This week’s game is “Fable” for “Xbox”.

 

This game rocks!  The equipment screens took a couple hours to figure out, and the graphics stick here and there, but not too bad.

 

The reasons this game rocks:

 

1)      You can kill anyone you want!  Most games force you in a certain direction with its wanton slaughter, but Fable allows you to kill anyone, slaves, peasants, traders, etc.  I love to kill someone who talks crap too me in a game ~chuckles~  The only other game I can think of off the top of my head would be Morrowind, but their graphics were not nearly as nice as Fable.

2)      The game uses social expressions that are based upon the routes you chose when leveling up, and for good/evil deeds.  Some of these are quite rude and funny (what is it with guys and body functions? ~chuckles~).  Among these were; Fart, belch, arm pump, middle finger ~laughs~.

3)      Along with the social functions you can flirt, sexy body pose, etc.  You can give girls or boys gifts, unfortunately there is no playable female character, which is odd.  I had two houses that I upgraded and one wife.  This is really going to crack people up.  I went back to my wife and gave her a diamond and some flowers, then she asked me to go to bed with her ~cackles~, so I did!  The screen goes black while you hear sex sounds and giggling (beware if you have small children ~chuckles~)

4)      Another social part of the game is Quests and Boasts.  You stand in the town center and boast about how you are going to win i.e. no clothes, fist only, protect/kill, etc.  This made the game that much more fun.

5)      If you are a gay male then this game is definitely for you!  I had guys trying to pick up on me in the game.  You can tell if they like you because they will have a heart above their head.  I personally am not gay, so I didn’t pick up on guys, however if you are gay I think you would get a kick out of it ~chuckles~.

6)      The game engine is like no other I have seen since the days of paper RPG’s(Sorcerers and Chivalry).  It was not very user friendly at first, but being the RPG master that I am it didn’t take long for me to understand it.  I always love playing the second time better, because the stress is relieved and you know what is coming at you.  I prefer a 1% format to the 5% format.  1-100 is more accurate.  This game used complex mathematics for everything…some of the () I could not figure out, but perhaps I’ll look them up on the Internet.

 

The only downside to this game is the fact that you can only be male and that the game is far too short (2wks for casual gamer), but I will work on doing more of the optional quests this game and that may very well change.  The manual that came with the game sucks.  It doesn’t explain things that would drive a person like me crazy, but I can probably find a manual on .pdf, I hope so anyways.

 

If you have watched my game stats and ratings lately you will know that I am giving a very generous (I am not usually generous ~chuckles~) 9.5 out of 10.  This has been the highest rated game so far…

 

No song for the day today because I am feeling lazy and have housework and video games to play!…

Gail made the comment to me the other day that I think Marijuana is a wonder drug ~chuckles~.  From my personal experience I can say hell ya it is.  The world is lucky there is a drug; whether natural or man-made that creates a mellowness or apathy in me.  If it weren’t for pot I would have been a murderer many times over.  Not too mention I would be spending most of my time in hospitals, which is what I was doing before I started smoking Marijuana 10 years ago.

 

Unfortunately, one cannot get any information on clinical studies of Marijuana here in the USA, because they don’t allow it ~chuckles~.  However, there is a plethora of clinical studies done at all other universities around the world.

 

The top diseases that Marijuana has been able to aleive are: Lung Cancer, Alzheimer’s, Lou Gerick’s, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Chemo-Therapy, Migraines and Fibromyalgia.  I have several of these diseases in chronic and terminal sense.  I have lived a hard life and spent decades intravenously shooting Methamphetamines (the worst drug in the world).

 

I can’t remember the name of the author that wrote “The Emperor Wears No Clothes” but he is offering a $500,000 reward to anyone who can prove that Marijuana can’t save the world.

 

This is my personal observation and may wreak a tad bit of paranoia, but I am sure the real reason the government doesn’t want to legalize Marijuana is because of the economic ramifications.  If everyone smoked Marijuana then they would all understand what was important.  Now I realize that not everyone needs to smoke pot to think that way, but some of us do.  The point is that if everyone started loving each other and understood the cheapness of materialism and fashion perhaps they would stop being fashion whores and start taking care of that which is truly important, like one’s faith with the Creator, time spent with loved ones.  If no one was buying cheap material crap all the time it would throw us into an economic depression that would kill the economy of America, so they must keep it illegal, but it won’t be long before we make it legal.

 

SAFER works to explain how smoking Marijuana is better than getting drunk.  Marijuana is a much safer recreational drug than alcohol.  Not that people should be driving stoned, but I have never gotten into an accident stoned ~chuckles~.  Alcohol is legal, and is the only drug that you can die from by withdrawals, not even Heroin can kill you from withdrawals, although you’ll wish you were dead ~snickers~.

 

I am authorized by the State of Washington to grow and smoke as much as I need for my chronic and terminal illnesses.  I hate having to buy it.  It is $160 for a ½ oz.  Now if it were legal I could get a ½ oz for $60, but since I can’t I just grow my own.

In the Old Testament up until the time of Jeremiah Marijuana was used in their hallucinogenic concoctions to the see the spirit of God.  After Jeremiah the references to Marijuana stopped, perhaps they decided to keep the secrets for how to see God ~shrugs~.  If one remembers the story of Saul they would remember that he was anointed upon his hands and feet with a sacred oil.  The next time they see Saul he was naked and shivering in the fetal position in the wilderness.  I would imagine because he had a really bad trip ~chuckles~.  They would put the ointment on them and tell them to go seek the spirit in the wilderness.

 

Did you know humans actually have THC receptors?  Now why would God give us THC receptors?  ~chuckles~.  I’ll let ya all ponder that for a minute.  I mean if God didn’t want us using these tools he could have made us without receptors to intake hallucinogens and/or Marijuana?

 

Anything can be abused.  And I see kids who are lifeless and waste their days getting stoned and watching reruns of Perry Mason ~sighs~.  That is the only group of people the government want you to see.  I know from personal experience that addiction is a sociological affliction caused by screwed up parenting values.  If our kids do drugs?  It’s our fault as a parent for not giving them enough love and talking straight with them about any subject they need to discuss.

 

Perhaps, it is the news media too.  I mean what do our kids have to look forward too?  All they see on TV is the end of the world, and all they hear about from religions is that the Apocolypse is at hand.  Why the hell should they try?  I mean if the world is seemingly going to end tomorrow then why the hell not get high?  I do not condone the use of drugs for kids, nor do I like seeing kids using drugs.  My son knows there is a time for all sin, and that time is COLLEGE!!! ~chuckles~.  I have always been straight up with my kids and that is why we have such a strong loving relationship.  Kids are smarter than adults think…they see many things and it alters their lifestyle outside ~smiles~, so if you lie to your kid they will only see hypocrisy and eventually rebel.

 

Speaking of Marijuana, I just cut 15 clones and have 4 plants to put into the flower room, so in about 2 months I will be having the highest quality bud and it costs me basically nothing.  I do not sell pot either.  Everything I grow is specifically for medical patients like myself.  I do give some away though to people who need their medicine and can’t afford it.  Hey, I give a public service! ~snickers~.  I only smoke about 2 grams a day, but I know people with DVT and Cancer who smoke up to a ¼ oz a day.  That can’t be good for you ~chuckles~.

 

I use to be prescribed endless painkillers, and then one day they said I couldn’t have anymore.  I had no natural endorphins because I had been on painkillers for so long.  I decided after that I was not going to take painkillers unless I absolutely had too.

 

Another reason I trust Marijuana is because it was made by the Natural Order (God).  After my dad had a stroke from Vioxx (he is now stuck in a wheelchair) and the asshole who forged the paperwork doesn’t spend a day in jail, I can’t trust anyone to have mine, or humanities best interest at heart!!!  So I chose my own poisons based upon the greed and decadence of rich people who care nothing for the lives they ruin just to protect their incomes ~sighs~.

 

It is our diversity that makes us so awesome as a whole! ~smiles~.

 

I sure hope you all are doing well.

 

Today’s song is for all those people who are trying to have their mother in laws love them and the confusion surrounding their endeavors…

 

I want to be the boy that warms your

White Stripes

I Wanna Be the Boy to Warm Your Mother’s Heart

 

I wanna be the one to warm your mother's heart
I'm so scared to take you away
I tried to win her over right from the start
But something always got in the way
We've been sitting in your backyard for hours
But she won't even come out and say hi
While my mother baked a little cake for you
And even dreaded when you said goodbye
What kind of cartwheels do I have to pull?
What kind of joke should I lay on her now?
I'm inclined to go finish high school
Just to make her notice that I'm around

Well nothing I come up with seems to work
It feels like everything I say is a lie
And never have a felt like such a jerk
I'm afraid to even open my eyes
Because I really don't want her to judge me
I want to her really know who I am
And then, and only then she will love me
Well at least that was the plan

If ever a boy needed a holiday
If ever a girl needed someone to hold
I just hope I don't act the same way
By the time that I get old

I never said I was the heir to a fortune
I never claimed to have any looks
But these kind of things must be important
Because somebody ripped out my page
In your telephone book

I want to warm her heart

Yesterday the phone rang and I answered it.  It turned out to be someone from NORML (National Organization to Reform Marijuana Laws).  I had asked about creating a chapter here in Spokane.  He said they have been trying but could not find enough people for the “Board of Directors”, so it looks like I will get to start at the top of the ladder ~smiles~.

 

As you all know I am very political and have ties with “MoveOn.Org, Defcon, etc.”  This is a chance for me to get out of my house and feel useful.  Something I haven’t felt in a couple years since I was fired from my last job for trying to kill my boss ~chuckles~.  Well my last two bosses, sometimes God just doesn’t work fast enough for me ~chuckles~.  It is hard to get a job when you have tried to beat your last couple of bosses to death ~snickers~.

 

A couple years of being a director could set me up for other political landscapes within my state.  Not too mention the networking possibilities.  It’s not what you know, it’s who you know…sad but true.

 

My mom and dad left yesterday to head back to Yuma, Arizona.  I will miss them, but I will see them again next June.  They spend the summers up here but hate the winters.  I don’t blame them.  I actually came here 15 years ago to get away from the desert ~chuckles~.  I actually prefer the cold to scalding heat ~grins~.  I hope you trip is safe and uneventful mom and dad.  They have a laptop so they will probably still be reading my blogs ~smiles~.

 

Today I will be playing an anti-Republican song ~chuckles~ by an obscure group.

 

Warrior Soul

The Party

 

Go with the flow
Ya just let it ride
We don`t care if ya live or die

We suck of the companies
We suck like a whore
If we need oil, we just suck some more

We define success
And we don`t sin
Got the nation in debt
About four trillion

Infrastructure is wasted
And we`re deaf to the crowd
Nothin` left for the children
It`s ok, we won`t be around

Welcome to the party
The republican party
Ya havin` fun at the party
The republican party
We`re havin` a party, right now

We stack the courts
And we tax the poor
Got Johnny Lunchbox
To fight our wars

Tax him to his knees
And make him love the flag
We get corporate freedom
He gets a body bag

We`re makin` a killin`
You know we kill so well
Cut the country to pieces
And we`re havin` a sale

We take it all
Just like ya knew we would
Hell we even got Nixon
Lookin` pretty good

Welcome to the party
The republican party
Ya havin` fun at the party
The republican party
We`re havin` a party, right now

It seems a lot of people are discussing Rosie O’ Donell’s comment on Christians.  I tend to agree with her after several doctors died and several patients got hurt in a Christian Bombing of an Abortion clinic here in my town.  And my town isn’t the only one where it is going on.  Fundamentalists who can’t read the Bible are apparently at fault.  I would presume that any real Christian would argue that it is not a Christian act, which I would firmly agree.  They also have a website by the Christian Coalition which is basically a “Kill Site” for crazed Christians to kill people in the name of God ~chuckles~

 

I don’t care for Rosie and I use to always make lesbian remarks about her and my wife would tell me to keep it to myself.  It would appear I was right when she came out of the closet ~snickers~.  My wife being a hardcore fanatical Christian won’t watch her anymore since she has been a lesbian ~chuckles~.  Umm what changed besides her title?  She went from being fat and annoying to a fat annoying lesbian.  I doubt it has changed anything in her lifestyle.

 

The reason Gays hate Christians is because Christian persecute them all the time when they should just be loving them and treating them like family, after all Jesus did say “Be kind to your enemies, and do good to those that hate you.”  So why don’t we just be nice to them?  Persecution regardless of race, creed, religion, color, etc. only begets persecution.  I am sure that Rosie (as much as I dislike her personally) feels that persecution and lashed out.  She could probably use the publicity too, when she came out of the closet she lost all her Christian consumers, now that is sad.  Christianity could have loved her and rallied behind her and eventually she would have to deal with the guilt in her own mind ~smiles~ which would fester and cause her to come towards the light ~blinks~.

 

Hate begets hate…and a true Christian’s role is complete and total love undying love, unity and justice.

 

I often hear people trying to explain their hate as a human weakness, but God has given us freewill, so in actuality it’s those things we don’t want to let go of that we use that feeble excuse.  When I do something in opposition of God I don’t blame it on Satan or my humanness.  I do it because I wanted to do it!  It is still my will and a part of me I am not willing to give to God yet.  I never blame it on the devil or humanness because God has promised us liberty and freedom from the Devil’s works.

 

The Devil is never a taker, although he uses every illusion and means to make one go down the wide path and bypass the narrow path.  I have met the Devil twice and have found him to be a fear-monger, using human fear and vanity to do his bidding.  It is our choice though; we have a freedom only given to humans.  Without freewill we would go crazy because we are the image of God.  So it surprises me with so many out there claiming some benign religion yet still persecuting and converting others, which in my experiences only brings separation and disunity.

 

Gail and Mollimouse are correct in stating that there are Godly Churches.  I tend to focus on the ones not doing God’s will ~chuckles~  and in no way mean to be converting or offensive to those who do follow God’s will, of course I think that if one is following God’s will then they can’t get angered by me ~chuckles~.

 

I hope this finds you all well.

 

Today I will be doing another Iconoclastic Song…

 

Jethro Tull

My God

 

People -- what have you done --
locked Him in His golden cage.
Made Him bend to your religion --
Him resurrected from the grave.

He is the god of nothing --
if that's all that you can see.
You are the god of everything --
He's inside you and me.

So lean upon Him gently
and don't call on Him to save you
from your social graces
and the sins you used to waive.

The bloody Church of England --
in chains of history --
requests your earthly presence at
the vicarage for tea.

And the graven image you-know-who --
with His plastic crucifix --
he's got him fixed --
confuses me as to who and where and why --
as to how he gets his kicks.

Confessing to the endless sin --
the endless whining sounds.
You'll be praying till next Thursday to
all the gods that you can count.

Divoo reminded me of what my doctor said too me once when I refused painkillers.  He said that sometimes one must have no pain in order to heal, so I took a 30mg of Morphine last night, and then a neighbor came over and smoked a bowl with me.  I also drank a six-pack of beer.  I still hurt but not nearly as much as I did Monday and Tuesday.  The reason I don’t take narcotics is because they are extremely physically addictive and you constantly need more and more to kill the pain, which drains one of their natural endorphins.

 

At one time I was on heavy painkillers for over a year and a half.  Then one day they just said I couldn’t have anymore because I had reached a threshold that would start becoming unsafe, so they made me stop cold turkey.  I can’t even begin to explain the excruciating pain I was in for about six months after that while my endorphins slowly started coming back.  I swore after the withdrawals and pain that I would never take painkillers fulltime ever again.  It just isn’t worth it.

 

Alien Hunter wrote a great article on September 10^th about Christianity and what it means to fight the Devil.  It was a very good article, even though I am a firm believer that the majority of Christians seemingly worship Lucifer while crying out Christ in the churches.

 

The modern church needs a revival of spirituality.  There is only one God, there should only be one church, and denominations fractured from the truth are an abomination to God.  My wife hears this from me all the time ~chuckles~.  It doesn’t change anything ~smiles~.  Remember Revelations says that masses will think they are worshipping the true Christ while actually worshipping Lucifer.

 

I tell students of mine to read only the “Red” writing in the New Testament.  If a Nubian listens to that request they will find the truth.  The church is a self perpetuating “Beast” and carries the number 666 ~cringes~.  It is the number of man.  When I see preachers driving 911 Porsches and Dodge Ram 4X4’s it makes me cringe.  These are things of station in a material world.

 

During the Iconoclastic period all wealth was torn down.  Monks went around destroying the sacred icons of God.  I say it is time for a second Iconoclastic period.  There is nothing wrong with fellowship, hell we all want to be around birds of a feather ~smiles~.  I say tear down the institutions and symbols of God, get rid of all the thieves trying to sell their music and books in the name of Christ.  For it has been turned into a den of thieves once again.

 

I know people really believe in what they are doing too.  My wife is one and she doesn’t understand a word I say ~chuckles~.  Blind devotion is not what God wanted.  God wanted us to think, question and refute untruths.  The politics of the church is the destruction of the church.  My hope is everyone gets the chance to see God.  And I am in no way trying to bust anyone down to core fundamentalisms or force them to view God as I do ~smiles~.  It is merely a warning out of love, after all I don’t have to pay for your sins ~winks~.  I only have to pay for my own maladjustments ~chuckles~.  That and my children if I was to screw them up, fortunately my kids are doing well ~smiles~.

 

So today I am going to play an Iconoclastic song.  The reason I put the words down is because most people can’t hear the words in the music I listen too, but my songs always go with what I am playing on my site ~chuckles~…

 

Black Sabbath

Disturbing the Priest

 

Ahh ha ha ha ha ha ha hah!
de de de de de de death!
Ahh ha ha ha ha half!
Oh!

Let's try get to the sky
Hang on or you're going to die
Sour life can turn sweet
It's laying at your feet

Sweet child with an innocent smile
Watches closely all the while
Don't be fooled when he cries
Keep looking at the eyes

 

Good life is contradiction
Because of crucifixion
If you're ready and have the need
I will take your soul and plant my seed

 

I just gotta listen to the night at the ending of the day
I just gotta listen to the night as safety slips away
Moving out of sight are the things you need to (see to feel/sleep fugue)
And as they slip away becoming so unreal unreal
You just gotta listen to the night as you're going upstairs
You just gotta listen to the night and don't forget to say your prayers
And as you lose control to the eyes in dark disguise
And icy fingers send electric lies lies

 

We're disturbing the priest
Won't you please come to our feast
Do we mind disturbing the priest?
Not at all, not at all, not in the least

Aahhh-ahhh, Do we mind disturbing the priest?
Aahhh-ahhh, not at all, not at all, not in the least

 

The force of the devil is the darkness the priest has to face
The force of the night will destroy him but will not disgrace
To get into his mind and to his soul you gotta set a light
The flames of doubt so deep inside inside

The devil and the priest can't exist if one goes away
It's just like the battle of a sun and the moon and night and day
Force of the devil that's we're all told to fear
Watch out for religion when he gets too near too near

 

We're disturbing the priest
Won't you please come to our feast
Do we mind disturbing the priest?
Not at all, not at all, not in the least

 

Good life is contradiction
Because of crucifixion
If you're ready and have the need
I'll take your soul and plant my seed,

 

 oh

Aahhhh, ahhhhh, ahhhahhh
What heh hey
Heh heh ahhhh-ha ha ha ha ha right
Ohhhh(Ahhhhhh-ha ha)
Ohhh

 

Let's try getting to the sky
Hang on or you're going to die
Sour life can turn sweet
Is laying at your feet

Sweet child with an innocent smile
Watches closely all the while
And when he cries
Keep looking at the eyes,

 

 ohh-ohh
Oh-oh disturbing the priest!
Yeah-oh disturbing the priest, yeah
Heh ha ha ha hey
Ah ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha
Heh Hehhahaha
Ahhhahahahahad
Ohhhahhgggg...

 

 

Sorry I haven’t been on in few days.  I got a new game last week and have been obsessing on annihilating it.  I do that, then I am like; “Now What?” ~chuckles~.  Time to buy another one I guess.

 

However, yesterday and the day before I spent much of my time laying in my bed curled up in the fetal position vomiting and passing out from pain ~sighs~.  I am doing a bit better today, but not much.  This is my life without Marijuana ~sighs~.  Isn’t it nice the way the “Right Wingers(with the exception of Gail ~winks~)” keep us from getting medicine that doesn’t have nasty side affects? ~sighs~  But when pharmaceutical companies are saturating political pockets with billions of dollars of incentives, us poor little grassroots groups can’t match intelligence with the money the drug companies do.

 

That is how you get things done in our country nowadays.  That is how you win the government over; through bribery in all it’s glorious and political names; Lobbying, Contributions, perks, etc.  It’s all the same.  It makes me long to return to the Kingdom of God so that I can have instant gratification for all the suffering Mammon has caused upon the realm of human debauchery. ~sighs~

 

The new game is “Jade Empire” for Xbox.  Made by the same software company “Bioware” that produced the Knights of the Old Republic I & II.

 

The graphics are intense and extremely smooth.  I did have a few areas where the graphic stuck but not nearly as bad as past “Bioware” games.  This stems from them trying to put too much information on the disk.  The loading times are terrible, mostly because it is an RPG game, which takes a lot more work than first person shooters.  Still they could have put less info/code in and Xbox could have put a lot more RAM in their system.  I think “Bioware” should make it’s own console…Play station and Xbox have been making shitty consoles for years when they could knowingly make a system that would last for 5+ years, but then their profits would fall ~sighs~.

 

The storyline was awesome and it didn’t have any dead end plots that KOTOR II & I suffered.  There are really only two moral pathways to go…good or evil.  They claim three but you lose out on a lot of nice gems and stuff that is alignment specific.  I prefer not to lose out on these things.  The storyline and subplots sync’d up well together ~smiles~.  Something I cannot say for other “Bioware” games.  Either they don’t have experienced game testers or they just don’t care sometimes ~chuckles~.

 

Playability was not as good as the KOTOR series.  I beat the game in under 10hrs of playtime, which amounts to about 25hrs with all the loading and pausing.  It was a nice length of game play.  For a normal casual gamer it would probably last two weeks to a month, but I am a hardcore gamer and obsess upon winning.  I am on my third game and I just got it last Thursday ~smirks~.  Not to mention I have been playing RPG’s since 1976 and have a fundamental core understanding of all RPG games regardless of creatures, plots, etc.  It didn’t have nearly the game play that Morrowind III had but I prefer the “Bioware/Baulder’s gate engine” over the Morrowind engine.

 

I played a superhero game back in the 80’s that used the same engine that “Jade Empire” used.  I found the number of techniques and possible combos were staggering and overwhelming for the amount of playtime one had in the game.

 

Overall I give it an 8.7 out of 10…a point plus over KOTOR II.

 

I’ll be back in a couple days to catch up on everyone’s sight.  I am still in a lot of pain and it hurts to sit upright and type, but I thought some of you might be getting worried about me because of my health, so basically I got on here to curb any fears that might exist in the minds of my friends I have acquired on “Spaces”.

 

I should be back on tomorrow.  I hate being bed ridden and I fight it every chance I get ~smiles~.  If not tomorrow, then Friday for sure ~hugs~…

People never seem to surprise me ~gawks~.  An acquaintance of mine that I have known for a couple years, actually I have tried to raise him like one of my own, but apparently he or I have failed, but more him though ~grins~.

 

Apparently him and his buddy got drunk and decided it would be a good ideal to grab up their weapons and beat the shit out of sleeping homeless bums ~sighs~.  They were smashed I guess.  My attitude is if you can’t get smashed and have a good time, then don’t do it, because the repercussions are never good.

 

Four of the people they attacked were hospitalized (look in SpokesmanReview on the 8^th in section B1).  One of the guys had broken facial bones from getting pounded on with a baseball bat.  It was a “Riot” felony, but the guy they stabbed died early this morning in the hospital, so it has just been upgraded to “murder” or voluntary manslaughter at the least.

 

They came by my house that night around 10pm.  I told them to go away because it was at 10pm.  I mean I am a family man for God’s sakes ~grins~.  I don’t want a bunch of drunk assholes making noise on a school night ~sighs~.  Perhaps I should of let them come in, but they made their own choice.  None of them were old enough to be drinking, if I were the cops I’d want to find out who bought the liquor for them first off.  People “black out” and do some stupid shit.  Hence, the reason I said if that happens perhaps one should not indulge into that sphere of life.

 

I got to thinking about it and talking to my neighbor.  Only two of my best friends/ Clan Brothers are still around.  The rest are in prison or dead ~sighs~.  I could go into detail about the Mexican Mafia and how a couple of them died and leaving one in prison for life.  It’s no wonder I have PTSD ~chuckles~.  I am supposed to be getting some Busbar (or however you spell it?).  My psychologist said it should help me ~smiles~.  I hope so.  It isn’t like I can get a job in this town anymore.  Most employers frown on people who try and kill their bosses ~snickers~.  I don’t know why?

 

Never a dull moment around here I tell ya…

UPS sure has pissed me off. ~chuckles~  I get a note on my door telling me that UPS came by and I was not home, but they said they would return from 2pm – 5pm the next day, so I waited until 5:40, and I had to leave because I had to pick my wife up from work.  We come back home, lo and behold, another note on there that says next attempt tomorrow after 5pm.

 

Well this just pissed me off, ~grins~, so I call the 1-800 number and I can’t get a hold of a live person!

 

I usually have a note on my door when I leave.  It says, “Please leave parcels with next door neighbor.” ~smiles~.  I didn’t even know they delivered after 5pm.  I hate when I can’t get hold of a human being.  It makes me want to crash their mainframe ~snickers~.  Luckily for them I hate prison. ~grins~

 

If a company says that it will be somewhere between 2-5pm and they do not?  I get penalized ~sighs~.  That doesn’t make any sense.  Soon I fear we shall be indebted to corporations as we are already with political powers, which give themselves raises and incumbency.  I am not seeing any trickle down effect like the local and global encomiasts have been stating for the last 20 years ~grins~.

 

Oh well, I guess it is inevitable that humanity crawl around like livestock swaying to the political referendum and rich elite media owning clowshoes ~chuckles~.  I love persons, but sometimes people make me want to vomit.  The whole cattle mentality of doing what your told because it is right.  People no longer fear God and therefore no longer fear their own actions to be a threat in the afterlife, and they prefer to attain their treasures in the now.

 

Let me assure anyone that is listening.  God(s) is/are very much alive by whatever name one gives it.  There are only 8 true alignments that consists Good, Evil, Lawful, Chaotic and Neutral.  One may wish to call their God Christ, another may wish to call their God Allah, in the end they are both same and have love, kindness and happiness as it Goal for humanity.

 

What really bothers me is that in Ireland, Kosovo, and the Middle East.  Christians/Muslims kill each other on a daily basis.  Hell, in Ireland it isn’t anything to blow up a bus of little Catholic Girls, or Protestant Children!  When denominations of a single savior or God can’t get along when Jesus said, “Be kind to your enemies, do good to those that hate you.”  I think that pretty much sums up the fruit of Christ’s Tree, yet as a nation Italy sided with the Nazi’s and Germany.  The Holy Roman Catholic Church ~smiles~.  More like the Religious Mafia selling absolution of sins for money to become rich and self-perpetuating.  The exact opposite of which Jesus Spoke.  Christianity has failed our country by doing the opposite of what their doctrines tell them to do.  Heaven will not look like anything imaginable on this plane of existence.  A religious institution shall be judged by the fruit of its tree.  As a Christian Nation we went to war in the name of peace.  What happened to forgiveness and being kind to your enemies?  A justification is the worm that rots the apple of truth.  All shall be judged by the Glory and Grace of God(s).  Forsake the illusion of institutionalized Religion.  Do as Jesus, Allah, Buddha, etc. has commanded you by authority of God.  Look at the institutions you belong to and see them for what they are.  Move away from Lucifer the Morning Star.  He who leads Christians into the blinding light that is the illusion of the Great Deceiver.  Be sure it is Christ that you pray to, and that you works are the true works of Christ’s words, and not the corruption of man and the dark lord(s).

 

Lucifer is the light and is the beauty within the Rose, which fools humanity into not following their own doctrines and blinding them with a self -righteousness.  The Dark Lord is never a maker.  Many crowd the churches of America praising Jesus, but God sees all, and all is made of God.  Beware of the wolf in sheep’s clothing ~smiles~…

My buddy Jerry called me yesterday and said he was having computer problem, so I went over to his house and he fried up some hamburgers.  He got some nasty spyware on his computer from one of those scam companies…they tell you have crap on your computer just so you’ll freak out and go to their site and order their product.

 

I don’t buy products from companies like that.  I was looking for a spyware program called AdWare to put on his computer.  It is free and works great.  I accidentally downloaded the wrong one.  It was called “Spyware Doctor” and is touted as the number one anti – spyware software by all the big computer magazines.  It said it was a trial but I said oh well let’s try it.  It went though the whole shebang and then told me how many critical spyware applications there was, but it wouldn’t erase them till you bought their product.  I don’t care if God promotes your product, if I cant test the full client I don’t want it.  Why would I want to pay $30 when I can get one from Adware for free?!?!

 

I uninstalled “Spyware Doctor” and put on the free Adware.  Funny thing is;  It caught more critical objects than the expensive one ~snickers~.  I realize that most people aren’t computer savvy and will fall for anything.  That is why I am telling you not to buy stupid software programs, because you can just get about anything for free.  That is what new companies do…they give you freeware until it gets its foot in the door.  Then they start charging people.

 

I have been with the New York Times since their inception to the internet.  Now if you want the NYT you have to pay a monthly fee, but those that made them popular on line…the pioneers get it free for life ~smiles~.  And there is no better news than the NY Times unless you watch Deutch, PRN, BBC or CBC.  Because the media news stations are owned by the same rich people who put money in the political pockets of our shameless delegates.

 

If you have Comcast you get free McAfee Anti-Virus, Firewall and Privacy Guard.  Comcast has their own toolbar.  I don’t use it in my browser but I did download it because it stops pop ups even when not on your browser as a toolbar.  My favorite has always been Symantec, but I am not going to pay $80 for Symantec/Norton Internet Security when I get McAfee free ~laughs~.

 

Anyways, I fixed his computer and he gave me $40 and some meat and garden fresh veggies.  I usually help my friends and family for free, but he knows the predicament we are in so he gave me stuff.  They are well off so it isn’t anything to him, which is why I probably took it.  I enjoyed spending time with him.

 

Jerry and his wife are building a new house.  When they are done it will have a huge sewing area and woodshop.  Jerry is a master seamstress, furniture builder and restores antique autos.  Their house is going to be huge and all on one floor.  He has bad knees and hates walking up and down stairs.  I don’t blame em.  I got bad knees and don’t like it either ~chuckles~.

 

Malachi’s first day in Jr. High was yesterday.  We have always put him in the best schools in Washington State, and we did it without knowing it ~chuckles~ Gotta love God! ~grins~.  He wore his Lucky Jeans (I can’t believe people pay $100 for jeans) and his Black Sabbath T-Shirt ~cheers~.  That’s mah boy!

 

He is breaking the cord to his mother after 13yrs and she is beside herself ~chuckles~.  He will always be mommy’s little boy, but now he is changing into a man and moms are embarrassing to be around in that stage.  My wife is funny because I can tell it’s breaking her heart but she won’t say anything about it.  I guess she will when she is ready ~smiles~.

 

Well I can honestly say I have the coolest psychologist in the world!  He is going to hook me up with some of the influential powers when I start a NORML chapter here in Spokane.  I am going to work on having Marijuana legalized in the city like Denver did, then we’ll get a ballot to legalize it in the State next election ~cheers~.  Whatever keeps me from going crazy I guess ~chuckles~.  As of now Patrick Stiley is the only Lawyer for NORML here in Spokane, so I think I’ll hook up with him first and see what the hoopla is all about.  It won’t happen overnight here in this conservative town, but over time I shall erode the will of the self-righteous and sully the cattle minded thought patterns of the “Right Wing”.  I will be working hand in hand with SAFER, which is an organization, which proves that Marijuana is much safer than alcohol, especially for health and recreation.  And I will be working with SSDP (Students for Sensible Drug Policy).

 

I hope you are doing well today and that you and your family’s achieve the love and satisfaction you so righteously deserve ~smiles~.

 

Today’s song is a mellow bong song by Sublime; Enjoy!

 

Sublime

Bong Song

 

Some folks say smoking herb is a crime,
if they catch you smokin
they're bound to drop the dime
insufferable informa crazy fools
wait with their fingers crossed
for you to break the rules

and in the evening when we try to jam
we like the music loud
in this here band
we let the bass line drop as loud as we can stand
somebody always gotta turn informa for the man

I want to know right now
is there one of you in the crowd
are you gonna call 911
and spoil all of my fun
you crazy fools

I'm in the mood
get ready come on now
load up the bong
crank up the song
let the informa call 911

(indisguinishable)
I'm in the mood
get ready
im in the moooood
come on now yea
im in the mood
are you ready?
im in the mood
come on now yea, come on.
Load up the funk
Cranck up the fun
Let the infoma call 911

and when security police force want to arrive
don't try to run
don't try to hide
just pull out the .9
pop in the clip
and let one slip
into these crazy fools
(Induisguinishable)
I'm in the mood
get ready
im in the moooood
come on now yea
im in the mood
are you ready?
im in the mood
come on now yea, come on.
and in the evening when we try to jam
we like the music loud
in this here band
we let the bass line drop as loud as we can stand
O i wanna know, i wanna know right now
are you eilling or able, you crazy fool.

Some folks say smoking herb is a crime,
if they catch you smokin
they're bound to drop the dime
insufferable informa crazy fools
wait with their fingers crossed
for you to break the rules

I'm in the mood
get ready
im in the moooood
come on now yea
im in the mood
are you ready?
im in the mood
Get ready
Im in the mood
come on now

 

Alien Hunter found a site with “Ink Blots”  This is a true psychological test that psychologists use to create a profile on a patient.  It said it was PhD certified, so I am assuming there is truth to it.  I wouldn’t pay no $10 for it though.  I don’t think Alien did either.  Why would I want a 25 page report on myself ~snickers~.  I have been living with myself for 41 years.  I think I know myself pretty well without a 25-page report, but I did have fun doing it and thought I would post it.

 

Adam, your subconscious mind is driven most by Curiosity

You are full of questions about life, people, and your own potential. You spend more time than others imagining the possibilities for your life — and you're open to things others are too afraid to consider.

You have an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself and the world. You also have a rebellious streak that shows up when you feel unable to truly influence the world or circumstances around you. Your appetite for novel experiences also shows an openness others don't have, but wish they did.

Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.

Today’s song deals with the dogma of Religion and the institutions that stifle and kill the true spirit of God.  Worshipping Lucifer while crying out the name of Jesus!

 

Jethro Tull

Wind Up

 

When I was young and they packed me off to school
and taught me how not to play the game,
I didn't mind if they groomed me for success,
or if they said that I was a fool.
So I left there in the morning
with their God tucked underneath my arm --
their half-assed smiles and the book of rules.
So I asked this God a question
and by way of firm reply,
He said -- I'm not the kind you have to wind up on Sundays.
So to my old headmaster (and to anyone who cares):
before I'm through I'd like to say my prayers --
I don't believe you:
you had the whole damn thing all wrong --
He's not the kind you have to wind up on Sundays.
Well you can excommunicate me on my way to Sunday school
and have all the bishops harmonize these lines --
how do you dare tell me that I'm my Father's son
when that was just an accident of Birth.
I'd rather look around me -- compose a better song
`cos that's the honest measure of my worth.
In your pomp and all your glory you're a poorer man than me,
as you lick the boots of death born out of fear.
I don't believe you:
you had the whole damn thing all wrong --
He's not the kind you have to wind up on Sundays.

I just got word that Steve Irwin “Crocodile Hunter” is dead.  He was filming a segment called “Deadliest Creatures” off the Great Barrier Reef.  He had gotten to close to one of the Stingrays they were filming.  The barb on the ray’s tail pierced his chest and entered his heart.  The poison being let out in the heart killed him almost instantly.

 

The crew tried to keep him alive with CPR and had an emergency chopper to airlift him but he was already pronounced dead.  His beautiful wife and their young child survived him.  My greatest condolences to the Irwin Family as they were loved and revered here in the USA.

 

It was only a matter of time before something like this would happen.  I mean he always messed around with the deadliest of creatures, which most of them live in Australia.

 

Things like this make me think of my mortality.  I am slowly dying piece by piece.  I should have been dead a million times, but I still live.  I am awe inspired when I think about my sorted past.  All the dirty needles I used and Meth skanks that I boned.  I never got so much as Hepatitis C.  I had friends who got AIDS the first time they shot up.  I have been freehand cliff climbing drunk out of my mind almost falling a few hundred feet to my death.  I have been in numerous gunfights and have only been shot once in the knee, and it wasn’t that bad.  I was a semi-rock star in Southern California, so I had different girls every night.  At any point and time I could have died or been infected with a deadly disease.  Is this luck?

 

I would like to think my occult and spiritual training has something to do with me still living today, but it may not have anything to do with magic or God.  When I see people like Steven Irwin die doing what he loved to do and dying fast.  I wish I could die fast sometimes.  I tell you this slow death is killing me ~snickers~.  I want to go fast and relatively painlessly.  I don’t know if having your heart pierced by a poisonous beast was painless or not, but it sounds like it was fairly merciful.  Had it not pierced his heart he could of lived.

 

When I was snorkeling and diving on Guam I remember placing my hand on a rock and the rock slid out from under my hands.  It was in actuality a Stonefish, probably the deadliest fish in the ocean.  Talk about my heart dropping into my stomach.  Once I got out of the water just in time to miss the 14’ Hammerhead that was curiously eyeballing us with its electromagnetic head.  I have almost been brushed into Lionfish and Turkey fish numerous times.  I collected Cone Shells and had the most deadly of them all.  The “Conus Geographis”  It was cool and had little lakes and mountains on it.

 

In San Diego we use to catch Rattlesnakes with our bare hands.  My buddy Billy Poole was holding a small rattler one day and tripped and fell.  He got his hand up just in time or the snake would have bit the bridge of his nose and he probably would have died, but because it got his thumb he survived.  Even though the amount of poison was very high because it was a baby and didn’t have control over the amount of poison it shot in him.  All that could be done was to keep him calm and keep his heart rate down.  He had to be carried a few miles out of the desert.  Then the ambulance came.  He was messed up for a couple of weeks.  He said the antivenom is the worst.  That was the last year we went rattle snake hunting barehanded ~chuckles~.

 

I have wiped out on a motorcycle three different times at 120mph + without a helmet, and I am still alive.  One time I had a passenger with me when my oil injector went out on my RD 350 at 130mph.  I think I still have some fingernail scars on my ribs ~chuckles~.  I can’t even begin to explain the vast amounts of car accidents I have been in.  Like Steve Irwin I have routinely put myself in death’s doorway and have been fortunate enough to live, but I would imagine if I’d  play the chances of law and probability I would eventually be dead, and perhaps I don’t deserve a quick death ~sighs~.  And that is why I linger and rot slowly ~shrugs~.

 

I am doing great.  I am out of pot but not hurting too much yet, however this is my big house-cleaning day, so who knows how I will feel by the end of the day?  My neighbor owes me a gram, so hopefully he will have that today.  I met some guys that were really cool and they are compassionate and said they would give me free bud!  ~cheers~.  Only problem is they live in the wilderness.

 

My “Clan Brother” David has been buying fish.  My brother in law moved to Kellogg Idaho and couldn’t bring his fish tanks so he gave them to me.  David and I went to get them.  There was an 85 gallon, (2) 29 gallons, and a 10 gallon.  All the equipment and stand came with them, so David got like $1000 worth of fish stuff for free ~cheers~.  That 85 gallon tank will make a nice saltwater tank ~smiles~.  Anyways his house looks like a fish store now ~chuckles~.

 

I hope this finds you all well and that you will pray, light a candle, or do whatever your religion tells you to do to aid in the pain and suffering of the remaining “Irwins.”  Today’s special song will be dedicated to the living “Irwins”

 

Warrior Soul

The Golden Shore

 

Sorry, I have to go away
The path for me just keeps moving on
I walk for days
In fevers hot and grave
Lord knows we`ve paid

But when the times are hard
Take a look, remember
How much I love you
Take a look, at what we are, remember
How much I love you

In sacred time remember
When my head hits the floor
By the light of life`s bright glimmer
On the golden distant shore

By the light of life`s bright glimmer
Tell me what this life is for
As november`s sun grows dimmer
On the golden distant shore

Sorry, I have to go away
The path for me just keeps moving on
Foundations hard and great
Caress the soul estate
Paradise not to fade

But when the times are hard
Take a look, remember
How much I love you
Take a look, at what we are, remember
How much I love you

In sacred time remember
When my head hits the floor
By the light of life`s bright glimmer
On the golden distant shore

 

 

What a mess my house is and I just cleaned it yesterday.  Being a househusband sucks in one respect…I never get a day off! ~chuckles~

 

I am listening to the sounds of the Humpback Whale.  It is so beautiful and somewhat eerie as it sounds in the vastness of the deep blue.  I use so many tools to get me out of myself, for as long as I am within myself I cannot hear or feel what others true desires and thoughts.

 

I watched a movie with my son yesterday.  It was called Chumscrubber.  I explained to my son as he watched it that society is very much like that movie.  The richer one becomes the more they lose touch with the outside world and gain the weirdest idiosyncrasies because they have nothing to dream about anymore, except perhaps world domination.

 

When you’re rich you don’t know who your friends are, so you have to surround yourself with birds of a feather ~sighs~.  Since they too are rich at least you know they don’t want your money.  Perhaps that is why Jesus said, “It would be easier for a camel to fit through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to ever see the gates of heaven”.  Jesus, Buddha and Mohammed spoke specifically on forsaking all material possessions in order to see God.  That has happened to me involuntarily.  Today I am richer than I have ever been; yet I am poorer in materialism.  Funny how that works ~winks~.

 

The garden grows well and in a couple months I will have a never-ending supply of my medicine again. YAY!  It sure makes life easier when I have it, but I can’t really afford to buy it.  It is too expensive.  I read that Sativex might come to America.  That would be nice because it is a whole plant spray basically it is liquid marijuana.  So instead of eating it in cookies, bread, etc.  You can just spray a shot or two in your mouth and get the same affect without the extra calories.  But I will still smoke it because even though ingesting it lasts longer and works better with pain, smoking it works better on the mind ~smiles~.

 

I have been lazy on changing my songs, so today I will change it and put the song down here as the song of the day, or week, or month ~snickers~.  I have a full understanding of the new LIVE SPACES now so I can do everything faster again.  It will be nicer when I get that 3.2GHz up and running!…

 

Mudvayne

Monolith

 

...These symptoms suggested that our evolution, I suppose, from the animal kingdom into the human kingdom itself was catalyzed, or triggered by our encounter with these hallucinogenics, and...

[Second voice]
...Yes, we are an ape with a symbiotic relationship to a mushroom, and that has given us self reflection, language, religion and all the spectrum of effects that flow from these things...

[First voice again]
...And one can only wonder how these hallucinogens might effect our future evolution as well...

[Second voice again]
...They have brought us to this point, and as we make our relationship to them conscious, we may be able to take control of our future evolutionary path...

Everything is going great right now, I feel better than I have a weeks.  I am still in pain but my soul is doing much better ~winks~.

 

We went to Wal-Mart last night and spent less than $100 and then I went to Sonnenberg’s today and got a bunch of meat ~drools~.  I love MEAT.  I am a MEAT EATER! ~roars~.  I hate Wal-Mart and everything it stands for, but I am a consumer whore and we are poor, so we need to save every dime we can.  It is nice to have food ~smiles~.

 

We haven’t even got school supplies or clothes for Malachi yet ~sighs~.  It looks like thrift shopping ~grins~.  They raised our rent $60, this is the second year in a row, but last year it was only up’d by $15.  So our rent is $596 which is still very good for a 3 bedroom and 1.5 bathrooms.

 

Sometimes I just feel like getting a job and working.  It has been quite an adjustment this last year, after working for 25 years.  Being forced into a Mr. Mom position was not my intention for the remainder of my life ~chuckles~.  Better this than a cold prison cell at a penitentiary of the criminally insane!  Speaking of I need to go do some laundry.

 

I hope this finds all well…