold our delegates accountable.

 

My theory is everyone has a crutch and all we do is clash against each other trying to win over in numbers so that our way becomes the best.

 

Let’s take Christianity (as a whole) for example.  We are a “Christian” nation yet we go around the world killing people and doing whatever we want and lying about the essential reasons.  I believe Jesus said “Do good to those that hate you, be kind to thine enemies.”  And these morons can’t even see their own rotten fruit while worshiping it, so Christianity is a crutch to deal with life that works for Christians to rationalize their existance.

 

Work-a-Holics are seen as a good crutch, but I never saw my dad when I was a kid because he was either at work or college and I am sure that had a great affect on who I am today and why I hate work!!!  I have seen families destroyed because work was top priority.

 

Alcoholism:  Hmmmm and it’s legal.  I would be singing to the chorus if I was to expound on this one ~grins~.

 

Jesus is a crutch to help the spirit of people who can’t justify their actual lives.  Drugs are no different, they are just sociologically malevolent.  In countries where drugs are legal the addiction rate is no different than in a country where they are illegal.

 

700,000 peoples lives were ruined last year because of  draconian Marijuana laws set in a time when we were trying to control Mexicans (not a lot has changed huh?).  Not because they did something stupid, but because the government has a hard on for taking people out of the voting process.  See they only want mindless drones voting.  God forbid we have the fucking FREE THOUGHT given to us by God ~sighs~.

Anyways, if you don’t see me for a few days it’s because I don’t want to let the evil Adam (Yang) out!  Or robbed a bank or something else ~grins mischeviously~

 

In the book "The Emporer Wears No Clothes" Jack Herer offers a half a million dollar reward to anyone who can prove that Marijuana will not save the world ~chuckles~.

 

The government doesn't want anyone smoking pot because then we would understand what is going on and want to love everyone and help them.  Road rage would stop, mass transportation would prevail.  And people like that me that become killers when they are not stoned can cause problems too.  If we all realized the felonious nature of the game/illusion casts upon us, then it would have no more power, but they know what they are doing here in America.  They have conquered and divided us so that there are so many psuedo-chiefs that no one will follow anyone ~smiles~.

 

Love,

Adam

Hmmm where do I start? ~chuckles~

 

I got a phone call from one of my partners yesterday morning.  It was an emergency.  His wife threatened to call the cops on us and destroy several hundreds of dollar in Hydroponics Gear ~sighs~.

 

His wife borrowed $200 from his friend and then she turned around and spent it all at the casino.  The money was to get their Charpeis eye’s tacked and shots to prepare them for sell.  She has been doing this for years and he has been allowing it.

 

Well yesterday was the final straw, so some buddies and I went to tear down the “Secret Garden.”  It took a few hours and I guess we are setting up shop somewhere else ~sighs~.

 

What really sucks about this is my buddy cannot take painkillers of any kind, he is very allergic to them, so Marijuana is his only way to deal with pain and his bitch just fucked that up, so him and I are going to be in a shitload of pain when we run out of this last batch ~sighs~.  I can take painkillers but they are hard to get with my past drug addiction which was well over 10 years ago.

 

My friend's wife went over and was going to kick his wife’s ass, but she was too cowardly to pick on someone that has two legs ~snickers~.  She can only pick on crippled people that love her ~sighs~.

 

I have some Kudos here for two companies that I am really impressed with:

 

SpamBully is by far the #1 anti-spam product on the market.  The second company is LimeWire Pro, which is also an extremely awesome P2P program.  The reason I am very happy with the two companies is because of the ease and friendliness of their site and the ability to regain lost programs I had previously paid.  All I had to do was put in my Email Address for these two programs and it took me right to a site where I could redownload my product without any hassle.

 

Usually when I am forced to “Format” my computer, in this case it has been 2.5 years since the last format.  Well many of you that do your own IT work can agree that finding all the old programs and aquiring them can be a GIANT pain in the ass, so hats off to these two companies for making your life and mine much easier ~smiles~.

 

Even without that function both programs are phenominal and far exceed any expectations I had about them ~smiles~.

 

Also a couple of weeks ago Vonage put me in contact with Upper Echlon and they resolved my problem and credited me the lost money from my cell phone carrier, so even thought it was a nightmare for a while they finally pulled through.  Their product is also outstanding but be prepared to wait a while if you want to transfer your home, cell, etc. number over to your Vonage Home Phone Number.

 

Anyways that is the mess that has been going with my life.  I hope you are all doing well, cya soon…

I had a busy day yesterday ~head is reeling~ It was just go go go all day yesterday.  I spent several much-needed hours scouring the house and taking care of a few things I have been let slipping.  Then it was time for my Son’s concert at the school.  I don’t mind going to the school events, but I hate going to the coliseums and really crowded places.  My mom and dad picked Mariah and I up.  I will post some pictures of Malachi later today or tomorrow.

 

The concert went awesome.  My boy Malachi and the other boy were top in their class so they did the lead on a really cool song.  I couldn't believe how well they did it ~claps~.  I was impressed.  It is sad that he is growing up so fast, and I don't think we are every the perfect father's we want to be, but I sure do have a good boy ~weeps~.  He makes his daddy proud, and he is so extremely different than I, but very much a like in the good ways, so hopefully I have passed on something that will immortalize me until the extinction of man ~smiles~.  I also am playing Cats in the Cradle by Harry Chapin.  That song always tears me up because it is so true ~sighs~.

 

I went to party with my bro’s Mike and Art.  We found some of these Mike’s Hard drinks that were 11.9% alcohol ~grins~.  To say the least we were smashed last night ~chuckles~.  We smoked, drank, talked shit, all the things that go on when men get drunk and start the bragfest ~snickers~.

 

Other than that nothing has really been going on much.  It’s kind of slowed down on the excitement for the time being ~chuckles~.  When it rains it pours.

 

Anyways, a friend sent me a quiz.  It is a pretty cool site where you can make your own quizzes.  I got the hyperlink for it right here:

 

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=060523175547-601989&  

 

Check it out then make one of your own for fun ~smiles~…

I am listening to the “Twin Peaks” soundtrack.  I just got that and the “House of A 1000 Corpses” soundtracks and have been driving everyone crazy with them ~grins mischievously~, so I am in a weird mood.

 

Well the bad news first, I only have about a week or less worth of bud ~sighs~.  So, if you do not see me writing it is because I am in severe pain.  I am thinking of stopping all my pills.  I am tired of paying for the fucking things.  If God wants me that bad he can just come and take me!

 

Art and I made a ton of yummy green cookies with a chocolate chip base, ganja butter, chocolate chips and walnuts.  We made like a hundred of them ~grins~.  I have been toasty fried the last few days ~chuckles~.  But it is the calm before the storm.

 

My daughter is driving me batty about making her some eggs.  She needs a nap! ~chuckles~.  Someone gave her way too much sugar.

 

I am on Tornado watch today ~chuckles~.  I tell ya the weather are really getting weird the last few years.  I am sure the ole girl has been through this many times, but I can’t help think it correlates to something much higher.  We aren’t use to Tornados in Washington.  It has just started happening in the last decade, but is seemingly more prominent as the weather makes a major shift…

I woke up today and cleaned the house.  Art came over to take a shower because his shower still isn’t fixed ~sighs~.  I don’t mind him showering here, I would just like to see him be able to shower, and his is so damn close to being done.

 

We made some yummy ass Marijuana Cookies.  It is a chocolate chip cookie base with chocolate chips and walnuts, well we forgot it in my fridge ~chuckles~, so we will try again tomorrow.  I have a really nice Kitchen Aid Stand Mixer, but Art has a convection oven which cooks up food in half the time ~smiles~.

 

I love the body rush I get from eating Cannabis, especially with a good cook who knows how to use the butter and what temperatures and situations to stay away from.  You have to cook recipes with pot in it a lot lower, and a lot longer because Cannabinoids extremely small and fast molecules.  You start losing Cannabinoids around 290 degrees, but with a convection oven you can speed it up a bit and keep an even temperature.

 

I watched this movie that was suppose to be two thumbs up, it sucked so bad I can’t even remember the name of it.  The whole time I watched all I could envision was stabbing myself in the heart with a long knife or a short sword ~chuckles~.

 

My “Clan Brother” David came and picked me up at Art’s and drove my daughter and I home.  He needed to pick up his CD’s that he loaned me to rip.  The laws are screwed up because almost all the music I own is music that I have bought many times over in several different medias from 8-Tracks, records, cassettes, CD’s, and now the “Flash Memory” era ~grins~.  He brought over his Mp3 and we loaded it up with 1GB of music ~chuckles~.  Damn I love technology, too bad it won’t be here much longer ~sighs~.  Well, I should enjoy it while we can ~grins~.

 

My son was on the playground early yesterday morning and said, “Son of A…” and he never finished the sentence, well some loser decided to make a big deal out of it, luckily for the damn school and the principle that all calls were routed away from my general direction.  Had I got the call I would of laid into them!!!  HARD!!!

 

What the fuck is our world coming to when intent to commit something that never actually happens an issue?  This is the abuse of authority that causes me to keep kicking the shit out of my bosses, or at least trying too ~grins mischievously~.  It was so fucking utterly ridiculous.  I guess my wife and my mother and law told the principle that if I found out there would be confrontation over something so stupid, so since it was his first time doing anything they graciously let it slide ~snickers~.  My reputation precedes me, and sometimes that is a good thing ~chuckles~.

 

I don’t know what happens to me with abusive authority and things that are extremely ridiculous in nature.  I feel like a lightning bolt from Zeus ~chuckles~

 

Anyways the “Daily Show” is going to be on in a minute…

Since my last blog went over well and I still had a couple points to make about Marijuana.

 

Alcohol Prohibition vs. Marijuana Prohibition

 

The prohibition years of alcohol ran about thirteen years total.  A couple of times prohibition tried their moral enforcements in 1911, and then again in 1920’s.  The reason Alcohol Prohibition had a short duration in comparison to Marijuana is because it was ran by very dark black market known as the Mafia ~smiles~.

 

What happened are so many cops and Pinkerton men died at the hands of Mafia that it got far too expensive financially, and the loss of human life so great that the government took the Mafia out of the game by legalizing it.  Well it’s been damn near a century and Alcoholism is still tolerated even though it accumulates loss-life statistics like crazy.  How many people die a year from alcohol related accidents?  How many families are destroyed because of alcoholism?  It was the loss of human life in the public’s eyes that caused change in their government.

 

Pot smokers are not inherently violent.  We just want to be left alone, and with 25 million of us country wide in civilian and military lifestyles, and we still have not legalized pot.  The closest we ever got was with Jimmy Carter in 1976.  I would like to thank the GOP for setting up all his cabinet members and causing a media blitz like no other, if you were alive back then you might remember Carter’s cabinet members all being caught in drug scandals ~sighs~.  And the “Silent Majority” went silent.

 

Marijuana prohibition has been going on 1911, but it started as a way to control the Mexican influx into America (funny we have that same border problem today), so they used their relaxing herb after a hard day of work.

 

People like Anslinger were the problem, not the solution.  Oh and don’t even get me started on McCarthyism, what a joke.  They all perpetuated it to save their existence in the political arena.  Nixon got a report that he authorized stating that Marijuana should not be a crime.  He was so pissed off that he shit-canned it and every Republican since then have created committee upon committee who only have studies done by liars ~smiles~ which directly contradicts the non biased scientific community.  Who do you trust?

 

Perhaps if 25 million people just started killing officers of the executive branch our war would end sooner ~sighs~.  But alas I cannot, however I do have a great idea!!!  I got it reading about this group in Budapest ~grins~.

 

All 25 million of us plan a day and time when we all go turn ourselves into our respective executive officers ~grins~.  I say quit being cowards and worrying about everything.  Tell your bosses you are doing it!  Tell your wives you are doing it!  This new movement is called “Civil Obedience” because it is opposite to somewhat violent disobedience.  I am up for it, and I have a lot to lose, including my life.  Could you imagine the chaos that would pursue?  We could bankrupt our government prison systems in one day.  We could cause such movement as to make them change the laws almost instantly.

My family will not understand, but they are behind me in whatever I do to make this “Hell – Hole” a nicer place for everyone to live, from the kings and dictators all the way down to the common man.  I make no distinction between rich and poor.  The laws are the same regardless.  There are cosmic and spiritual laws, everything else is just pure semantic political bullshit ~smiles~.  And though I am a Gnostic, I am for any person who follows the faith of their doctrine, even if it Atheistic.  The true enemies are the rich elite and the political powers that have had family in office for the last couple hundred years ~sighs~.  I fear by the time people understand enlightenment it will be to late.  When is the last time a common man/woman like you or me took office?  It is the exception to the rule, but it does happen.

 

So if someone knows how to organize such and event as the National North American Civil Obedience Movement.  I know this can work and I am only asking for a day of your life.  Let us retain our American Freedoms without violence, and if that doesn’t work you guys can start killing cops ~chuckles~.  Just kidding ~smiles~.  But alas the final emphasis is on the fact the violence played a major role in having such a short and broken duration of prohibition with alcohol.  I personally think we could do this without the violence.  We can just put a multi-trillion dollar bill on the court systems and police forces that will bankrupt our country if they do not come to their senses and quit using the “Drug War” bullshit to shore up their retirement funds in a Cayman Bank Account.  A nice 90 Billion a year pork barrel ~shakes his head~.

 

Well I just got done cleaning most the house.  A whole other topic all-together ~chuckles~.  The advantages are I have no boss pissing me off because he is a moron and abuses his small grain of power to make my life miserable ~chuckles~.  I like being able to poke around and do stuff at my own will.  And believe me when I say my life is slow and simple ~smiles~.  Disadvantage; It is a thankless job ~chuckles~, everyday people come home thrash it without thought of what is going on while they are not there ~chuckles~.  They know not where they clean clothes come from, as far as they are concerned, magical elves accomplish the house chores ~snickers~.  Not spending half your life and day at a place you don’t really want to be can cause some stress.  I remember my last job where I tried to chase down the corporate supervisor and kick his ass ~chuckles~.

 

I am normally one of the most loving and peaceful people except when it comes to people abusing their power just for the sake of doing it.  They get a thrill out of fucking with people’s security.  They know they have you by the balls and can crush you or raise you, and most of that is superficial manipulative politics based on matching personalities rather than leadership ~sighs~.  I demand a certain level of respect not just for me, but everyone under his or her “so-called” power.  I like to take them outside and show them how real power ~snickers~ works.  My last boss went screaming into the office and locked himself in like people do on horror movies ~chuckles~, and there was no way for him to get out.  I could have literally torn the door apart while he was pee’ing his pants and calling 911, but I just took my money and went.  That same guy named Clay Flower got fired for embezzlement ~blinks~ almost seven months from the day he fired me for trying to kill him ~chuckles~.

 

I think I’ll make some bread.  Right now I am just listening to the Marley Music and contemplating my next move in house cleaning.  I made some monk bread and gave them to the mom’s for mother’s day.  The recipe is back a few days in the archives somewhere.  I need an archive search engine for going through archives ~smiles~.  I guess that is what RSS feed is for?

The wife has been trying to pick a fight for days, so I gave her one last night ~chuckles~.  I told her I was not happy being neutered in my own castle by her parents, and having to be in terrible pain for several hours, of course any fight we get into ends up being a religious fight. Like I said a day or so ago, I was told as a kid when I grew up and had my own place I can do whatever I want, if they don’t like it they don’t have to come over ~sighs~.  The wife worries more about what other people think of her than what I do ~smiles~.  Oh well I wouldn’t trade her for the world.  I just try to help but it is taken the wrong way ~sighs~.  Last night I was trying to explain to her about the Roman Catholic Murders that created the orthodox, but because I am not from her church my words are worthless ~chuckles~, even Jesus said that no prophet will ever be excepted in their own town.  Well, I would imagine that is because you cannot see the transcendence that happens in the soul therefore the person would always be Bobby, Billy, Johnny, etc., since you know them there is no reason to listen to them ~chuckles~.  People crack me up.  It is rare that we argue, but sometimes it just seems like she isn’t happy and needs a good fight.  I guess that is a good thing ~chuckles~, although I prefer peaceful resolutions.  Oh well I am no angel either ~winks~…

I liked the writing by Hawk on Flying Monkeys.  It made me think about the time continuum, or the perception of time by intelligence beings.  It was talking about to what ends do we rush around to and fro trying to one up our neighbor.  Well I think we all know competition comes from capitalist societies ~smiles~.

 

MEISM (adj. 1) A capitalist’s vision of Heaven ~chuckles~;

 

There is far less love in the world than when I was a child and it was not just perception.  When I was growing up everyone in the neighborhood knew each other, and my dad was in the Navy so we moved every two years, but the point is everyone made it point to know their neighbors.  Hell if we all did that there would be no terrorist in America, they would have no place to hide ~smiles~.

 

Today people are so damn busy they don’t even have the time or “want” to add another maintenance task upon their already filled plates.  Meism says I have to be better than you know matter what.  You buy a new car because your neighbor just did, you divorce your wife and get a 17yr old girlfriend and a sports car, and so you wife can be younger and hotter than the Jones’s next door.

 

You cannot love another if you put yourself ahead of others.

 

I am dying and haven’t worked since July 12^th 2005.  Stress was the biggest factor in my downfall form health, well that and years of shooting meth ~sighs~.  The devil’s drug that crap is ~sighs~.  Anyways, other than being in a lot of pain my life moves at 5mph ~smiles~.  I don’t drive (my wife uses the car); I take the bus wherever I want to go.  I laugh several times a day, and I find enjoyment in the simplest albeit beautiful things.

 

I watch the soccer moms and the clean cut guys in the grocery stores.  They just seem so miserable and get irritated so fast.  Why?  They are better than there neighbors? ~chuckles~.  Shouldn’t they be happy?  Yet here I am poor and dying (we get by J) and I can enjoy and manipulate time to speed up or slow down.  It sure beats running around like a chicken with your head cut off so you can be SUPER YUPPIE MOM ~chuckles~ or whatever ~smiles~.

 

Well the wife says it’s time for dinner.  We are having pancakes and bacon!  Goddamn life is great.  Maybe tomorrow I’ll sit in the stream and do some fly-fishing and smoke a little bowl.

 

After being a part of the drug war for over three decades I have conceived a reason why they really don’t want pot legal, well other than the 90billion dollar pork barrel the committees get to siphon from;  It’s because they know if everyone smoked pot they would want to love each other and help each other.  The façade of capitalism would wane in the face of truth and the awakening…

 

 

Man my house was a mess this morning.  We had the moms over for Mother’s Day dinner.  I swear every single dish in the house is dirty!  I have a full load in the dishwasher and the entire counter is piled high with dishes, pans, etc.

 

I hardly use the dishwasher.  As far as I am concerned dishwashers are a waste of time and money.  A dishwasher uses a million gallons of steaming hot water.  The saddest thing is you must give everything a scrub before you put it in the dishwasher?!  So they should really call them dish sanitizers.  I prefer just washing them by hand and letting them air dry in the drainer, but there were so many dishes the dishwasher just seemed easier ~chuckles~.

 

Ebay sucks naked mole rat butt.  Today I get this infraction from Ebay telling me I am being punished for not buying something.  I didn’t know I put a bid on anything ~chuckles~.  I hate Ebay and I rarely look for stuff to buy on there, so an infraction isn’t that big of a deal.  However, the principle is;

 

I am looking all over their site map and trying to find some way to contact the bastards to tell them what a bunch of morons they are, and I couldn’t find anything ~chuckles~.  I wanted to write them a letter telling them how their stocks are dropping and why, but they have no way to be contacted ~snickers~, so I will place my gripe on this blog ~chuckles~.

 

I am an expert IT consultant and technician and I couldn’t even find my way around that monster site.  If I were an old man or something I would just be too frustrated and say screw it.  Ebay’s site is extremely unfriendly and perhaps that is why their stocks continue to decline.

 

The computer wars are over.  I am master!…

Well the “Computer Wars” are over and I think I have won ~grins~.  I wanted to run ghost because that is the program I am familiar with, however, I was unable to run it because of some discrepancies between a server version and the home version.  I crawled deep into the recesses of the scary and destructive registry, into the bowels of the evil legacy beast!

 

There I laid in the fetal position for quite some time fearing the ugly and menacing darkness of binary code, sub_keys and registry values that were sucking the grey matter from my brain while drooling some form of gelatin from my mouth ~shirks~

 

I searched for the “Oracle of Truth”; the secret truths hidden subliminally behind recovery logs and wanna be DOS commands!  The Oracle was screaming FORMAT FORMAT FORMAT, and I was lamenting what was once a great running machine until I laid my hands of confusion upon it causing some weird IT nightmare to spawn!

 

Basically, it was either reformat or go spelunking into the cavernous eternal hole that is the Microsoft Registry ~snickers~.  I found a bunch of stuff that I deleted with joy, almost a spiteful and rebellious tone, but with a weariness of complete and utter destruction to the Operating System ~chuckles~ with one wrong move.  I lowered myself in, and for two days shoveled my way out of a cave in with a plastic spoon.  As I broke free of the ground I could see that even though I lost many battles, and many good brain cells I had probably won the war ~grins~

 

My wife (Julie) made Chicken Cacciatore for my mom.  We had salad and sourdough bread too ~smiles~.  It was very good, and I am glad my wife is such a good cook ~smiles~.  Her parents came over later for desert.  I enjoy the family but sometimes they irritate me ~chuckles~.  Both moms got flowers, cards and homemade monk bread ~smiles~.

 

The reason I get irritated; I was always told when I was a kid, “When you get your own place you can do whatever the hell you want, but until then you follow my rules.”  But I can’t smoke pot or my wife will freak out.  It is funny some of things people worry about ~chuckles~.  I guess when your dying you view life differently and things that use to annoy you are just humorous, so I just grimaced in pain till everyone left then hit the pipe ~sighs~.  I should be able to go in my room, close the door, and smoke my brains out if I wanted to.  It’s my castle ~chuckles~.  I’m fucking Willy Wonka and this is my fucking chocolate factory! ~snickers~.  I love the shit out of them all truth be told ~smiles~.  And I miss them when they are not around, so it must be love ~winks~.

 

I had a lot of catching up to do after I aired my soul out and got out of myself and my computer for a few hours ~smiles~.  Now I am refreshed and catching up on the whereabouts of my friends…

First off I am going to talk bread since I had some interest in the recipe, however for people who haven’t made bread it can be a nightmare without knowing a few simple rules ~smiles~.

 

There are three different kinds of yeast.  The first one is hard to make is very old school.  Active Yeast takes about ten minutes in Milk, Water, and Sugar.  Sugar causes yeast to activate, Salt muffles yeast growth.  If using regular “Active Yeast” put in liquid mixture heated no more than 120 degrees.  Then set the yeast aside until it turns into a jelly substance, then it is ready to use.

 

I prefer “Fast Rising Active Yeast” which just makes the job a little quicker ~winks~.  When using super fast yeasts put the yeast into dry mixture and stir it up really good then add your warm liquids to the flour.

 

The dough should be around 80-85 degrees when putting in bowl for first rise.  Ok now here is the recipe with a bit of history:

 

100 % whole wheat bread

Abbey of Our Lady of the Holy Trinity. For years the monks made and sold their special brand of whole wheat bread. In recent years it became necessary to discontinue this industry. However, the monk who for many years was the baker has developed a recipe for homeowners to bake their own whole wheat bread from the 2-grain cereal now produced at the monastery.

2 Cups Milk 1 Cup Warm Water (105 – 115)

¼ Cup Brown Sugar   2 Pkgs Fast Active Yeast

1 Tablespoon Salt    8 Cups Whole Wheat Flour

¼ Cup Butter         3 Tablespoons Melted Butter

You can substitute Whole Wheat Flour for any combinations of flour including Bleached.

 

1)      Take 6 Cups of flour, Salt and Yeast and put in large bowl.  Stir very well.

2)      Take Milk, Water, Sugar, Butter and simmer on low until 105 – 115 degrees.

3)      Mix liquids with dry in the large bowl, now take the remaining 2 Cups of Flour and slowly work it into the dough until dough is nice and thick.

4)      Use Dough Hook or roll out onto flour surface and knead bread until smooth and elastic.

5)      Place in greased/oiled bowl and then flip dough so oiled side is up.  Let rise to double. Rises best around 85 degrees.

6)      Cut into two halves and place if Bread Pans and let rise double again.

6A) For advanced only: cut into fourths and let sit for 10 minutes, and then roll the dough

into 12” strips. Braid two of the strands together, wad up into loose ball then  place into bread pans and let double again.  I have found they don’t really double on this one.

 

7)      Bake in oven at 400 degrees for 35 minutes, or until the bottom of the loaf sound hollow when you tap it

8)      Enjoy

 

 

My mom and dad came over to visit for a couple hours yesterday.  They are in their summer home up here in Spokane, but soon as it gets cold they go back down to Yuma, Arizona ~smiles~.

 

Friday is usually my maintenance day where I uninstall old programs, update firmware and software, clean cookies, plug ins, spy ware-removal, virus scanner, defragging and backing up my hard drive to my secondary drive.

 

My Norton Ghost stopped working, so I tried a newer version of Ghost that I could not get running.  There was a server Ghost on my computer and I couldn’t even find out where it was in my files ~shrugs~.  So I ran another version of personal ghost, and now I can’t get ghost to work worth shit on my computer.  I searched and deleted anything that had to do with Ghost, and I took all instances of it out of the registry ~sighs~.  Well this computer is too old and I have too much info on here to do the dreaded “Reformat”.

 

I went to consumer reports to find back up programs and I ran across Genie – Soft Backup Manager 6.0.  This is rated as the number one backup software on the market right now, so I downloaded a trial version of it so I could back up my computer ~chuckles~.  I intend on buying it though because I really don’t want to reformat until I get my 3.2GHz up and running ~smiles~.

 

I don’t know how much longer this ole girl (computer) has in her.  She is an old 733 Coppermine.  When I first bought her back in 2001 she was the shit.  Top of the line everything, five years later she is a crumbling pile of junk.  Luckily I am a techie, so I keep my computer running like a 1.8GHz.

 

I am hungry.  I guess I should go whoop up a bowl cereal, or I could do my hour walk and get it out of the way ~smiles~…

My parents called me today.  They are in town and got in kind of late in the afternoon, so they were getting adjusted in their summer home ~smiles~.  I was taking a nap when they called. ~chuckles~  I was stoned and got so bored I fell asleep ~chuckles~.

 

Julie made awesome “Fajitas” tonight.  I took Shiloh for an hour walk and when I got back they were all done ~smiles~.  Most people don’t know this but my wife use to be a terrible cook.  She could burn toast ~grins~.  But years of being married and watching the food channel, she makes some grubbin’ ass food now days ~smiles~.

 

I am listening to Marilyn Manson – Lest We Forget.  I am thinking about putting the “nobodies” song on.  I love Marilyn Manson.  He is the Alice Cooper of this younger generation ~smiles~.  I have seen him a few times, once at Ozfest and he always puts on one hell of a show.  He is one hell of a showman ~smiles~.

 

I am ordering a CD of the Gregorian Chants…the best of by the Benedictine Monks of St. Michaels Cathedral.  I love the ancient moans and chants.  They are both creepy and awe inspiring ~smiles~.

 

I have changed my site a bit and included some people’s sites I frequent.  I hope anyone finds them as enjoyable as I do ~smiles~.  I find it easier with my lifestyle to make friends online ~chuckles~.

 

Cyberspace has its advantages and disadvantages too.  If one is honest then one can open themselves and peel away all the onions and make good strong friendships, but the disadvantage is you have to believe that the person is who they say they are ~chuckles~.

 

I think I am going to smoke a bowl and get ready for the “Daily Show” with Jon Stewart ~chuckles~ I write it just like the announcer says it.  Only his says the date too unless it is a rerun.

 

Well I look forward to seeing the parents tomorrow and the rest of the cyber realms…

My mom and dad should be arriving in town today at anytime.  I am just waiting for the phone call.  They have a Summerhouse they live at here, so they can be with their grandkids and us ~smiles~.

 

Anyways, I was talking to my mom on MSN messenger last night while they were in the Dalles and she told me that they may be taking my wife and I on a Cruise Ship to Alaska ~smiles~.  I think that would be cool.  I have never been on a cruise ship.  My mom and dad have been on several and just got done with one to panama ~smiles~.  They have done the Alaskan one too.  That will be cool if we can get everything worked out ~smiles~.

 

I took the bus to Art’s house with Mariah this morning.  Watched a movie and BS’s for a bit.  I caught a ride home with Gene and Krindy.  That was nice because it is raining all day here and standing in the rain sucks ~chuckles~.

 

I have often wonder why some things are the way they are:  Take buses in different cities.  Here in Spokane there are very few covered bus stops.  We get snow, rain and everything in between, and we are forced to stand in the freezing weather to ride the bus.  I learned to ride buses in San Diego and they have a shitload of covered stations there and they get less than a half an inch of rain a year ~sighs~.  Perhaps they need to be protected from the sun? ~chuckles~.

 

I am stoned out of my gourd and listening to Primus – Frizzle Fry ~grins~. I am going to love the new technology while it still exists in the world, for the next couple years anyways.  I can wireless transfer digital music from my house computer to my car, or my Mp3 Player ~chuckles~.  I can unplug my external hard drive and take it whenever I want.

 

Music is such a profound part of my life.  If all the technology in the world went in the toilet today I would be banging sticks or playing a pan flute ~smiles~.  There is a time for everything ~smiles~.   I can tell a person by the type of music they like, the colors they wear, the way the speak.  I mean there is a music for every kind of person with few exceptions.  I am profoundly affected by music and use it to stimulate certain emotions at certain times ~winks~.  I use it for meditation, magik and all that implies ~chuckles~.  I use to use it for strength in my teenage years.  It told everyone who I was and how to approach me, even today my wife knows how to handle me by the music I am listening to ~grins~.

 

I don’t mind silence when I am out in the woods listening to the earthly noises around me, but the city is polluted with noise, so I use my music to drown out the screaming silence of the city ~snickers~.  Sometimes I have to go back to the woods just to recharge my batteries.

 

I finally found a Whole Wheat Bread Recipe I like.  It came from an Abbey of monks.  I don’t remember the name, but they make a mean ass Whole Wheat Bread.  Most whole-wheat recipes call for some kind of flour other than Whole Wheat like Bread Flour or All Purpose Bleached Flour.  I had to go to some sites and forums so I could learn about yeast.  When you find a bread recipe they don’t tell you whether it’s for a bread machine or whether it uses regular yeast or fast acting yeast.  You have to learn about the different yeast in order to understand the basics of baking.  They have college courses on this shit ~chuckles~.  Oh this bread is Heavenly ~Pun Intended~ as it came from monks ~snickers~.  This recipe calls for 8 cups of Whole Wheat Flour.  I am thinking about using 6 Cups of Wheat and 2 Cups of Bread Flour.

 

Bread flour has nice glutens in it.  Sugar helps feed the yeast so it will rise better.  Salt causes the yeast to slow down.  I had always wondered how they carbonated beer before CO2 tanks were created ~chuckles~.  They used sugar and yeast to create the carbonation, but ice was rare lol so you had to drink it warm.  Nasty ass Egyptian warm beer ~smiles~.  Older yeast recipes called for you to grow your own yeast with sugar, water and heat.  Anyways the bread is really good!...

 

 

My neighbors had an ATI Rage card, so instead of taking it out and putting in a new one, I just bought the one in their scrap pile.  The fan had acquired too much dust so it burned up my video card.  Not that it matter because it is six years old ~chuckles~, and was the flagship for NVIDIA back then.

 

I had to get into CMOS first and change over the video configuration from AGP to PCI and reset the clock and all that implies ~chuckles~.

 

Before I was told I was dying I had my own consulting firm and regularly worked on networks and computers ~smiles~.  So at least we don’t have to take the damn thing in and have them charge an arm and leg for service.

 

There are several things one must know about computers before they get involved.  I guess first is static electricity.  It will ruin any transistor you have on a board.  You don’t even have to see the spark and it could fry your whole system, so make sure you grounded well so you don’t create electricity.

 

I find a lot of people don’t understand BIOS (Basic Input Output).  When changing some cards like audio or video it is necessary to change the CMOS commands, or you’ll be standing around with a blank screen wondering if you will ever fix the damn thing ~chuckles~.

 

I left the old Gforce in, because every time I unplug my computer it goes back to default in CMOS ~chuckles~.  So if it happens again I can just switch it through the basic display in CMOS.  I am glad I found that out before I threw away the old card ~chuckles~.

 

Well I am going to go smoke a bowl.  I’ll be checking up on my friends later tonight, so I will be posting ~smiles~…

Well, my graphics card is going out.  I tested the monitor and the cable and they are all fine, so if you don’t see me writing for a day or two that’s why ~sighs~.

 

My neighbor said they had a decent ATI Rage card I can use, so I may put that in later.  Anyways just wanted to let you guys know what was up ~chuckles~.

 

Stay stoned forever…

Today was too regular.  I was tagged with a questionnaire, so I am going to pass on it on to anyone who cares ~smiles~.

I did see “Flight 93” today.  What a gut wrencher. People were calling their loved ones telling them they were going to die, at least they went down with their boots on ~praise~ My heart goes out to their families and loved ones ~frowns~.  I will need a day or two to soak up this movie to even catch a glimpse into the atrocity, especially on a more human level.

 

1.THE ULTIMATE TRUTH
64

2.DONT WEAR A HELMET IF...
for any reason

3.WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU WATCHED ON TV
The Daily Show

 

4.WITHOUT LOOKING GUESS WHAT TIME IT IS..

420

5.NOW LOOK AT THE CLOCK.WHAT TIME IS IT...
534 

6.WITH THE EXCEPTION OF THE COMPUTER WHAT CAN YOU HEAR.
Ancient Pink Floyd “Matilda Mother” that’s about all I can hear because I have it cranked ~chuckles~

7.WHEN DID YOU LAST STEP OUTSIDE? WHAT WERE YOU DOING?
A few minutes ago.  I was coming home.

8.BEFORE YOU STARTED THIS SURVEY WHAT WERE YOU LOOKING AT?
My Email

 

9.WHAT ARE YOU WEARING??
Addidas T-shirt and Starter Jersey Shorts

 

10.DID YOU DREAM LAST NIGHT??
Not that I am aware of…

 

11.WHEN DID YOU LAST LAUGH....
Earlier today, laughter is good medicine

 

12.WHAT IS ON THE ROOMS OF THE WALL YOUR IN??
Jesus Christ propaganda for brainwashing children ~grins~.

 

13.SEEN ANYTHING WIERD LATELY??
I saw a two legged dog that walked like a bi-pedal, I got it in my email a couple weeks ago

 

14.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THIS QUIZ??
Quiz?  Do I get a lollipop if I pass?

15.WHAT IS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW?
Flight 93

16.IF YOU BECOME A MULTI-MILLIONAIRE OVERNIGHT WHAT WOULD YOU BUY?
Whatever I wanted?

 

17.TELL ME SOMETHING ABOUT YOU I DONT KNOW...
I am a certified SCUBA diver since 1976

 

18.IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING IN THE WORLD REGARDLESS OF GUILT AND POLITICS WHAT WOULD YOU DO??
I would make all the rich elite and political people disappear

 

19.DO YOU LIKE TO DANCE??
Not anymore

 

20.GEORGE BUSH?
Knucklehead!

 

21.IMAGINE YOUR FIRST CHILD IS A GIRL WHAT WOULD YOU CALL HER??
Mariah

22.IF IT IS A BOY??
Malachi

 

Honestly, if it weren’t for the person who tagged me I’d let this thing die ~chuckles~.

 

 

What can I say about Sunday’s?  Boring when it’s raining outside.  I got Sun on the back yard and rain two blocks up, so I guess I won’t be walking the dog today ~sighs~.  I got this damn tickle in my lung that has been making me cough to the point of almost passing out ~chuckles~.  Usually I have to pay to feel that way ~snickers~.

 

I am going to run out of bud since I killed the “Veggies” ~sighs~.  I got lots of Bubbleberry and Hashplant, so I think I will just enjoy as long as I can.  I hate running out, especially after a day or two when my reserves start dwindling, the stress and pain start coming in on me.  I just try not to think about it.  I can always get some painkillers to hold me over, but I prefer to stay as natural as possible.  Painkillers are nice once in a while though ~grins~.  Who wants to be in pain?

 

Julie made Blueberry Pancakes with Bacon this morning after church.  Then I took a nap because I was so bored.  I realize upon waking up that it was the Spirit of Boredom, one of the children of the Sixth Heaven that procreated with Anxiety on up the line to the father of that branch of demons.  So now I am at war with the Demon of Boredom and will soon be rid of it.  I will clean house, walk and/or do something creative that will kill the spirit.

 

I prefer to be surrounded by the Spirits of Gladness, Happiness, Fulfillment, Joy, etc.  Created by the Primus, the incorruptible one.  The Trinity has been butchered and was much simpler than modern man as made it ~chuckles~.  Faith (Pistis), Love(Zoe) and Works.  It simply means Know, Love, and do the works of your Faith ~smiles~.  It always amazes me that the majority of humanity can’t see what I see ~chuckles~ and that they rationalize their doctrines, making themselves hypocrites and committing atrocities against their Lord’s Doctrines.

 

A Christian should love Satanists.  They should do good things to them, and show great kindness, for anything else will only give the opposition rationale for their refutation ~smiles~.  The populist religious saviors all said these things that are not followed by their worshippers of modernized religion.

 

When I step inside my father’s institutions of despicability and hear them putting other’s down it angers God, and within me where God resides, it angers him.  You must love and help your enemies, if not then you have your rewards now, and when you are confronted with the Primus and the Son they will turn their heads away from you and deny that they know you ~cringes~.  And you shall be forced back to a corporeal body with your memory wiped to try again ~smiles~, if that isn’t Hell I don’t know what is ~chuckles~.

 

The reason our world is so fucked up is because everyone thinks their God or Savior is better while missing the entire fucking point that people like Mohammed, Christ, David, Gandhi, etc. were trying to make, which was that Faith, Love and Works stemming from the first two can do no harm.  You can tap into the same power that I do, the same power that Jesus Christ, Mohammed, etc. tapped into.

 

I have friends who are Norsemen, Pagans, Satanists, Druids, Gnostics, Agnostic and Atheist.  And they are treated equally by me ~smiles~.  Populist Religions have let down the world with hypocrisy, contradiction, self-righteous indignation to the point that no  modern day human (with few exceptions) can believe with enough force to be magical. People have doubt because of the clownshoe’s wearing the Crest of God abusing his ultimate power for their gain.

 

We are supposeably a Christian Nation, but we’ll kill and force our military into any country that doesn’t play ball the way the USA plays.  The proof of our hypocrisy is in places like Rwanda and Darfur where genocide is going on everyday, but because they have no beneficial rewards like Middle – East Oil they are left to die brutally being slain with machetes to save on bullets.

 

I know in the end though humanity will just be another blight upon the earth that will be wiped out the same way the dinosaurs where ~smiles~.  The mother (our earth) got too small for dinosaurs, so by order of the Father the dinosaurs were cleaned from her body and made her whole and pure again.  We like the dinosaurs will not prosper on because of our inability to use our will for good works, instead of self-preservation…

What happened to yesterday?  I remember doing dishes a lot, OH YEAH! ~growls with frustration~.

 

I tried to make two separate batches of bread, and either the yeast was messed up or something.  At any rate it really pissed me off and almost threw me into a rage ~grins~.  I quickly threw on the “Cloak of Incorruptibility” that Jesus wore and my rage was halted instantaneously.

 

Most people are too modern today to understand the symbolism behind every word, number and letter.  Religious leaders knew how powerful the words were, every emotion, reaction, and refutation is a spiritual entity.  The masses were never suppose to gain the knowledge that it now possesses.  The fruit of knowledge were hallucinogenic which opened up our ape-like minds.  And from that time on we have been trying to find others who believe as we do so we could stave loneliness.  We have created churches, monoliths, symposiums, etc. on every inspiration ever handed down by God into the minds of man.

 

When you are lonely, the Demon/Devil/Spirit of “Loneliness” attaches itself to your soul controlling your emotions, reactions and general behavior.  Loneliness once it gets a hold calls for “Depression” who further tries to sink one into suicide or harmful habits.

 

Saviors like Jesus, Mohammed and Buddha knew this and explained why one should not hate because of its molecular level where these emotion spirits work and can cause great harm.  Have you ever hated someone and then they died?  It’s not a good feeling unless you are pure evil, or they were ~chuckles~.

 

When you hate someone streams of Black and Red molecules descend upon that person like a river of blood.  Now imagine if you understood and harnessed this power ~winks~.  How deadly accurate you could be.

 

And the same goes for Love.  It streams out Yellow and Green in an explosive force which can protect and cover the ones you love ~smiles~.  The unfortunate problem for most is they can’t see the molecular plane, either because they have not been taught, nor have they found the truth on their own ~smiles~.  It resides on this illusionary plane called “Earth” ~smiles~ and is very real I assure you.

 

Today I AM…

TroubleBubble did one of them fun questionnaires that inspired me to dig a tad bit deeper into the introspective compatibility of people.  I will be using God in context of singular and paganistic, but I will be writing it as a monotheistic God.  I would not want to leave my Pagan brothers and sisters out ~smiles~.  So when you see Deity, God or whatever, just add your own “S” ~smiles~.

 

Do you have a Deity? Yes

 

Does your Deity make you kinder to people? Yes

 

Does your Deity help you explain the Universe? Yes

 

Do you follow the Doctrines of your God? Yes

 

Do you believe enlightenment means being slow to rage? Yes

 

On a scale of 1-10, how important is music in your life? 10+

 

What kind of music do you listen to? Metal, Alternative, Cultural, Rock and Classical

 

What is your favorite color? Green

 

What is your favorite number? 1

 

Are you an Artist? Yes

 

Do you use Marijuana? Yes

 

Do you use Alcohol? Yes

 

Do you use  manmade drugs for recreational use? Very Rarely

 

Are you friendly? Usually

 

Are you the same inside your soul as you portray from your actions and/or mouth? 95% of the time and rising.

 

Have you ever hitchhiked for more than a week? Yes

 

What is your general attitude towards the masses; Positive or Negative Negative; they are idiots seemingly.

 

Do you have a mate? Yes, for 15yrs

 

Do you have children?  How Many? 2 Mariah age 4, and Malachi age 13

 

Have you been married more than once? Nope, this is my first and last.

 

Have you ever been shot, stabbed, and/or beaten relentlessly with a wine bottle? All of the above.

 

Were you an adopted child? Yes

 

On a scale from 1-10 how spiritual are you?  1 = Earthly, 10 = Spiritual: 7.5

 

What country or State do you live in? The State of Insanity, err I mean Washington State.

 

Have you traveled around the world? Sort of, my dad was in the Navy.

 

Were any of your parents in the military? My Dad

 

Where have you lived the majority of your life?  And how long? Spokane, WA 15yrs now.

 

Do you like your present government? No, I think they all need to be flushed out and common men and women should be put back in because these assholes don’t care about us.

 

What is your occupation? Mr. Mom

 

What is your age? 41

 

What is your sex? Male

 

Do you think the world is heading in the right direction? If the direction is towards a nasty toilet then sure ~smiles~.

 

Have you ever been to college? Yes

 

Do you like change? Sometimes, but mostly no.

 

Can you love unconditionally? (Not to be confused with obsession); Yes, and it took a long time to get there.